Experience description:

Since I have described the physical birth above, I will describe what was happening from my perspective.

I became fully aware and cognizant of being abound the scene with 2 wise and caring entities by my sides, just behind me. I watched it all.. and they asked me.. what do I want to do and I said I wanted to come, and to make it so they fixed the infant so I could continue.

I The was “whooshed' back into the baby’s body, and have about 10 seconds more complete awareness. I remember them rushing me down a corridor.. I was either upside down and seeing black squares on the floor or up the right way and saw the square lights in the ceiling as we went down the corridor, someone was carrying me wearing white clothes. Then the memory which is clear as it just happened raids and I don’t remember any more.

As a small child I repeatedly would ask my adoptive family.. 'What happened to the baby?'

Nobody knew what I was talking about and eventually I stopped asking. But I asked everyone who I came in contact with about the baby.

Two days ago, I was bought back to that place because I was having such pain that someone suggested trying medicinal Cannabis. I was able to Aquire some, but with the concoction of drugs I already take for pain it really flipped me out. I have never ever taken those substances in my life before.. and while I did have a 'trip' initially.. I fell deeper and came to be on the edge of life and death.

I was with my wife, and she held me, and I told her please don’t let me sleep as I won’t come back.. and I revisited the birth and with the knowledge of the universe was able to answer the big questions I had about the birth.. and life..

I was in a very dark auditorium.. a vast one.. with the roof of bright stars with lighted tails like comets. I could see the loved ones who passed.. and could see myself and everything at every angle and was able to talk to my wife about what I could see and tell her that I would come back but please don’t let me sleep. Keep touching me and I kept drinking water. But there was only about 10 percent of me earth bound.

I was able to shift pain from adoption that I had not been able to from my energy.. and be at peace about my poor broken body and know that I had a choice and knew this would be so and reminded of that at a deeper loving level.

Everything was pure love, pain free, perfect and of great design and meaning. I could see with great clarity about the energy that creates and how it does it and how very dense physical is. I could see the veil of amnesia that we pass through so we forget this all and see the physical as all there is.  This is so we evolve and create and fulfill the desire of source to know itself.

I was in this state for 4 hours here but seemed like 10 minutes.

I revisited the birth.. with deeper knowing and reassurance that all is well.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  I was born after a very difficult forced adoption pregnancy induction. Using forceps my head was twisted in such a way that they broke my neck. My C2 is broken in 3 places. It’s called. Hangman’s fracture which means to have this you should be dead. It is a miracle that I’m alive at all with this injury.  My birth mother was shackled to the bed and drugged to prevent her from interacting with me. I have the records from the hospital. I was born dead. I had no reflexes. It took me 6 weeks in hospital before I was adopted to recover. I still have deep furrows in my skull. There is a bubble of spinal fluid that keeps me alive.. never before seen by medical professionals.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     There are no words!

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      I was at the highest level of consciousness while I was watching the baby at my birth.. and then during the episode when I was in multiple realms 2 days ago. Much more alive, knowledgeable and potent than when I’m at my best in physical.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   There was no judgment and categorizing and trying to understand like normal. I know everything and had access to infinite intelligence, and could see all from multiple angles and understand everything.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   During my birth I had no real consciousness.. but clear and real vision of the scene. The second even I had vision like I had a multiple screen hologram of everything from all angles all at once.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   My hearing was much the same because I was more aware of knowledge just downloading rather than being told to me. Nobody spoke to me.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   Not with my birth but the recent one. I was talking seeing and interacting with my wife in our home and watching the time on the tv screen in our lounge.  I was passing in information to my wife from her Dad who had died recently.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Elation and enthusiasm.. but also in the recent one.. fear that I was dying when I didn’t want to. Funny since I often think of suicide to relieve myself of bodily pain.. but given the chance I was very keen to stay.

At my birth I was super keen to stay and to continue with the plan.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Uncertain   I felt like I was in a vast black auditorium rather than a tunnel. I was aware of pain and suffering at my feet.. and when I looked down I was full of rage for a few seconds, but I didn’t want to go there.. I wanted to look at the love and intoxicating beauty above me.

At my birth, it was dark behind me, and light around me and the 2 guides.

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   Light energy I have never seen here in earth.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
The beings didn’t really speak with voices to me. But gave knowledge telepathically.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   My wife’s Dad for sure, and my past relatives at a distance away, very joyous and engaged in their activities.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Yes   The major part of the experience was returning to the birth event

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
It was as if the realms all are here in this space but of a different vibration.. like tuning your radio to a station to pick it up. You don’t hear it without that. So it was as if I could span different realms at once. I was physical but in 2 or 3 other 'stations' at the same time, all vibrationally higher in frequency than the heavy earth one. It is very light and fast moving and timeless.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
As I described I could see the tv clock. And ther were 4 hours of earth time that seemed like ten minutes of so. I think if I were not deliberately holding in firmly to life here and my family and surroundings, I would have experience timelessness.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe
How do you describe this!????? All is well. There is great love here for you. You are not alone, nothing is going wrong, there is only appreciation.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No


Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
I knew I wanted to return and that I was given a choice to live of return home. But I wanted to stay and had to keep reaffirming that to myself.

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 


During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   Absolutely no question there is life after death.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Thee is a source of this intelligence and energy but I did not directly connect with it. But it was a known fact during both experiences.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes   I now know the answer to all my questions about my birth and about life and the purpose and how it is designed and what are the fundamental truths of existence. It isn’t possible to describe in words.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Without doubt,

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes   All is energy, and all is one, paradox is truth and polarity is the nature of the physical realm which is designed so source can look back on itself to know itself. As above so below, we too create our reality to look back in ourselves and know ourselves.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   Polarity and contrast is necessary for evolution, but suffering is not. Appreciation and love and self love is true. Hardships are perspective.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   Love is all there  is, and that absence of love is caused by your individual resistance from your thoughts.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Yes   Along each plane of polarity that are infinite and make up the physical existence platform, there are tiny cracks. Like light is both a wave and matter at the same time. In these cracks exist lower energy forms that come from previous generations that can influence us at a level that is subconscious.  There is group trauma that is healing from one generation to the next.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   You have no purpose as such other than to experience and respond and learn to respond more as source sees it than from a painful resistant state.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I know all I had come to learn was true but that I had only just scratched the surface of all knowing and I am content that I am supposed not to understand it all while in physical.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th   NDE experiences never fade or change like other memories.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I have a great deal more compassion and care for myself. I have always cared for others, but not myself. And this has been a huge change.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   To take better care of this body.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     I was able to revisit my first NDE and resolve issues that have been hurting me for my whole life.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  For the first one, I had to earn to speak to be able to articulate it. During the second one I was reporting it all in 'real-time' to my wife. The phrase 'Real-time' seems so crazy... as time is irrelevant in those realms. I mean I was telling her what I was experiencing at the time.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   I have been interested in it for ages due to my birth experience.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   Real real real. No question.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   Real.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I’m much more gentle on myself and others.. hugely.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   Spiritual beliefs have been confirmed.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   I feel like I would like to stay there in that love and comfort and knowing. And I try to just relive that feeling while I’m not there.. because I believe that to be true, and my pain here to be constructed by my fear brain,  my body pain that is always there.. is ok rather than fighting it all the time. It is my choice to have that.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   No   It is very hard to accurately describe these things but it was a good exercise to answer these questions as it seems that you understand what it is like.