Lourens
M's Experience
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Experience description:
Well, OK. the first
time that I can recall my experience was when I was in boarding school I was
twelve at the time. I lay down on the bed (on my back) and after only a few
seconds I felt my bed sway to and fro. I could immediately see the myself on the
bed from above, at an angle. The bed was swaying like a boat, in what I can
only describe as; a black void. The bed was floating in the middle of an
infinite total blackness. It was not scary at all. As the bed started swaying
more and more to each side I could feel my heart thump wildly in my chest, and
my body was flat and pressed into the mattress, especially my arms and hands. I
knew I could not fall off. (although it did cross my mind.) It was like my body
was afraid of this new 'alien' experience, but my mind thought nothing of it
and just went with the flow. I was calm about it all. Suddenly I was in a corner
of the room by the ceiling looking down on the room, I then just blacked out. I
do not remember returning to my body in a conscious state. The 'bed swaying
bit' that I described happened more than often in my childhood years, but each
time I would jerk myself back and fall asleep again. I just didn't think
anything of it.
I've also noted that it
helps to be physically tired in order to experience it better and to 'slip off'
quicker.
We did manual labor
everyday at the boarding school were this occurred, I was pretty tired before
bedtime...
My second experience
was the most memorable.
I went over to a
friend's house for the weekend (I was still in boarding school) And that Friday
night we spent lying on his lawn and just looking up at the sky, admiring the
stars. I closed my eyes for bit (I was probably a bit tired) when I was
abruptly pulled from my body, and again I was in that distinct total blackness.
Only this time it was way different than before. I was out and floating high
above my body about 10-15 meters or so, again looking down only this time I was
more than one entity. This is where it gets very hard to explain or put in
words; So I'm going to call the entity that I feel as close to my real self as
Entity one, and the other entity also me but not as much me, as Entity two (see
why it is so hard to explain...) I saw my body 'sprawled on the lawn', but I
did not see the grass or anything else except for my physical body, yet some
part of me knew my body was still lying ON THE LAWN. Entity two was really
trying hard to convince Entity one to return to my body, but I did not want to
at first, because I only then became completely conscious and realized how cool
this actually was!! I (Entity one) wanted to experience this state of being for
a while longer, but Entity two did not want to hear this. So there I am arguing
with myself while my body lay unconscious. It was not verbal at all - more like
expression and thoughts, also 'vibrations' and me understanding myself. (If that
is even comprehensible...) Conflicted with myself I (Entity one) gave in
reluctantly, and went back down to my body in an almost scary and urgent
manner. Like falling off of a very high building. And I 'woke up' next to my
friend, who did not notice a thing.
It is so hard to
explain, but I DID KNOW AND FEEL both entities as ME, also my entities were a
darker black than the void, if that is possible, they were shaped, but their
shapes were not constricted to one form if you know what I mean. And although I
experience this seemingly dull, black void every time it is so exciting and
exhilarating to be there, anything but dull and lifeless.
My third and last
experience was a short one. I was outside painting our fence when I started
feeling light headed, I merely sat down with my back against a wall knees up to
my face and I wrapped my arms around my knees, then rested my head on my arms.
I sat like this for a short while when I became aware that I was slowly moving
out of my body, through the left side. I was about half a meter away when it
stopped, and I 'felt' someone asking whether or not I want to continue life in
that body, and as soon as I had answered 'yes' I found myself back in my body
again. As I opened my eyes my surroundings and my body were completely 'foreign'
to me. ('foreign' for lack of a better word) I was struck with a strange silence
for a while, but it faded, and I slowly began to recognize everything and where
I was. It was awesome!! All three experiences were unprovoked or natural.
I find it hard to
induce these knowingly from a wakened state.
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
No
The worst was having to
return to my body!
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Uncertain My second experience might have been lightly induced by the
paint thinner I used when thinning paint, but I was outside. I'm not sure.
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Very much alert.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
no.
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
mostly neutral feelings
but also somewhat scared, but more excited than anything.
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
Only loud vibration
like a constant humming, but not everytime.
LOCATION
DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a
light?
No
Did you meet or see
any other beings?
No
Did you experiment
while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Uncertain
Only my mind seemed alert to all that was happening, but I did see myself as a
dark or black entity, and on my third experience I saw the floor, the wall and
my body as it is now.
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
Yes
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become
aware of future events?
No
Were you involved
in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
How has the
experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices?
None whatsoever.
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes My friend tried
it once, but he says it took too much effort and has done nothing since, but he
believes me.
What emotions did
you experience following your experience?
Awe, is all I can say.
I am still in awe as to how big and infinite life actually is...
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
The best was becoming
conscious and aware, realizing it all.
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
Please offer any
suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Did you feel or see
yourself as an 'entity'?