Lori A's Experience
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Experience description:
I live in
a dorm at college. I got into bed like every normal night, and I fell asleep, I
was dreaming and my parents were in my dream and they told me that they were
sorry but that I had to die. I saw a quick flash of them and me laying down
near flowers maybe a funeral. Suddenly I ended up in a plane that crashed into
a NY building and right before the crash I was so scared. Slowly I started to
die, I told myself in my head this is it I am dying, while I slowly started to
die I could feel no pain it was very peaceful, my spirit struggled with my body
for a couple of minutes then gave up, my body started to float up to a smoky
white cloud and I saw white everywhere.
Here
I met another being of light, and saw so much light everywhere, I followed this
other being up further up and talked to them like they were my best friend
however I did not know them. Then I finally found myself surrounded by many
others, they were all dead but they were all my friends some how automatically.
I did not know any of them. I was in a wonderful place, and I was in no pain, it
was extremely happy, more than I have ever felt in real life. In this place you
could do whatever you want nothing was bad. As I looked around there were
clouds and light blue like the sky and the only other thing was a swimming pool.
While I was there part of the reason I was so happy was because all of my
questions on earth have been answered. I thought to myself " Wow, what people
on earth think of heaven was right" I wanted
to Not go back to earth but communicate with the people there and tell them to
not fear death cause it is wonderful, but I could not talk to them. There was
no time in this place. I remember starting to explore, Then I was standing in
front of a much higher being which had taken some human form not fully, they had
a big smile, and I looked into their eyes and they were pastel yellow, I
realized this is god! then more joyous feelings than ever came over me I tried
to touch him. He did not speak. Then I
continued to enjoy my new life, I was in the pool and talking to all of the
other beings that I did not know. All of a sudden i heard from a voice that my
best friend and my boyfriend killed themselves and were being punished i wanted
to go to them. I remember leaving the room going down a little. I saw them both
suffering and it was cause i was dead, so i wished that i could fix everything.
Then the dorm fire alarm started to go off i woke up abruptly to the loud
buzzing. In a sort of shock i said to myself i am alive. It was only a dream. Does this
mean I am going to die soon?
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Yes, I was taking imitrex for
headaches and Claritin for allergies
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes
Its very hard because i don't
know if I actually died, this happened while i was sleeping, but it did not feel
like a dream. But if i explain it the way it happened it sounds like i am making
up a story, but i am not.
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I was more aware than i usually am
i dreams
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
Yes it was a dream but i felt more
real
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
I had no body i was a form of
spirit, until i was up in heaven then i asked for my old body and got it, but i
was in even better shape, to me i was perfect
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
No i do not recall any noised at
all
Did you pass into or through a
tunnel or enclosure?
Uncertain
Describe:
I do not remember a tunnel
i did travel in one direction, up
Did you see a light?
Yes
Definitely very bright,
brighter than the sun, but it did not hurt my eyes, it was nice to look at
Did you meet or see any other
beings? Yes
Yes they greeted me and i did
not know them they led me up to the cloud. I don't remember what we said
Did you experience a review of
past events in your life?
No
Did you observe or hear
anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later? No
Did you see or visit any
beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?
Yes, a beautiful location,
with a huge swimming pool
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
Yes, there was no time, and altered space
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes, I feel like i know more than
i should
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware of future
events? No
Were you involved in or aware
of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Uncertain
i do not remember saying i want
to go back because i wanted to stay, but i wanted to help my friend and
boyfriend I wanted to go to them. Maybe that is why i woke up.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
No
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
The biggest change is that now
i have no fear of death, i almost look forward to it, in general this has made
me less fearful,
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? I still
strongly believe in God and it more than that now i feel like i know.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Of course I also want to be
more concerned about how i treat others, because life here is still a special
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
My boyfriend but not in detail,
he said wow but, i don't think he fully understood.
What emotions did you
experience following your experience?
Extreme happiness, i felt special
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
The worst part was leaving such a
wonderful place, and now wanting to go back
Is there anything else you
would like to add concerning the experience?
I want to know if its possible I
could have died somehow in my sleep? or Honestly
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Never
again have I had anything come close to that. Even on the exact same medication.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes,
It was
Very good, help me explain