Experience description:

I woke up at 5am with the full moon shining in between the slats of the blinds in my room. I got up, opened the blinds and admired the moon then, I went back to bed and fell asleep. While I was dreaming, a few small, pastel-colored balls of light floated into the scene. The dream brightened with another kind of light the orbs seemed to emit: a soft, white light that made everything in my dream fade in to the background. I then went with them without question. I found myself just above the earth’s atmosphere. I was completely lucid and thought, 'It’s happening,' meaning, I thought I had died. I felt a sense of wonder, and I didn’t even think about my body or about anything or anyone I loved on earth. There was complete detachment or no remembrance of my earthly life during my experience, which after I came back, I thought was odd but not distressing. I don’t think it meant my life or the people I love here aren’t important to me, it was more about being in the present moment in order to limit distraction. It was a completely natural feeling to be so present without any sense of concern or burden. Right after I had the thought that I had died, I looked to the right and saw many white wisps floating up into space from the earth at different intervals and I knew they were souls of people who had just died too.

Then, I had this incredible desire to be with Jesus. The intensity of that feeling surprised me because even though on earth I had been drawn to Jesus and loved him, the desire to see him while in spirit was all consuming. I shot upward with amazing speed but then I wanted to see the earth below so I slowed until I just hovered there looking at all the stars around me in awe. I also had this sense there wasn’t time to turn and look at the earth, but that thought seemed to come from outside of myself from other beings even though I didn’t see them.

I thought about earth again and just like that, I was floating above a building but didn’t know where. When I thought about touching it, my hand appeared and when I touched the wall, my hand felt its density but went right through. It was so strange. So, with greater speed I flew through the wall and didn’t feel a thing. I realized I was in a nursing home. I moved along the ceiling through walls until I came to a room with two very old, demented women laying in their beds, awake and in some kind of mental distress. I noticed a soft, green glow coming from me as I moved closer to them. The first woman looked up and started smiling with joy in my direction and I realized she could see me! The light from me touched her and she kind of babbled at me but she was so happy. The other woman next to her reacted in the same way, and when I thought about touching her cheek with my hand in a healing way, again, my hand appeared and I felt her face. She cupped her hand over mine. And by her joyful reaction, she seemed to feel it too. I am a nurse on this earthly plane who has cared for many patients with dementia.

I went up through the ceiling into the night sky and then I thought about the ocean. I just love the ocean! I looked down and the waves were breaking on a somewhat frozen shore. I thought about diving in but it looked cold. So I just skimmed the water with my hand but it wasn’t freezing, just cool. I remember thinking it was odd that I was concerned about the temperature of the water. It was such a human thought. Whereas, when I had been flying around in space, I had no such thoughts, it was as natural as breathing.

Then, Jesus came to mind again and I shot up into space among the stars again until I would reach a certain distance where I would stop then drift back down near earth. I felt like this happened a few times, not because something or someone stopped me, but because I was so fascinated by all the wonders around me that I stopped myself. I felt like a kid at Disneyland for the first time multiplied by a thousand.

Again, I thought intently about Jesus but I could only get so far in space before I stopped. But this time I felt like a force stopped me from going further and from even calling out his name. Perhaps if I had been allowed, I wouldn’t have been able to return. I remember hovering in space feeling disappointed and slightly confused, but in the sense of not knowing what to do. I said to myself, 'Where is Jesus?' Just when I wondered why I couldn’t find  him, I saw a light across the darkness in space that was different than the light of the stars. I personally knew this light. I did not go to the light. The light came closer to me and expanded. It undulated like a white glowing ember enfolded in a nebula with its pink and billowing dark smokey grays. The light stopped before it engulfed me and for a few moments I connected with the essence of the light which was complete love. And in those moments we were one. This was not the Jesus I expected to see, but there were absolutely no thoughts of how I wanted him to be or what I thought I should see. There was only acceptance.

Back to that love. Well, love  is a word we use for the experience that love IS. The light didn’t speak because there are no words that exist to label or describe its BE-ING. That love was not an earthly love. It was absolute.

When the light dissipated, I heard a singular male voice start singing the first few lines of a song, acapella. The voice surprised me because it actually sounded audible, not telepathic. The melody and words were familiar, 'Wonderful counselor, mighty God, everlasting Father...' The song goes on but those were the only words I heard. The verse from Isaiah 6:9 speaks about Jesus. As that voice faded, it felt like I floated like a feather back into my body and my eyes opened. The sun had just come up. Then, I realized, I was still alive! All throughout this very religious experience that didn’t seem religious at all while I was in it, I didn’t know I would come back to my body. The thing is, however spiritually amazing that experience was, I wasn’t upset to be back on earth. I was just calm and in awe.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain  I fell asleep feeling okay.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     Words aren’t enough.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      During the encounter with the light.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   Whatever I was experiencing, I felt in the present moment much more so than normal. Ifelt like pure energy.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   More sharp. I wear glasses. My vision is very blurry without them. I could see very well in the dark.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   The song was very clear and the voice sounded unearthly in a way that’s difficult to describe.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   The women in the nursing home.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Mostly excitement, joy, and no fear at all. I felt safe.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   From the orbs and the light from the nebula.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
The voice that sang the song, the being in the nebula, the orbs who guided me out of my dream to above the earth.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Yes   Jesus. He didn’t speak but he came to me as light in the nebula after I asked where he was.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   The women in the nursing home.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   Some unfamiliar and strange place
In space.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Events seemed to happen quickly from one to the next.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Yes
I wasn’t permitted to travel past a certain point in space.

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
I wasn’t given a choice or told to go back.

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   I immediately realized I still existed even though I believed I had died. And I saw the white wisps or souls moving from earth upward.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I asked for Jesus and he came to me in the light and I heard the song describing him.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   When the light connected with me, I felt one with it.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes   The experience with the two women and my intent to help and heal through love.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   In our earthly state illness can alter our perception dramatically and cause suffering.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   Love is healing.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I didn’t realize I would be completely detached from any memory of my earthly life or how central Christ was to my soul.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th  

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I am more aware of petty things that don’t matter. I thirst for the spiritual even more.

My experience directly resulted in:   Slight changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   Jesus is more real to me now.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Experiencing the light of Christ. Being in space was amazing!

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  The same day with my daughter’s but they didn’t know how to respond or didn’t want to...unsure.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   I had an NDE at age 4, and I’ve listened to NDE accounts. My experience felt unique to me even though there were common elements others have experienced.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real  

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes   I feel God’s love in prayer. Also, I wake up sometimes with remembering I just visited an unearthly place but usually don’t remember much and what I do seems like a message I’m supposed to remember.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   Thorough