Marcus' Experience
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Experience description:
I had 2 experiences in
this past week. These are my only experiences in my entire life.
(1)9/13/2013 sometime
after 2am. I fell asleep telling myself I would try to induce an out of body
experience (OBE). I became consciously aware of my self while in a dream and sat
up in bed. I stood up next to my bed and began to realize that I was separated
from my body. My room was exactly as it is in reality. It was dark, the glow of
a street light coming in from the window was there. It was very real. I turned
to see myself lying in bed. I saw the blanket and the bed and my general form
and then became very frightened and did not allow myself to look at my face. I
tried to scream for my wife. I was paralyzed, unable to scream and closed myself
out of the whole experience. I woke up after a few seconds of absolute terror
calling my wife's name (she was in bed next to me).
I spent the next few
days scared to go to sleep like a child afraid of the dark. I knew I needed to
overcome this, but the fear is very real.
(2)9/18/2013 sometime
after midnight. I fell asleep again telling myself I would try to induce an OBE.
I had worked on affirmations, telling myself I was safe and that there was no
reason for fear. I was still scared though. Nevertheless, it happened again. I
was sleeping on my side when this happened but was not immediately aware of
this. When I felt I had separated from my body, I thought I was lying on my
back. As I tried to get up from bed, I fell to the floor (not my body, which was
still lying on its side, but my separated consciousness). I could not make sense
of balance (up/down/left/right) because I was convinced I was on my back when
this started, but was not. I was stuck on the floor facing my mattress and again
became very frightened and tried to call for my wife. I could not speak, I was
paralyzed (again). This time I told myself that I knew what was happening and
tried to calm down. I woke up still laying on my side and facing the other way.
I was disappointed in
the feelings of discombobulating and I wish I had lied on my back before trying
this time. Still I felt that I had made a small step toward getting over the
fear. I am still afraid, but I will try again.
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Very alert, very
conscious. In both situations, the surroundings were very real, and the same as
if I were awake (no rainbows or aliens or anything surreal).
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
Yes.
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes I was only in
this state for seconds so I cannot say for sure, except that it felt like I was
me. eyes, ears, hands, etc.
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
fear mostly. I will try
to overcome this.
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
no.
LOCATION
DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a
light?
Yes I could tell
the light was on in the bathroom, and the street light was shining through the
window.
Did you meet or see
any other beings?
No
Did you experiment
while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
I did fall out of
bed (my separated consciousness, not my body) and felt the floor beneath me. It
was all very solid and real.
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes It was
the same as I feel and perceive things now as I write this. Nothing surreal at
all.
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
Yes During the
second experience I was thrown by having been laying on my side. It made the
balance of my consciousness offset. I could not grasp how to correct this and
became disoriented as to the space around me.
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes The floor and
mattress. As I fell from my bed I was on the floor next to my matress and unable
to stand, completely disoriented.
Did you become
aware of future events?
No
Were you involved
in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Uncertain I
was frightened, and wanted to return (I knew I was out of body). I tried to calm
myself the second time this happened, but I woke up anyway. I felt myself return
without trying.
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
No
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I know this is
a real phenomenon now, not just people talking crazy. lol.
How has the
experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices?
My wife is tired of listening to me try to explain this.
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes They don't seem
impressed, I think they think I'm a story teller or something.
What emotions did
you experience following your experience?
I am still afraid to go
to sleep. I am working on this. I am a grown man and I haven't felt like this
since I was much younger.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
worst: pure fear.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I
really hope to be able to conquer my fear and have a more in depth experience. I
know now that this will happen whether I want it to or not. I can stop it by
concentrating on other things, but if I let go, my body will just go there now
(during sleep).
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
The
first few questions made me feel as if this might be for people that experienced
something very different than what I experienced. I think there should be a
"sleep induced" box to check.