Margaret K's Experience
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Experience description:
I was
sleeping and having a very lucid dream. I am outside, I see myself
becoming
immersed into rushing water. I sink to the bottom of the water and it becomes
dark. I am trapped under the rushing water but am able to breathe as I am
submersed in a bubble with plenty of oxygen. I keep opening a top hatch and
water leaks in and I am physically aware that there is a strong, pressurized
sensation above me. I know I must go up through the water, but I hesitate to go
up to the "top", I don't feel prepared.
In my lucid
dream, I am communicating with myself in my mind, and am aware that my voice is
outside of my body (there is an obvious sensation of a presence outside my body)
I tell myself it is time, and I open the hatch and go through the dark water to
the top. That is when I felt the electrical shocks begin through my body, and a
slight pressure on my chest, and then a release - I am now experiencing a very
floating type of feeling. I am very aware of a immediate change in environment.
I am alone in
my grandparents house, but I am aware that it is not really their house, but a
manifestation of it (my grandparents house was a home filled with tremendous
love and safety). There are intense colors and an overwhelming sense of being in
a different realm where everything is magnified (i.e. sensations). I physically
feel that I am not connected to my body. There are no words to accurately
describe the heightened sense of awareness and intense feelings. It is almost
like I become one with everything around me. There is an overwhelming sensation
around me that I am in a realm that is not "heaven" but not "earth" either.
I physically
feel that to stay in this place requires a great deal of energy. There is an
inner knowing that someone from far outside the house wants to talk to me (I do
not know this person directly). And then my attention is drawn to several
objects in the house. The message comes through in forms of the objects and
this deceased person makes it clear as to who they are and who they want the
message passed on to (it was a deceased friend of my grandfather, whom I have
never met before). As I see the objects, I somehow know that the objects
represent the message. The deceased person giving the message, is very very far
away but I still "hear" their request. Once I get the message and understand it,
the objects vanish.
Then my
attention is directed to the top of the stairs in the house. My deceased
grandmother is standing at the top, and I am filled with an overwhelming feeling
of love, and tranquility and calm. I am very aware that my grandmother is
deceased. She has a body, which softly glows but it is not a "solid" body, it is
light, and ethereal. I talk to her, but not with a voice, with my thoughts
(which I am very very aware of). She communicates the same way with me. I tell
that I knew she would come, and that I miss her very much (it has been several
years since she passed). I am very aware that she has also come from somewhere
else, and it requires a lot to be there. I rush to the top of the stairs and am
very aware that I am able to float above the stairs. We embrace, and there is
such a surge of love and good feelings. I feel as if my chest will explode with
love and I physically feel electrical shocks going through me. I am so excited
to see her that I begin to yell at her with my thoughts. She lets me know that I
am being too loud and I somehow understand that I need not scream at her, I can
think quietly and she can still hear me.
I ask i.e.
"think", whether she has seen my deceased father, and she shakes her head. I
feel very upset but a knowing overcomes me that where ever she is, she hasn't
been there long - I am made aware that "earth" time is much faster than her
time. She says she has been with her mother and hasn't had the time yet, to see
my father. *There is a brief moment when my grandmother seems to listen to
something, and then I am very aware that my grandmother isn't there, but someone
else is. Her eyes change color and for some reason I feel that my father has
briefly appeared* There is an urgency that I must say goodbye.
I give her a
hug and I feel as if some kind of connection has been lost and I am being sucked
in to a dark whirlwind. I feel as if I am being pulled back and I see flashes of
vivid color. Physically I feel these cold electrical shocks going through my
entire body and I feel the pressure in my chest again. I immediately open my
eyes and am aware that I am present in my body and back in this "dimension".
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Fully
conscious, fully alert.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
Yes and No. It
was a dream, but it wasn't. Hard to describe.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Overwhelming
calmness
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
No.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes
Yes.
Please see above description, under experience.
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
NoDid
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Uncertain
I
don't think I was experiencing "sensations" as in the normal sense of the word.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
Yes.
I felt as if time did not exist in the altered state.
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
No response
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes
I was
aware that the "inside" of the house was the boundary and that my experience
would only be limited to the inside of the house.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain
Since
I can remember i.e. very small child, I have had psychic abilities and have had
preminitions. I have had about 5 OBE's that were this strong.
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No response
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
Disbelief. Doubt.
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
Intense
happiness, and gratefulness for being able to "go" to that other "place".
Sometimes a sense of confusion and sadness and longing.
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
Best part was
to see deceased loved ones. Worst part is all the physical sensations which can
be very overwhelming i.e. electrical shocks, and being sucked into a dark
tunnel, heavy chest pressure.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No