Mae Prebirth
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EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

 I have a memory of choosing this life.  In the memory I am sitting, I guess, though with a different kind of body. All around me is white light, but with dimension and depth so that it is almost tangible, and it carries feelings and thoughts in it.  To my left beside me is another spirit. I can't remember their face, and every time I look over to see, it isn't really a face or a "person," per say, but the presence of a guiding force, yet still a person, or a spirit.  I am being shown a life on earth. It isn't on a screen but rather what I would describe as through a tunnel, or, a magnifying glimpse in the atmosphere that is below me and to the right a little.  I see my mother and it is because of her that I choose this life.  I am aware that I have lived many lives before and I am being given a choice this time; I don't have to go back if I don't want to.  But I am interested. I am sad, looking at this life, I sense how hard and sad life on earth it, that this life will be challenging, extremely challenging, and I will forget the spirit I am connected to at all times, beyond that earth.  But it's something about my mother. I know that I am meant to be her child. Maybe I recognize her spirit, I don't know, but I connect with her.  I know that without saying anything I agree internally, that I want to take on this life, and the next memory I have is of darkness, warmth, fleshiness.  I feel stuck. I feel suddenly big, unwieldy, sticky, fleshy. But super cozy.  I settle into a curve of this place and I know "they" are trying to get me out but I decide it's okay if I stay right here, so comfortable, like a warm bed.  Next I know there is bright, ugly light and I am being yanked into it.  I hear my mother's voice, I know I am being carried away from her.  I remember the feeling inside of me, a desperate need to connect with her, to be back inside her body.  This feeling must have lasted because I have several memories of being an infant, flashes of wanting to go back, go back.  I remember once looking up at my mother from a crib and thinking how frustrating it was that I hadn't learned her language yet, that I couldn't talk. My spirit was fluent, I was thinking probably more lucidly than I do now as an adult. I was wiser, too.

I was born cesarean after a very long labor.  My mother and I shared a challenging and deep relationship. She passed away about a year and a half ago and I was with her when she transitioned.

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes   

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?      very conscious

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  different than a dream

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  Yes   

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          mostly total acceptance and understanding  and omniscience and love. but as i transitioned i felt sadness and fear and loss as well.

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         droplets of water

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?   Yes    there was a vague similarity to heaven / being in the heavens and amongst the stars

 Did you see a light?        Yes    all light

 Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    I knew them. There was a guide spirit to my left helping me choose, and I knew that I had a flock of angels who would come with me. I forgot that part until now. I was shown that I would be accompanied to earth.

 Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         Yes    Since then, but not during this experience.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain     there are some things I know I was shown about this life that I now don't remember.

 Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes    I had more than five.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes    no time.

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes   

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           Yes   

Did you become aware of future events?      Yes    but lost the memory of them since.

 Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          Yes   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain          I have always had psychic gifts

 How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   i don't know

 Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes   

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    best was being with the spirit beside me and the feeling of peace and calm, and also the connection to my earthly mother that called me back to earth. worst, the fear and sadness immediately present in earth life.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    Yes    dreams and visions not due to substance / once had a past life vision while on hallucinogenic mushrooms also, but all others without.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Uncertain     could it ever?