Experience description:

One evening I went to sleep, when suddenly, I found myself in a luminous void, feeling complete plenitude. I no longer felt pain. At that moment, I no longer remembered anything about my life. It was simply me, with that everything; it was like feeling myself in a complete wholeness, full of love, freedom and pleasure. I was floating in that luminous void and I felt very good. I didn't even try to remember who I was - I was in that eternal present.

Then suddenly, some very tall doors appeared before me, and I began to move towards them. But there were two luminous beings on each side of the doors. Those beings were brighter than the light in the place in which I found myself, because I was able to distinguish them. I started heading towards the giant doors, in a direction such as from south to north (to describe it somewhat).

It did not feel like I had a physical body, I was simply going forward, when the being that was on the north side moved towards me, and with a soft voice told me: "Your time hasn't come yet!" And that was when all the memories of who I was, of my children, the illness, etc. began to come back to me, along with an immense sadness and disappointment, because I did not want to go back.

I had really been very happy to get there. I had no intention of going back. But it was not my decision. I simply did not have permission to pass through those doors, because I still had things to do down here on this earth. My mission was not accomplished; the immense love that I could feel over there - I had to replicate it here on earth. At that moment, I felt like I was beginning to fall down brusquely, and I reintegrated my body, sitting up suddenly on my bed, taking a deep breath of air so as to breathe. It launched a big change in my life, in my being, slowly, but without pause. The way I see life changed even more. I left behind my fear of dying, which had paralyzed me daily before my experience.

Before that: The disease - clinically incurable chronic myeloid leukemia - was diagnosed when I was pregnant with my last child. The doctors were not optimistic about said pregnancy, since there had been no case of pregnancy with that diagnosis at the time, so that they didn't how to treat it.

Unemployed, without a source of income to be able to be closer to the specialists, I had to move to the capital of Sonora, since the situation was critical and an emergency could not be treated with the same diligence here in Agua Prieta, Sonora. There were days when I couldn't even pay for the bus and go to the hospital, but nothing broke my spirit, my faith and the desire to live and give birth to my new baby. It was my driving force at that moment.

One day, they called me to a meeting with other doctors and, surprise, there were around five specialists in that room, all trying to convince me to abort the baby, since there was not much chance that either one of us would survive if the pregnancy continued. They put the abortion papers in front of me, for me to sign, and everyone gave their opinion on why I should sign them. One of the strong arguments was that I was already a mother and had to live for my daughters, and that if I did not agree to the abortion, I was being very selfish for not thinking that my daughters needed me.

That moment was truly heartbreaking and full of fear - fear of life, fear of death - but most importantly, I was overwhelmed with love for my ALL children. And my answer to the doctors was: If I had three lives I would gladly give them for each of my children, but since I only had one, I would give it for whoever needed it at that moment, and at that moment, it was the baby that I was carrying in my belly. So I refused to sign, and asked the doctors to support me in that decision.

So the doctors had to respect that decision and let me go ahead with the pregnancy, but not before warning me again that I was in great danger. I really had a very bad time, and occasionally, I did think that I wouldn't make it, but every morning where I woke up, the only thing I would say was: "THANKS GOD!" And I clung to prayers and gave thanks for absolutely everything I was getting at that time. An act that I continue to repeat to this day. My son is now 15 years old and extremely healthy. I programmed his health without realizing it. Now that I investigate more and more the spiritual realm, I realize that I used a lot of the techniques that are recommended to hack your mind and achieve positive outcomes in life. Since I always told him that he’s a healthy child and he feels like one, he is amazed when he gets a cold because he says that he is healthy. I have taught all my children how to practice Hoʻoponopono.

Since my experience, I am certain that death is wonderful, and only good awaits us on the other side, but good things are also experienced down here in this life. We just have to modify our way of thinking, and speak to one another nicely every day, love each other a lot, live life's experiences with the expectation of learning and growth, even if it brings us pain. Knowing that it is always for the better, it is always for the best, even if it doesn't seem like it at the moment. Knowing what awaits me on the other side gives me a lot of peace and calm, to live life with more tranquility and hope.

Thank you for reading this!

Blessings always!

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Una noche me fui a dormir, cuando de repente me vi en un vacío luminoso, sintiendo una plenitud completa, ya no sentía dolor, en ese instante no recordaba nada de mi vida, simplemente era yo con ese todo, era como sentirme en una totalidad completa, llena de amor, libertad y placer, flotaba en ese vacío luminoso y me sentía muy bien. Ni siquiera intentaba recordad quien era, estaba en ese presente eterno. Cuando de repente unas puertas muy altas se presenta ante mí, y comienzo a ir hacia ellas, pero se encontraban dos seres luminosos en cada lado de las puertas, esos seres eran más luminosos que lo luminoso del lugar en el que estaba, pues lograba distinguirlos, empecé a dirigirme hacia las puertas gigantes en una dirección de sur a norte (por describirlo de alguna manera).

No sentía cuerpo físico, simplemente iba, cuando el ser que estaba en el lado norte se mueve hacia mí, y con una voz suave me dice, aún no es tu tiempo!... y fue cuando todos los recuerdos de quien soy, de mis hijos, la enfermedad, etc. me empezaron a llegar, junto con una tristeza inmensa y decepción, pues no quería regresarme. Realmente me había sentido muy feliz de llegar allá, no tenía ninguna intención de volver. Pero no era mi decisión, simplemente no tenía permiso de cruzar esas puertas, porque todavía tenía que hacer aquí en esta tierra, mi misión no estaba cumplida, ese amor tan inmenso que pude sentir ahí tenía que replicarlo aquí en la tierra. En eso siento como empiezo a caer fuertemente, y llego a mi cuerpo sentándome fuertemente en mi cama agarrando una fuerte bocanada de aire para poder respirar. Inició un fuerte cambio en mi vida, en mi ser, lento, pero sin pausa, la forma en que veo la vida fue cambiando aún más, deje el miedo de morir atrás, pues eso me paralizaba día con día, antes de mi experiencia.

Previo: La enfermedad Leucemia mieloide crónica clínicamente incurable, fue diagnosticada cuando estaba embarazada de mi último hijo, los doctores no daban un buen augurio de dicho embarazo, ya que no existía en ese tiempo un caso de embarazo con ese diagnóstico, por lo que no sabían cómo tratarlo, sin trabajo ni fuente de ingresos para poder estar más cerca de los especialistas se tuvo que mover a la capital de Sonora, ya que la situación era crítica y una emergencia no se podía tratar con la misma agilidad aquí en Agua Prieta Sonora, había días que no tenía ni para pagar el camión e ir al hospital, pero nada me quitaba el ánimo, la fe y las ganas de vivir y dar a luz a mi nuevo bebé, era mi motor en ese momento. Un día me citaron a una reunión con otros médicos, y cuál fue su sorpresa que había alrededor de unos 5 especialistas en dicha sala, todos tratando de convencerme del porque debía abortar al bebé, ya que no había muchas posibilidades de que viviéramos ninguno de los dos si el embarazo continuaba, pusieron frente a mí los papeles de aborto para que los firmara, y todos opinaban del porque debía fírmalos; uno de los argumentos fuertes fue que ya era madre y tenía que vivir para mis hijas y que si no firmaba el aborto estaba siendo muy egoísta por no pensar en que mis hijas me necesitaban. El momento fue realmente desgarrador y lleno de temor, temor a la vida, temor a la muerte, pero lo más importante es que me inundaba el amor por mis hijos TODOS; y mi respuesta para los médicos fue; que si tuviera 3 vidas con gusto la daba por cada uno de mis hijos, pero como solo tengo una, la doy por el que la necesite en el momento, y en ese momento era ese bebé que cargaba en mi vientre, por lo que me negué a firmar, y pedí a los médicos que me apoyaran en el proceso. Por lo que los doctores tuvieron que respetar la decisión y seguir adelante con el embarazo, no sin antes volverme a advertir que estaba corriendo mucho peligro. Realmente la pasé muy mal, y en ocasiones si pensé que no podría lograrlo, pero cada mañana que despertaba lo único que decía era; ¡GRACIAS DIOS! Y me aferré a la oración y a dar gracias por absolutamente todo lo que obtenía en ese tiempo. Acto que sigo repitiendo hasta estos días, mi hijo tiene ya 15 años y es sumamente sano; programé su salud sin darme cuenta, ahora que investigo más y más de lo espiritual, me doy cuenta de que utilicé mucho de las técnicas que se recomiendan para hackear tu mente, y tener logros positivos en la vida, pues siempre le dije que es un niño sano y él se siente como tal y cuando llega a tener un resfrío se asombra, porque dice que él es sano. A todos mis hijos les he enseñado a hacer hooponopono.

Después de mi experiencia tengo la certeza de que la muerte es maravillosa, y solo bueno nos espera del otro lado, pero también lo bueno se vive aquí en esta vida, solo hay que modificar nuestros pensamientos, y hablarnos bonito cada día, amarnos mucho, vivir las experiencias de la vida con expectativa de aprendizaje y crecimiento, así nos traiga dolor. Saber que siempre es para mejor, siempre es para bien, aunque en el momento no lo parezca. Saber lo que me espera allá del otro lado me da mucha paz y calma, para vivir la vida con más tranquilidad y esperanza.

¡Gracias por leerme!
¡Bendiciones siempre!

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes. I was constantly left without breathing, and I would wake up choking. I think it was because of the medication and/or chemo that I had to take daily. I feel like it altered my entire system.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes. It's so beautiful that I can't find words to describe it clearly.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  When I felt full of love and wholeness.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?   More consciousness and alertness than normal. It’s like being able to be in everything, with complete feelings, and that so immense feeling of love.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Everything is clearer, more tangible, although it’s not material.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I was not listening, I just felt, the words of the being that communicated with me; they weren't words, I just knew what he was saying.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Love, peace, plenitude, ecstasy.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes. I had merged with a luminous void.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. A being of light or angel, who told me that it was not my time yet.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. A luminous void, filled with love.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe. That love, peace, harmony that I could perceive - I felt that it could be replicated while in a physical body. It’s what we all are.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Yes. Giant doors that I was not allowed to go through. 

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. The being of light approached me and told me that it was not my time yet, and he sent me back.

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes. It became clear to me that life does not end down here, and that there is another type of experience over there.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes. I was able to understand that there is a whole from which we come, and which we can call whatever we like best, but there it is and we are all one.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes. Love is the connection, first for us, and it automatically is given in everything.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes. To learn to love myself, accept myself and get ahead in life, to return fully to my next life.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes. I understood that we must learn from life and overcome obstacles through loving ourselves first.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes. I understood that love is everything.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes. I understood that this was presented to me so that I could leave my fears behind and could continue to transcend my learning in this life.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. My beliefs were not defined between heaven and hell, punishments, etc. To encounter so much beauty was truly revealing.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. The memory is so vivid, even after time has elapsed - as if it had happened a few hours ago.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: Now I don't fear death, I want to continue growing spiritually, and I would love to share my experience with people, hoping it will serve as motivation in their lives for their own paths.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes. I feel more loving towards myself, and as a result, towards those around me.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes. It is faster for me to heal from ailments, or cuts, etc.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Knowing that we can live more fully. I really consider it significant.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes. Only with family and very close acquaintances.

Did you have any knowledge of near-death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes. When I was 16 years old, I felt very bad, and then fainted, but I clearly remember that I left my body. How my father lifted my body and the fear on his fear when he saw me hanging in his arms. Then I felt as if a whirlwind entered my body through my left ear, and I woke up on the floor. I don't know if that's considered a near-death experience, but that's what happened to me.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real. I have no doubt that it was real. But I do feel that, if I mention it to people who are not prepared, they will not know how to appreciate this information properly. All in good time. God's times are perfect.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real. I have no doubt that it was real. But I do feel that, if I mention it to people who are not prepared, they will not know how to appreciate this information properly. All in good time. God's times are perfect.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes. I have fewer friends and I feel good in environments with few people.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes. I no longer feel like I have to go to church to be close to God.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes. When I have deep meditations.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   It was divine.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes. This is what I experienced, such as I remembered it when I came back.

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?  Share, so that people can believe in themselves and in the beauty of the afterlife.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Everything seemed very complete to me.

Thank you!