Experience description:   

I told my mother and my sister that I am moving to the US. I was 19 at that time. I had a huge argument with them. They did not want me to come. They yelled at me and my mother slap me. It was the first time for her to slap me. I got very angry to the point that I started screaming, crying and yelling. I don't remember being that angry before. Then I saw my self from where my sister and my mother were standing about 4-5 feet opposite from me. They were looking at me and I was to the hysterical point that I felt that this is how people in asylums feel. Even though I was aware of my surroundings I could not go back in to my body. I was just standing there between my sister and my mother looking at  my self on the floor screaming and kicking to empty air. It took me couple of seconds to realize that I had an out of body experience. I was looking from my eyes at my self while I was between my sister and my mother but the weird thing was that their shoulders were side by side, therefore there is no way I could be between them unless I was invisible but yet I would see and hear everything they were whispering. They were scarred looking at me screaming like a lunatic but I could not help it. I kept saying to my body to stop screaming and kicking while being on the floor but my body kept saying "I can't" how do I stop that? My body asked me to help but I did not know what to do. I wanted to go back in to my body but somehow my body and my brain were separated. It was like my conscience was in the "invisible" body and my physical body was just an empty vessel without control of each actions. After some time I went back in to my body and I was so terrified I never told anyone until recently.

When I was younger I used to have these anger issues. Some times people would get hurt if I was angry about something. After that episode I got so scared but so relieved at the same time that I was able to go back in to my body that I suppresses these feeling, starting yoga, and got involved with arts. It looks like it calms me down. But now I am starting to have questions. What if the people with out of body experience can help science to help people in psychiatric clinics? Are these two related? What if when people in asylums go through this experience and their reaction, because they are experiencing an out of body experience, is what my reaction was, screaming, kicking or simply "going nuts"? It is worth looking in to it.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No       I can express it in words but no one would believe me. Plus i was frightened from the experience. I thought I would never go back in to my body.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No       Just my sister and my mother rejected my wish for something that meant everything for me at that time.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           My body was just "out of control" on the outside, screaming, kicking, crying hysterically but inside I knew that I had to stop screaming and kicking and crying but I could not give the order to my brain to stop my muscles and my reactions.

My "invisible body" was the "wise" body full alert of what was happening but could not do anything because I was of "thin air".

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No. It was real.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     My body could move but not think. My body could feel but not give orders to my emotions, or body parts. It was acting on it's own. Me, on the other hand I was not in my body. It is funny I say "me" but I felt that "me" at that moment was not part of my body but I needed that body to do things, like move arms or control emotions because "me" is just invisible, yet wise, or the "brain". I could see things and I could think but I can't do anything because I don't have a body. So I needed that body and I had to calm my body down so it would except me back.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            My body was just acting hysterically crazy and angry. The calm and wise "me" that was doing all the thinking was out, 4-5 feet away from my body and invisible but yet I could see and hear everything around me in great detail.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No. Just my sister and my mother whispering to each other while my body was screaming hysterically.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No           

Did you see a light?           No       No. I did not have a close to death experience.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes    

I heard what my sister whispered in my mothers ear. There is no way I could have heard that because my body was 4-5 feet away on the floor screaming. I heard it because I was 2 inches from my sisters mouth when she leaned over to my mothers ear.      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?             I could see with my "invisible" body only

I could scream with my body only

I could hear with my "invisible" body only

I don't know about taste

I could touch with my body only      

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?          These 2 "things" go together; the body and the other part that does the "thinking" and gives order to the body. One cannot function without the other. They need each other.

Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?            Well I don't know, "me" was trying to get in to my body for some time but my body was confused because it did not know what to do. The more I could not go back the more my body was getting frustrated. "Me" was saying to my body to calm down, communication was only by thinking and not actually talking (some kind of telepathy I guess), and my body kept "saying" I can't but in the mean time the hysterical stage would not stop. My body knew what it had to do but it just kept being on a hysterical stage for a while (until I returned back in to my body)

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Well, these things are scary. I try to forget.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?               Maybe I was "different". I don't know. Nobody wants to be different. So if you don't try to analyze them, you forget them and they forget you...

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       This is something I never said to anybody except my psychology professor. So I guess, I try to hide it.

Have you shared this experience with others?                     My psychology professor in college.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  "What just happen? I am so thankful I got back in" (to my body)

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best, don't think so. Worst, the time that I could not go back. I was really afraid my body will stay separate from me.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        It was frightening.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Uncertain