the 4 year old was going into hospital for grommets, I was worried about this  My husband (David) moved us all into the back blocks of the country, where he was a teacher.

I had got to a point in my marriage where I stayed up till 4 am cleaning so as not to go to bed with the husband.

David invited two work mates from out of town to share a beach trip with us, we all arrived at a small quite beach, it felt like there was nobody else there ( I was feeling so isolated at the time) I don't remember getting the boys into their swim shorts or me into my swimming togs.

David and the other people were sitting on the blanket eating lunch and chatting, the boys were playing in the sand, I was standing at the waters edge watching the boys playing, my mind said walk backwards into the water, so I did, I walked and walked, I could still see the kids on the beach, I looked above me and there was water my height plus above me, I thought if this is drowning yes please I like it, I was feeling so clam just standing there, I asked in my mind, is this it? what happens now,?... then a very gentle male voice said it's not your time,

you have things many things to do......when this voice stopped I heard my son Paul calling his daddy, daddy daddy I can't see mummy any more. and with that I stared walking back to shore, it took a blink of time to get back on shore to stand beside my son, I looked down and I was bone dry not one drop of water on me at all.....  

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When the voice was talking to me

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   while in the water and the voice was talking I could feel the energy of all

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   in my every day life I had closed off all my feelings so I was numb at this time

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   all I could hear was the voice and then I could hear my son on the beach while I was deep under water

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   feelings while walking into the water were at last it will all be over

while under the water I felt very clam and when it was over I still felt calm  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   yes because while I was deep under water it was bright and white

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I heard a voice I could not identify

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
time speed up as I came out of the water

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about myself or others

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes   A male voice spoke to me while I was under the water

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I took the male voice to be god

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I felt a oneness with all

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   Yes  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   I felt love

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   I knew all was alright, not something I felt before

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I was not sure what to believe before and not sure after

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   it's like it was yesterday

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I got a point when I was 50 where I knew I could lay down and will myself to die, I chose to email a new friend for help, she came, we sat on the floor, with my back to her, I leaned into her, she held me while placing crystals around me, then she open her heart energy and covered me with it, not sure how long we sat there, when she was done, she put me to bed with crystals under my pillow, she closed the curtains and locked the door I slept for two days, while my body slept I was taken into a clear bright light and there waiting for me was two angels and my brown bear (Guide)this is were my life path was shown to me, I was showered in love and my energy changed to meet that love, upon waking on the second day I felt refreshed and open to seeking a spiritual life

My experience directly resulted in:   Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   I was becoming aware of what my own beliefs  where as a child and how they where not allowed

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     it was coming out of the water and still being dry, it was like I was in a bubble while in the water

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  four days after when I took my baby in for his grommets, I got very upset at leaving him so the young doctor took me to his office, and it all came flooding out, he listen and then asked if I knew of the spiritual church in town.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   as I said it is like it happen yesterday, and when I recall it that's how it still feels

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   I know that it was real, I got the help I needed at the time and it came from source/god

because now I do energy healing and spiritual mapping

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   yes I had the strength to leave the husband

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   it was a slow change which took another 29 years, but each time something was about to change and I wasn't ready my experience would pop back to mind

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes   while driving a trip that took 6 hours, it took two hours, and I have no memory of any of the road, one minute I was crossing the harbor bridge, the next I was 20 minutes from my destination  

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes