Experience description:   

Try to understand I found myself on a hill and I still do not know how I got there to this day or even why. It was full of life-size statues of the walk of Christ this is not the strange part, since I've since learned they really do exist. I am not a religious person but not person nor is there any background in my family. I looked at these statues I was really tired and emotional at the time and I had not slept in awhile but I cried and cried when I seen what they had done to this man...then I was in or was it around, or was it around me this is the weird does! Know it part, it was dark or really just the absence of light but there was presence and more than one and what peace wow real peace like I never felt and Love that I cannot put into words they just could never capture the truth. We all talked but not with words or hearing with our ears.

It sounds so ridiculous when I am sharing it with you but it is the truth it was like we were all one we felt heard and seen at the same time: I know it changed my life forever, when I came to which is the wrong word to use because I was not out I was walking away from the statues and the sun was brilliant the sky was blue and I felt Love for the first time in my life really!! I looked on the ground and there was a bright light ..it was a key a brand new skeleton key, do not know what it signifies! just know it does!! Then my friends are there in a car, well they were not really friends but anyway, I knew then it was time to go home and the person who picked me up looked at me right in the eyes and said "you have to go home I will find you a ride back to the Soo" I went home changed my whole life after that...everything changed and I truly loved others wanted to help others and just be a good person. The way I felt after this experience was what really strikes me, an immense compassion for others no thought for myself at all and if you knew how self-centered I was naturally you'd know how amazing this is, it was about 18 months later before I started to go back to my old self I was 13 and no one wanted to be around me I was too happy too nice and too kind the kids I knew did not like it my family thought I was weird, really my family hardly even hugged each other and when I tried to tell them I was happy they just thought I was weird.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Yes            before the experience, the day before well, maybe 15 hours before

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     the way I communicated with the spirit and the way I felt inside     could not explain was totally unexplainable

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain            since hearing about near death experiences I am now wondering whether I actually died or not since I have never heard anyone describe my experience so perfectly before this!

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           wide eyed a little wary confused but secure too

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   a little dreamlike but the experience of love was Nott

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     had no body

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            peace contentment wonderment and I guess at one point I was afraid

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           I heard god or Jesus I think saying I had to go back it was not time and I felt a bit afraid at that moment but remember this was not done with words...forget it

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No           

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     no I did not know them, they were not dead relatives mostly there were 2 beings and me they talked about me

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Uncertain            I felt like I could see into peoples souls almost after there was a sense of connectiveness and clarity I think my eyes were opened more but not literally

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     there were moments even on the way back home where I felt like I was not in the car with my friends but in the presence of god or whatever it was it happened a few times I believe

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes            definitely it all made sense in a minute I guess you could say order and purpose I wish I could feel that way now!!

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No         

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes     unlike the near death experience I've felt over the years like I've been punished in a way

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No response            yes but it was a natural belief in Jesus I think it was it was along time ago but I remember talking to a minister after and wondering why he did not love Jesus the way I did  ha that's funny!!

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       no my career is not related to this experience but I always feel convicted when I know that God is there and I have been trying to get that LOVE back since, I read the bible a lot to but that is not  the answer for me I am confused!!!!

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     really happened feel confused ha really it was a long time ago and I wonder if it

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     mostly indifference no I really don't know I hope sometimes that it could make a difference in someone's life but I often hesitate to share it since its a little bizarre

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  a lot of joy a lot of compassion and sympathy, yes sympathy for others but mostly a deep love

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      the best part is I pray today that I may go back there someday in that presence and the worst is I might not go back t or maybe I am crazy!

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        please write me and let me know what you think I really am dying to talk to someone that at least is open to maybe this happened and maybe can help in some way toooo, I don't know

maybe share your experiences with me

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes     it is hard to put a spiritual experience into physical words but I hope I described

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    maybe any related experiences and or others who have experienced the same