Marilou S's Experience
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Experience description:
My experience happened
when I was very young. I'm not even sure how old -- maybe 4 to 6 yrs. old? I'm
sharing this experience because I have not thought about it for decades--but in
the last year, I have been thinking about it a lot. The memories are coming back
to me, although not in great detail.
My mother died in 2007
of pancreatic cancer, but before she died I asked her if she remembered what
happened about the lump in my throat, and she said she did, but never could
explain it.
One day I remember
feeling a lump in my throat. I told my mother that I had an "Adam's Apple",
like my Daddy. She thought I was just being silly, but I insisted. She looked
at my throat and immediately made a Dr. appt. for me. I remember having quite a
few Dr. appointments., then my Mom told me they were going to have to operate on
my throat to get rid of the lump. I never had any pain and I felt completely
fine, except for my "Adam's Apple". I am an identical twin, and my twin sister
never experienced anything similar, to my knowledge. We are very close, and my
mother says we had our own language that only we understood.
I remember being very
aware that my operation would be done on the following morning. Everyone seemed
very, very worried about me. I went to bed, like usual, and fell asleep. During
the night, I remember? (or felt) someone coming to me and pulling me upwards. I
felt very safe and secure. I remember thinking it was an angel, but I don't
remember if the entity was male or female. We were looking down on me, in a
hospital bed. I recall conversing for quite awhile, but I don't remember
anything we spoke about until the question, "Do you want to stay or come with
us?". I remember thinking that it would be okay to go, but I wanted to stay
with my twin. At the moment I thought this, I woke up.
At first I didn't
remember what day it was. Then I touched my throat. No lump. I ran to my
mother in the kitchen and told her she didn't have to worry about me anymore,
because the lump in my throat was gone. Naturally, she thought I was just
scared, and didn't want to go to the hospital, but when she looked at my throat,
she immediately called the Dr. and took me to the hospital. After the Dr.
examined me, he confirmed that the lump was gone, but he had no idea how it
could have disappeared. I told my Mother that I had spoke to the angel the night
before and that everything would be ok. I remember everyone being so relieved
and mystified about it, but we never really spoke about it again.
I never had any other
problems associated with the lump, and have been relatively healthy in every way
since then. I cannot explain what happened or why, only in the last year, that
I have continually thought about it.
That's my story, any
explanations or observations would be welcome. Thank you for letting me share
this story.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
Uncertain I do not remember if I was given medication. The
experience happened to me the night before my scheduled surgery.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
Uncertain I remember everyone being very worried about me, but I was so
young I was not aware of the seriousness of my condition.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Very
alert, but on a "different plane".
Was the experience dream like in any way?
kind
of.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes I was looking down at myself from a great height.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Safe, secure.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
I
don't remember.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
Uncertain It was more like a white fog surrounding us.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes Very beautiful and light. It was by my side. It communicated with me,
but I don't remember most of it. I did not feel like I knew them, just that
they cared about me.
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes I knew I was somewhere else, not really a dream, but definitely an
out-of-body experience.
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes Yes, I remember feeling very certain then, but I do not know what
I was certain of, or why.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes Yes, I felt like I was hovering close to the ceiling of the hospital
room.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
Yes I was asked if I wanted to return.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain My twin and I have always been able to communicate with little or
no words.
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Uncertain can't remember
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
Not
sure.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes My mother, my twin, my husband. Not sure anyone believed me. It was
long before these experiences were commonplace or discussed in public.
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
Safety, security, love.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
It
was all good. I just don't understand what happened or what it all means.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Wondering if there could be any info about this in my medical records. If so,
how do I find these records?
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes