Kolleen C Experience
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Experience description:

My husband at the time, now my ex, and I had two daughters and had no plans for more children. We were happy with our two girls and I was getting older, having had them in my late 30s. About six months before the event, I found myself panicked about possibly becoming pregnant in my early 40s (not having used birth control) and contacted my OB/GYN and obtained 'Plan B'. Huge relief, but mixed feelings because I had not told my husband and our marriage at that point was already deteriorating.

About six months later, at the time of the event, at the time that turned out to be the day of conception, I felt the presence of a bright little spirit in the room, and an absolute knowing that I would conceive, to the point that taking the pregnancy test weeks later seemed a mere formality, and I knew it would be positive based on my absolute knowing. Because I had felt this presence and this spark, I had no panic like the previous time, and I felt like this little spirit had made his presence known so that I would not opt again for Plan B. I felt calm and accepted this pregnancy knowing it was meant to be.

When my son was about 3 yrs old, he came to me and told me he loved me. He said sometimes I was nice and sometimes not nice, but he loved me and was glad I was his mommy. Then he added with a little grin: 'I knew you were gonna be my Mommy.' And I played along and asked 'Oh? When was this?' And he replied 'When I was a dot in your tummy.'

I told him I loved him too and was glad to be his mommy.

Him telling me at age three confirmed to me that I had been correct in feeling his little spirit when he was conceived.

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    Normal

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No     

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Curiosity, surprise, happiness

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         No

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         No     

Did you see a light?        No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         No     

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No      Did you have any sense of altered space or time?     No     

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    Knew I would conceive.

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      Yes    Knew I would conceive.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes    Felt my son's spirit before/at time of conception

 Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?     No     

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   It made me more convinced that things happen for a reason, whereas before I was skeptical of that viewpoint.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    I think people do not believe me.

 What emotions did you experience following your experience? Calm, accepting.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?          No worst part. Best part was assurance that I should continue this pregnancy.

 Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I'm still a big advocate of birth control and planning and spacing children. I truly think my son needed/wanted to be born and found a way. I also tend to believe in reincarnation, and think even my failed marriage and subsequent divorce were also meant to be as I felt strongly urged to that conclusion despite my Catholic upbringing and the unexpected support I received when I told family of my conclusion and feel it's a huge life lesson for me, my ex, and our children. I feel more and more as I get older that events that occur are supposed to be. I also had strong confirmation at the time that I should marry my now ex and feel I was given numerous numerical hints (there were at least four coincidental numbers and dates that seemed to me to be 'signs' I should marry him, because I did feel I needed help deciding.)So some marriages might be 'planned' but still fail because maybe we all needed to experience what we did in this life, and have the children we were meant to have.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No