Experience description:

I had no previous interest in spiritual matters.

My stepfather had cancer and my experience occurred on the day he died.

Even before his passing day I knew he will die even though no-one could know this will happen.

At about mid-day on his passing day, all of a sudden I felt a sudden surge of energy coming to my body. At that moment I knew he died or was just going through dying and it seemed that all the leftover energy from his body passed through me and I got 'opened up' to spiritual truths. I know this sounds crazy but this is what i felt. This whole thing took me by surprise. I think i somehow tapped into his dying experience.

As I had that energy surge all of a sudden an enormous amount of calmness came over me. I have never felt calmer and more balanced in my life. It was just peaceful. Then I felt this amazing Love for all. I remember my colleague sitting next to me and i looked at her and a surge of immense unconditional love came to me and i almost stood up and hugged her. I could 'see' her thoughts and her worries and i had this huge compassion towards her. I had just love in my heart for her and for everyone and everything.

I was always quite the worrier but i realized how insignificant the things i worry about are in the great scheme of things.

I could 'see' that all the things I worry about in 50-100 years no-one will remember and they don't not have much relevance anyway. I realized how fleeting is this whole thing.

Then I was taken further and further to see bigger and bigger perspective. Almost as there are some videos about the cosmos/space from small to large and then showing the cosmos with all the stars and galaxies. It was through time and space. First i could see the Earth and then another planets and traveled further and further in perspective. I almost laughed oh my god how could i forget all this. It was so liberating, beautiful, unbelievable, like waking up from a dream and laughing oh wow it was just a dream (life on Earth). It was just so funny in a way, so trivial. How could i forget this!

Love is everything.

God and Life is Sacred. It is too overwhelming to even talk about it.

What is important is how we react to things here, how we behave.

We could be anywhere (in any place) and at any time-frame (there is no time) but what is important is our own actions.

How we treat our fellow man, how we take up the opportunities that are offered to us, what we do etc is why we are really here. We are in a sense proving ourselves.

I know it was just a tiny segment as I couldn't have been shown everything, there is so much more.

When I 'came back' (I didn't really go anywhere per se) it seemed many hours have passed but i think in actuality about an hour has passed (I didn't check the time).

After the experience for a while I felt quite isolated as people didn't understand my experience and i got a lot of blank stares. Years later I found NDE stories and I knew they had the same or very similar experiences, so finally i could relate.That is what i went through, the love, the expanded consciousness, God etc.

Some of the knowledge/feelings never actually left me, I found my balance, and I am very grateful that this happened to me.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  My step father died on the day. I was not dying.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     There are no words and difficult to verbalize. Also I believe there is a lot of judgement in this world which makes it difficult for me to open up as people immediately try to convince me that this didn't happen or what i experienced was not real etc etc. So i learned to be cautious.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      Mid point

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   More expanded. I could understand many things.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I could see with my minds eye.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Not applicable, i think communication was telepathic.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Joy, excitement, peace, calmness, love, compassion  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
The companion, 'he' was there but I didn't see anyone.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   The companion. That's all i can say. Not a deceased relative.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I have seen the universe..

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There is no time. Time is irrelevant really outside the Earth.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe
It felt like waking up from a dream. I understood everything (I slowly lost the knowledge afterwards) I don't think we could exist with this knowledge on Earth. There is a reason we forget all this knowledge here otherwise living would be non practical, we could not relate to the challenges.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  Scenes from the world's future 
I have time travelled forward as an example. I have seen the building I was in not existing in the future for example.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   Yes, although i wouldnt call it specific. It just is, there is no death, only the body dies.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Not sure how to describe this. Supreme Being exists. This experience was so sacred that I cant do it justice so I cant write about it.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Yes this certainly is true. We are all one. I was kind of everywhere and in everything at one point in the experience.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes   Its about us, how I behave in circumstances. The construct doesn't really matter. What I do matters. Need to focus on my own actions, reactions etc

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   All is love

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   Not sure what to write here.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I didn't care about spiritual matters before so it was non contradictory but not in alignment either.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the ex   I remember with the same accuracy.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I became much more peaceful and spiritual. I have quite smoking, drinking alcohol, i focus on health now. I can feel energies, I can allow intuition to lead.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   I was non spiritual before now its significant part of my life.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   Mediumistic experiences, later I had other experiences as well but i wanted to concentrate on this experience relating to the death of the loved one.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     When I became one with everything and i was everywhere that was amazing. Also spending time with 'the companion' was absolutely amazing.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  At the beginning it was hard to talk about it.

People had blank stares that was very hard to handle as I felt like an outsider.

Some people also talk disrespectful about God and spiritual matters.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   I knew of them but dismissed them.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I was in the energy a long while before it went away totally. It was hard to integrate it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   The experience was real. It was more a knowing less something new that was added.

It was more like a reveal of something that was always there so i didn't 'learn' anything new, just my consciousness expanded.

Like when we solve a mathematical problem and just suddenly 'get it'. The solution was always there, it was I who couldn't understand it before.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Uncertain   Luckily most of my close relations are open minded.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I practice daily meditation etc.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes   I have had other shorter mystical experiences after this (maybe 2).

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   no

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   Yes i have tried to write about all relevant information.