Kimberly S's Experience
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Experience description:

I had been suffering from panic attacks (as it runs in my family). For about 3 months my anxiety levels had got so bad that I couldn't eat and had developed sores in my mouth. One evening I lay on my bed and closed my eyes, trying to breathe through my fear. It was about 7pm. Suddenly I was out of my body and enveloped inside a vibrating golden light. I think I was up in the universe. 

I realized that my mind was apart of all other minds as well as everything that existed!! I was a part of this light and part of one BIG MIND!.... which was everything! I still recognized my sense of 'self' as an observer (the part of you that hasn't changed since you were 5)but I was completely connected to this one mind. It was portrayed as a huge golden light containing everything that exists. I felt so safe and AMAZING. If we are all the same mind, there is nothing to fear! For a brief few minutes I understood how I was a part of everything. Words fail this experience.  

I have tried to get it back many times, I never can. But I can remember the essence of it and it has changed my beliefs. I don't fear death at all now. I think about my amazing experience every day.

 At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?         No      

Was the experience difficult to express in words?   Yes     It was an experience that involved sensing such as vision, sound and feeling. Words underestimate this

 At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness    Right thorough it

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.    This light was more beautiful than anything I have seen on earth. I was a part of the light and it made total sense

 Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.    There was a beautiful vibration happening

 Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?    No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            peace, completion and bliss  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?           No      

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes     It was golden white and spreading outwards. It was indescribably beautiful

 Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?            No   

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?         No   

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?    No      

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?          A clearly mystical or unearthly realm            I was a part of the universe and enmeshed in a brilliant light that was uplifting

 Did time seem to speed up or slow down?     Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning            Time lost meaning

 Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?            Everything about the universe   We are all the same. It sounds so trivial in English..but think about those words because I experienced them

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you come to a border or point of no return?       No      

Did scenes from the future come to you?       No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?        Yes     Life is as it should be

 Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   Large changes in my life             

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?    Yes     I felt certain of an afterlife

 Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?    Yes     As a child I would astral travel around my room but thought it was normal
Have you ever shared this experience with others?            Yes     Straight away. people were interested.

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?            Uncertain    

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:    Experience was definitely real    It was real. I don't drink or take drugs. It was like any other day, I was fully conscious and alert.

 What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real           Same as above

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    I don't fear death. I allow suffering

 At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?  No   

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?    No   

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     The feeling of love, light and safety