Lindsay J's Experience
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Experience description:
After a long labor that
didn't seem to be progressing, the nurses at the hospital talked me into taking
pain medicine that would help me rest. It was late afternoon, and I had been in
the hospital since 11 pm the night before. I was 17 years old and didn't quite
know what to expect from childbirth. I was still technically a newlywed who was
faced with a new world-- I had decided to drop out of high school and get my GED
instead of finishing out my senior year pregnant. My life was pleasant, but was
on a totally unexpected track that I had decided to embrace and make the most
of. While my former classmates were deciding what to wear to prom and what to do
on spring break, I was bringing a life into the world. Luckily, I had always
been a complete and total optimist who could make the best out of any situation.
Sometimes I wonder why my parents named me Lindsay instead of Pollyanna!
I was physically tired
to say the least. I remember my husband and his sister were in the room just
kind of killing time as I drifted off to sleep. I suddenly became aware of the
fact that I was floating above my body and viewing the hospital room from above.
I felt totally calm and at peace as I took note of my sleeping body below. I saw
my husband and his sister. I saw the exact same scene that I had been apart of
as I drifted off to sleep, only now I was viewing it from the ceiling. I
remember thinking how cool it felt! Something brought my attention to the hall
and I was suddenly there. It was almost like I had passed through wall above the
doorway. I saw my Father walking down the hall toward my room and felt happy
that he was there. I guess a part of me felt like the fact that he had come to
check on me was proof that he had accepted the path my life had taken and that
he loved me even though I had disappointed him. I saw him knock on the door, and
the next thing I knew I was back in my body waking up to see him walk into the
room. To my surprise, he was wearing the same exact clothes that he had been
wearing in my "dream." I groggily said "Daddy, I just saw you walking down the
hall and you were wearing that outfit..." He kind of laughed and said, "Really?
Was there anything you wanted to tell me?" I thought about it for a minute and
said "Yes..." In my heart I probably wanted to say something to the effect of
THANK YOU FOR COMING AND BEING SUPPORTIVE EVEN THOUGH I LET YOU DOWN IN SUCH A
BIG WAY, but instead I smiled and said "Hey!" Everyone in the room laughed and
that was that.
I remember telling a
few people about it over the years and I've often thought back to it in
amazement. It was a wonderful feeling that I cherish! I now recognize that it
wasn't a dream and that it was instead an Out of Body Experience. I sort of knew
that then, but really had too much going on in my life to stop and think about
it for long. So far, I can report that we are living "Happily Ever After!" We've
been married for eleven years and have three wonderful children together. I am
thankful that the sweet spirit of my seventeen year old self chose this path for
me and I wouldn't change a thing.
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Uncertain
I was on an IV of pain
medication. I had avoided taking it, but once I realized that labor wasn't
progressing, I allowed them to give me medicine to help ease some of the
discomfort and help me sleep.
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
No
I told my Father
immediately and we were all amused by it. It was a lovely experience and was
fascinating. I often thing back to it!
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
My level of
consciousness and alertness were elevated. Thinking back I just had a sense of
peace and knowing.
Was the experience
dream like in any way?
I assumed that I was
dreaming until I woke up and Daddy was wearing the same clothes I had seen him
in. That for me was solid proof that it wasn't a dream.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
I guess you would call
it a separation of consciousness because I was aware of the room below me and of
the fact that I was the girl in the hospital bed.
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?
I just remember
thinking it was cool, feeling at peace, and being thankful that my Daddy was
coming to see me.
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
I don't remember
any.
Did you recognize any
familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or
encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?
Yes
I saw the exact scene
that I had witnessed with my eyes before, but this time from a different view
point.
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see
any other beings?
Yes
I saw the people who
were in my hospital room, as well as my father coming down the hall. I remember
seeing nurses in the hall as well.
Did you experiment
while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
Yes
My father's clothes and
the fact that he was actually coming down the hall at that moment was
verification for me.
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
No
Did you have any sense
of altered space or time?
No
Did you have a sense
of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
I just felt a
peace and like everything was going to be okay. This was huge because I really
went into the labor process with huge fears and anxieties at the thought of
pushing a baby out of my body.
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware
of future events?
No
Were you involved in
or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain I feel
like that experience was one of a few that led me to such an interest in these
things. I am now on my career path in part because of my interest in these
topics.
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I felt like it
confirmed my suspicion that there is more to life and the afterlife than we are
taught in Sunday School!
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
At the time it
didn't really affect them, but now it is a cherished memory and feeling that I
wouldn't trade for anything. It was the first of several events that have driven
me toward helping other people through hypnotherapy.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
I've told family
members and friends about it any time it pops into my head.
What was the best and
worst part of your experience?
I feel like it was a
glimpse of the capabilities that we have and are ignorant to. It makes me want
to explore these types of topics more! The worst part would be simply the fear
that I'll never experience that again.
Is there anything else
you would like to add concerning the experience?
Nope
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes Within the
last year I had a very vivid dream which I would describe as a dream of the
apocalypse maybe. It was a long drawn out dream about zombies and tornadoes (haha)
but the interesting part was that I was my childhood church. I was outside with
my husband and I knew that my children were inside. I was trying to help
children from a school bus nearby get into the church and away from the tornado.
Suddenly it felt like a vacuum was sucking at us and we grabbed onto the railing
to hold on. I remember looking over at him and fearing for our children because
it was obvious we were about to die. I remember looking to my husband and
encouraging him to let go. I assumed I meant our hands, but instead I felt my
soul as it sucked from my body with a pop and we were floating over the scene.
The destruction was devastating and I could see that our physical bodies were
holding on the rails but that they were being beaten and battered in the storm.
I remember thinking so this is what it feels like to die. It doesn't hurt.
Everything it going to be okay. My mind shifted to my children who's future was
unknown and just knowing that everything was going to be okay. That we were all
okay now. I literally took away such a peace about death and dying from that
experience. I really feared it before, but it was almost the exact same peace
and just love that I felt in my hospital room years before. I've often wondered
if it was a glimpse of us dying in a tornado? I have always feared storms. Come
to think of it my fear of storms has greatly decreased since having that dream!
I used to really cry and get upset during thunderstorms because I was so afraid
that a tornado would form. Now I can sleep through them. I honestly just now
realized this!
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
Yes although it
isn't the simplest experience to put into words, I feel that I did my best