Laurence B's Experience
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Experience description:
I must begin this
account by thanking Jeff Long and all those associated for bringing us this
amazing medium and setting it up way back in the day, I have been reading
vigorously and citing the pages on this site for my own studies.
I always have it in my
mind to try to have an OBE, its always there, even while I'm not actively
trying, the desire is there, was there, I've had many experiences over the years
during my close study of my dreams and lucid dreams where I briefly appears to
be outside of my body, many feelings of floating , falling, etc during
meditation and hypnagogic states, and I am grateful and interested for all those
experiences, I feel I have gradually progressed with some kind of help form who
knows where. I have 64 pages journal of astounding synchronicities that are my
own personal proof of an interaction beyond time space of this reality with the
others.
I feel obliged to also
state that I am a very level headed individual who loves studying human anatomy
and design in nature, it , along with the constant study of the afterlife ,
medium ship etc truly cements my world view that there is indeed an afterlife.
Anyway, to the
experience, I had been up for around 13 hours or so, and like so often I
overworked myself doing Japanese, guitar, study etc, and decided , I had that
"feeling" that if I laid down something would happen, normally those feeling
will lead to strange events, but particularly recently they have accelerated,
like seeing through my closed eyelids easily, randomly seeing areas around me in
detail in an almost remote viewing way and the classic screeching, buzzing,
whooshing sounds sometimes accompanied by feelings of floating.
I normally come away
form such experiences happy but still disappointed that I cant have that true
OBE that I have read so many books about.
but I feel it has
finally happened, Interestingly, the same things happened last night but tonight
I decided to exit consciously, also I was wearing all my clothes, lying on my
back and arms folded.
It began with small
dreamlets , short hypnogogic episodes that were quite nonsensical, then all of a
sudden, after a while of lying down, I become aware again and immediately
realize in am in SP (sleep paralysis) I have experienced this many times over
the years but its been hard to attain the state purposefully, this is the true
jackpot for stepping into altered state, Lucid Dreams etc and ...as many
claimed, OBEs.
So I am now lying
straight, a huge wave of energy is filling my body, is hard to describe, as is
so many of these experiences, I felt like I was plugged into an energy source
and the classic vibrations were coursing through my body , I was startled, but
I'm so used to such events that I quickly gathered myself, I could also feel a
strange bubbly feeling on the outer edges of my body, as though another bubbly
version of my self was trying to squeeze out, I distinctly recall also Feeling
of immediately floating, not anywhere in terms of direction, just floating.
Because I have been so
used to seeing through my closed eyes of late and actually experimenting with
it, I was trying to do that, when suddenly it hit me, OPEN YOUR EYES, and I did,
all the while reciting in my head calm and detached over and over to prolong
this amazing experience.
Anyway, now I open my
eyes but only a small bit and I see a black deep black void, with a single light
, and it was all superimposed over my room which was lit with the classically
described diffuse light (I believe that alone is proof of the phenomenon
reality , its described far too often in too much the same manner, its amazing
every time I read it!)
I then closed my eyes
again and, aware of the feelings increasing and sounds of whooshing etc,
(yesterday as I said, same experience, no exit, but yesterday I heard amazing
sounds, radio channels changing, dissonant piano music etc mad!!)
I felt for a moment an
instinctive fear as I reopened my eyes . as though someone would be there, but
banished it as quick as it came, and decided to try to float out, its hard to
describe how I did it, it was just desire, it was a thing I do during relaxation
to make my body go kind of empty, and as I did this wow, it worked, I was very
calm though as is often descried in such experiences, I literally floated up to
the ceiling slowly like soap bubble, I notice I was floating horizontally as
many have described, and that at first I was being taken to the left by an
intelligence of some kind into the wall and I used all my will and said NO...I'M
IN CONTROL and just like that I was in control.
I realized I was too
concentrated on maintaining floating control that I didn't look at the
environment and as soon as I reached the ceiling I began to descend and I new
somehow it would soon be over, I cant describe the feeling of floating up and
down to the ceiling and back , it was amazing, not dream like, very different to
anything and the sense was it was truly happening, I was amazed at the "frame
rate" of my vision, it seems I was perceiving the room moving super smooth past
me as I floated down, that really stood out.
Then I simply was back
in my body, I never looked around and check could I see it which I truly regret,
I was just lying there with my her at pounding (again many describe this also)
and very energetic tingles shooting up my spine, and I felt I could even go back
in no problem but knew I had to write it down before I forgot, I was filled with
happiness and positivity that I had finally experienced SP again and then even
better and OBE type event, wow, amazing!
I feel it also
necessary to say recently I have , during meditation literally seen white orbs
floating around, only when I get SUPER deep and relaxed, I was so taken aback
that I jumped out of the relaxation, it happened two night in a row and never
before and never since, the feeling was, that I had been shown something or am
progressing etc, well that's it, I shall be pursuing this further"
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No I
had eaten very lightly when this occurred
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
The overall
feeling of experiencing something very different to a dream, I have been
documenting my dreams since I was 17 including a constant effort of mastery of
lucid dreaming, I dare say I'm somewhat of an expert of both subjects, I have
over 1000 pages in my dream journal. The feelings were, wow, it was relief at
finally feeling I had achieved an out of body experience, but also surprise
because of the shock and realization
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I was fully me, fully
there, in fact, there was NO difference, it was more vivid in the sense of the
movement, but I didn't pay attention enough to the environment what with my
control struggle and the fact that all this probably lasted just 15 seconds, at
least in earth time!!
Was the experience
dream like in any way?
hmm, hard to say,
definitely NOT dream like in terms of my consciousness, or the feelings of
simply not being asleep but being wide awake but floating !! The only thing
dream like about it was that I suppose one could dream of such an event
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
I feel yes, I cant
confirm as I didn't see my body below, but I did rise from the exact spot I was
sleeping in and felt the distinct separation of one body form the other and the
subsequent reentry,
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?
slight fear, relief at
it finally happening, wonder as I floated up, determination to hold on and
disappointment as it ended and finally thanks for the experience
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
strangely not
much a slight whooshing, but noting like I would normally hear in the SP stage,
thankfully !
Did you recognize any
familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or
encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?
Uncertain
I definitely briefly
opened my eyes and before seeing my room I saw a void, a deep dark that was
almost colorfully black and a white light in I, very bright but only all this
was just very fleeting and I almost forgot about it till I meditated on the
experience
Did you see a light?
Yes
white point, or circle
in a black void, superimposed over room as viewed from floating just above the
bed, I could see through the top bunk, seeing through walls etc is reported in
many OBEs and NDEs!! amazing
Did you meet or see
any other beings?
Uncertain
I , #again, as is
often described, felt a presence that was actually pulling my body in the
opposite way, maybe a test? who knows I think of anatomy, to me it is they way
things work and we have just to extend that out as the hermeticists thought,
I.E. everything is regulation regulation regulation, atomic, cellular, macro
etc, there are barriers in cells, barriers protecting macro structures like the
hearts pericardium, and many on DMT trip and OBEs have broken through what they
term membranes!! I feel that any movement into such realms will be as regulated
as the universe of the human body is
Did you experiment
while out of the body or in another, altered state?
Uncertain
My main experiment
was to simply exit , I only wish I had taken it further
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
I
was alone
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes
the rule in such
states is certainly a much higher set of sense, in my case it was about the
same, but the general feeling of lucid awareness, of reality, or "is-ness" was
tangible, as though something really big was happening just by looking at the
world around me
actually at certain
points I was aware of both my heartbeat and breathing for fleeting seconds
Did you have any sense
of altered space or time?
Uncertain
didn't give it much
though, but the world itself had a quality , it was only my room but it had a
mystical quality to it, enchanted almost
Did you have a sense
of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
for a moment I
feel I had finally confirmed everything I have been searching for
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes
I didn't touch the
ceiling but felt it was the imputes for me to begin descending again!
Did you become aware
of future events?
No
Were you involved in
or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
, but I knew it
was about to happen as I descended closer to my horizontal position on the bed
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
Yes not with this
one in particular, but I truly know from personally experience that , via lucid
dreams, synchronicities, (I have a twin) telepathy events, things like that,
they are so common that me and my brother just treat it as normal , I know for a
fact that I have experienced such events and I feel it began a few years ago and
progressed steadily along with my own self development, I trust totally my gut
feeling, I trust totally in the river of reality, as Robert Waggoner pus it the
sailor does not control the sea!
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
only that I can
do this form now on much easier based on this lying on my back, after being up
for 12 hours and covering myself half with the blanket with all clothes on,
headphones over ears and actually I had a hat over my eyes!!
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
my brother is so use
to it he didn't want to hear when I told him!!! he was playing a game! he is
somewhat less persistent then me but holds all the same beliefs
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
stated above
What was the best and
worst part of your experience?
The best was the
original amazing feeling of separating from where I was lying, of using my will
to float upwards and out. wow, that was truly amazing.
The worst was the END!!
Is there anything else
you would like to add concerning the experience?
I seemed to black out
just before exit and just before entry, this is very often described in
Crookall's books, which must be read!!
too soon to tell only occurred yesterday