Marcia T's Experience
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Experience description:
I had a serious, but
undiagnosed illness in my late teens and then for years afterwards had a
multitude of symptoms from every system of my body, that gradually got worse as
the years passed. I've always been psychic, premonitions, a bit of telepathy,
but during the illness the psychic experiences became very much more vivid and
very, very frequent. When I was 30 despite the illness I started training as a
student nurse. The first out of body experience occurred in the middle of a
ward while I was working. I was sitting in chair next to the patient and
chatting to them. In the middle of the conversation I suddenly found myself
looking down at the top of my head. I was still talking to the patient. I then
saw myself get up from the chair and walk across the bay of the ward to the
nurses station. The position from where I was seeing myself didn't change, that
is I remained above the chair while I watched myself walk away. When I was
walking past the nurses station I found myself abruptly back in my self. I had a
slight sensation as if something had hit me. I can't remember whether it was in
the back or the front. I felt jittery and a little disorientated and my heart
was beating fast. I went to one of the empty side rooms to, well, pull myself
together.
The second experience
happened years later in 1997. I had finally been diagnosed as having a cyst
(tumor) half the size of my abdomen, crushing my organs, obviously very slow
growing and very life threatening. I was living with my parents at the time and
was waiting an operation. I wasn't sure whether I wanted the operation but knew
I would die with out it in the near future. I couldn't understand why I was
still alive with something of that size inside me crushing my adrenal gland,
kidney and pancreas and pushing everything out of place and wondered if I really
should be dead. Anyway, I went to bed and went to sleep. It was dark outside
and the curtains were drawn. I woke up during the night. There was enough
light to see the details of the room in the dark. I got out of bed and walked
across the room to go to the toilet. I tried to open the door and couldn't. I
looked back over to the bed and saw the shape of a body covered by blankets in
the bed. As soon as I saw that I found myself back in myself. I was gasping
and in the middle of quickly sitting bolt upright. I had a sensation of
something hitting me hard in the solar plexus (just below the sternum). I got
out of bed and had a look around, tried the door etc, no everything was normal.
I went back to bed and went to sleep. Incidentally, I was the only one sleeping
in that room. I was sleeping in a queen size bed. Although puzzled at the time
the experience didn't upset or disturb me. I was more disturbed by the
diagnosis.
In the second
experience I was asleep as far as I know.
Was the experience
dream like in any way?
Neither experiences
felt at all dream like.
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes Yes, the
illness, although I didn't know it was life threatening.
What was your level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
For the first one I was
fully conscious, or at least believed I was. I believe I may have been
experiencing an altered state of consciousness for along time at that point and
didn't realize it. Even though the tumor would have been large when I was a
student nurse I couldn't feel it, I couldn't even feel it when it was discovered
four years later. I should have also been in agonizing pain around the clock
with it, but wasn't, although there was intermittent, sever pain, it wasn't all
the time. I think my body image or ability to sense my body had changed and
perhaps I was experiencing some sort of illusion of having a normal body image.
I also experienced occasional tactile sensory distortions and sometimes felt as
if I was physically much, much taller.
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes In the first
experience when I saw myself walking away everything looked perfectly normal.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
It's
a bit hard to remember. I know that with both experiences I was unnerved a
little afterwards. I can't remember being frightened or any particular emotion
during either experience.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
No
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
response I didn't seem to go anywhere, except that my body and
consciousness weren't in the same location.
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Apart from trying to open the bedroom door.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes Well, yes, obviously I could hear the nurses at the nursing station
chatting. Their conversation continued during and after the experience, no
change.
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Uncertain I don't remember feeling anything or smelling anything, but
I could see and hear perfectly except not from the point of view of where my
body was.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes The bedroom door.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No Not during out of body experiences but many, many premonitions over a
number of years around that time.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
No Continued to have an exceptional level of psychic events occurring.
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
Because I had so many things happening these two events didn't change anything.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes I was speaking to my brother on the phone about it this evening. He is
having what he believes are out of body experiences, but totally different to
anything I've experienced. He's able to lucid dream, I've nevr done that, so
don't know what's going on, he said he's had loads of these experiences recently
and has seen lights and what sounds like his aura.
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
Bewildered, frustrated.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
Finding everything was normal afterwards.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
These experiences really happened. I always thought I would be scarred but
wasn't. I might have had one much earlier, many years befor when I think I had a
cardiac arrest in hospital and found my self standing at the end of my bed
looking at myself. However, i'm not sure if that really happened. I'm
absolutely sure these other two happened and believe my consciousness was
temporarily not in my body.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes As well as I can remember.