Lorraine H's Experience
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Experience description:

I was home alone with my Doberman. We live alone. My only biological child lives in another province

It was around 9pm. Usually the time I take my medication for acid reflux. I was watching a movie and got up and sat on the side of the bed to take my medication (prevacid).The next thing I know, I was looking down at myself from somewhere up above but can't say where. I saw myself as I really was. I looked so tired and looked like I aged a lot since my husbands death. Wherever I was, I cannot say where and I don't know if I had a body or anything. I was looking down at myself and I can't say for how long because it wasn't like time existed. This is so hard to put into words. The next thing I experienced and I don't know how I knew but wherever I was looking from, the feelings in my heart were hitting me in my tummy and I felt it and without words, I knew what it was. It felt like a rock hit my tummy, then these emotions started hitting my tummy and like I said, I somehow knew what it was each time it hit. There was loneliness and  worry, pain, tiredness, stress, love, honesty, caring, scared, frustration, anger, regret The only thing I didn't have in my heart was hate. After that happened, I still don't know if I had a body and I don't know how much time passed but it was like I was free. Like I never existed or had no feelings, I was light and happy

Again I don't know how much time passed when I sensed my husband Lloyd beside me. I didn't see him but somehow I knew he was there. This is something that still bothers me to this day. He filled my tummy with sadness and I can't figure out why he has sadness. I always thought of him as an angel without any sins because he never did wrong to anyone and always helped. After that I sensed my dad who had passed away in 1996 and then I sensed my only daughter who died in an accident when she was 13 in 1991. Her presence wasn't as strong. The next thing I knew, there I was sitting on the side of the bed. I'm the type that questions everything and it all has to add up so I was lost. I couldn't believe what happened and to this day I still can't believe it. I just sat there going over and over in my head what just happened

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     I have been going over and over it in my mind as to how to explain what I went through

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I was fully alert and fully conscious

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No it wasn't because I knew and felt what was happening

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain      Because I knew I saw myself sitting on the side of the bed, I was aware of this and the part is, I don't know if I had a body.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I experienced the emotions from my heart hitting my tummy. I was free of any emotion other than feeling like the world was off my shoulders

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no I didn't

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?            Yes     I knew that my husband, dad and daughter were in heaven

Did you see a light?           Uncertain      I sensed things more than saw but somehow know that my husband, dad and daughter came from the light

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     my husband, dad and daughter, my husband filled me with sadness

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes     I had use of all my senses and sensed rather than actually using body or brain to know what I was feeling

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     after what I felt was in my heart, I was free of the world and don't know how much time passed before I started to sense my husband, dad and daughter and even after that, I don't know how much time passed because it wasn't like I was in a place where time mattered

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No            Yes, I sensed everything that happened to me, even with knowing who was there

My purpose is to continue taking care of my family. My mom had 14 children. 7 boys,7 girls.

There are 8 of us living. 4 girls and 4 boys. I'm the youngest of the girls but yet I'm the one that helps the family and the one that they come to for help

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Yes     I wasn't able to go any further than seeing my dad and daughter. When I sensed my daughter, I wanted to go to her and that was when I was back in my body, still sitting on the side of the bed

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes    

One, which I hate, I'm able to feel when someone I know going to die. I don't usually know who but it is always someone I know. I can feel them walk by me or looking at me. Not once have I been wrong when I had that feeling that someone I know was going to pass away. Every time I would tell the family, they would worry and each time, someone we knew would pass away

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes     After I sensed my husband and he filled me with sadness, I sensed my dad and daughter and tried to reach them, that's when I was back in my body

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes     My husband and I never called each other by our names. He woke me up three different times.

The 1st time he woke me, I heard him say "Its me dear, here I am. I opened my eyes and saw him standing at the foot of the bed and I can still remember what he was wearing. He walked over to me and bent over to kiss me and he was gone. The 2nd time, he was again at the foot of the bed. He said, Here I am dear and  was gone. the 3rd time, his snoring woke me. He had sleep apnea when he slept on his back. I woke and pushed the pillows telling him to turn to his side and then realized he wasn't there. we never slept apart and I have to sleep with pillows against my back now

 Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I try to make up for past mistakes and I'm more forgiving and don't hold grudges against anyone

 How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       positively, I'm more secure with self and not afraid to die

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain      I'm short tempered but never stay mad. I've been striving to get over being short tempered and have more patience

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Some wanted to know more and kept asking me questions over and over and others said, that was quite the dream and others said that I was at heavens door and sent back and others asked me what I was taking to have such a wild trip

 What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Happiness, confusion, loneliness and guilt. I buried my husband in my hometown and he wanted to be buried with the rest of his family in another city. I thought that's the reason he filled me with sadness. But then again, he loved me more that anything and 4 months after, I was diagnosed with breast cancer and also with a collapsed intestine and my mom just passed away in sept.2012

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best was knowing I had no hate in me and knowing my family is in heaven, The worst is my husband filling me with sadness

 Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        When I was a child, I remember going through something like this. I was quite ill and fevered and I remember floating up towards the ceiling

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No       But 2 weeks ago, I awoke to someone talking. When I opened my eyes, there was a boy sitting at the foot of my bed. He was young, in his early teens and I don't recognize him but he was talking to me and kept pointing towards the left of my home. He had on a few pounds and had fair face and black hair and he had on a striped nylon t-shirt. He had one foot on the bed and one on the floor. I don't know what to make of this.


 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes     Except for the fact that I know when, what was revealed in my heart, There was light and I existed and was void of any emotions other than being free, as though I never existed on earth

 Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    Did you have a body?? I find it hard to explain how I felt after I was shown what was in my heart. I don't know if I was flying or had a body. All I know is that for the 1st time in my life, my mind was free of worrying about the family as a whole such as siblings. Being the youngest daughter, my mother had all my sisters 1st and then my older brothers and then me and 3 younger brothers. I was always and still, the only one that would help my family for anything. I can't say no to them for money, groceries, etc... I'm the only one to make anniversary parties, birthday parties...etc.. no one else even tries to do so