Margaret KJ's Experience
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Experience description:
I was having a
lucid dream - I am "moving" something like walking beside another person. I am a
ball of blazing light, the "person" next to me is also light. I don't see faces,
but I know that this is a "being". We are having a conversation but our mouths
are not moving (so telepathically communicating). We are moving down a very
dark hall and then come into a large room that is filled with "people" i.e.
other balls of light. The balls of light surround me, and I am overwhelmed by
the communication, there is much chatter i.e. telepathic greetings, and I can
hear everyone. There is a feeling of warmth, happiness and joy and familiarity
like I know this group of beings.
We are somehow
connected to one another with a deep sense of understanding and knowing, but we
are not family members. And I begin to sing. I am singing but my mouth isn't
moving and the music is originating from the middle of my upper chest. The song
is loud and clear and it feels like the room is my voice, I feel the music, the
other beings, and the light and the feeling intensifies, and it is like we all
become this one big light and beautiful sound. As I pull back out of the LCD I
feel myself going back into my body but I still hear the music lingering and
echoing in my ears. I wake up.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I am
very conscious and can feel the experience as if it were real.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No and Yes.
LCD's that I have experienced are more real, i.e. everything is intensified and
feels more real than an every day awake experience.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
Yes,
when I LCD I am very aware that I am not in my "body".
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Peace, joy,
happiness, and great warmth and love from these other beings. Understanding and
a sense of reassurance.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
Yes. Loud
singing, loud song, it was like a musical x by 1 million.
Did
you see a light?
Yes,
I was
light, the other beings were light.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes
I was
in a large room? A large gathering place. I did not "know" them but there was a
connection with all of them. A sense of familiarity and a sense of family and
love and acceptance. A sense of oneness with these beings.
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes
My
five sense didn't seem to come into play. I experience a magnified intensity of
something, but I am not sure it is my "senses" per say. It is like you are one
with what you experience. If you hear, it is as if you are sound, if you see, it
is as if you are that color. There is such a deep profound connection and
feeling with what you experience, which is different from what you experience in
waking life.
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes
I was
left with the feeling that I am connected to a higher, greater life force. My
encounter with these other beings was like going on a spiritual retreat. My
faith and beliefs were validated and although my purpose wasn't spelled out for
me, the encounter left me with the conviction that I can trust my inner voice
and intuition which has been leading me to a healing, helping career with
others. The encounter left me feeling very connected to my inner wisdom and
knowledge and beliefs as well as connected to a larger life force.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
Yes
A
week after this dream I had a premonition dream. I wrote the dream down the
minute I woke up. 2 days later the event happened, just as I had recorded it in
my journal.
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Uncertain,
I am uncertain,
but I knew that I was in my body again, and that I was "back".
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain
I
have been had "psychic" abilities since I was a very small child. However, since
this last LCD and encounter, my psychic awareness and inner voice has become
very "loud".
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
The
experience has left me with this voice that wants me to move forward, now, into
the area of healing and helping. My inner voice has become very loud and it is
hard to ignore what I now feel is a "calling" that I need to answer.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
It has actually
had negative impact on some relationships with family members who are very
skeptical and think I might be going crazy. I tried talking to someone close
about this experience because it left me feeling very mixed up and almost
disturbed. This experience almost had me doubting my own sanity. As far as
religious practices I have always been a very spiritual person, and have never
doubted my faith. Career wise, this has made a huge impact and I am in the
process of moving into a healing profession that I have thought about for many,
many years.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Applying for training in the health care field so that I can work with others.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
Disbelief, disbelief, disbelief. The standard response is "what did you eat last
night?"
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
I had a range
of mixed emotions, from a profound sense of love and acceptance and
understanding, to feel very confused at what I should do with this experience.
i.e. what does this mean? what was the meaning. I also felt that I might be
going crazy, and maybe I'm having some sort of delusional episode, or mid life
crisis.
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
There was no
worst part.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes