At night, my husband and I shared a cramped "top bunk" in a motor home for sleeping quarters.  Everyone had gone to sleep, and I was laying there with my eyes closed lying very still due to the tight quarters, slightly frustrated that I could not sleep.  I had had some other out of body experiences, but had attempted to thwart them because of my highly upset emotional state & not knowing what that might bring out of body (lots of crying at thought of leaving home and marriage and not wanting to). 

While laying there I felt some of the familiar vibrations and roaring sounds, and I decided to open my eyes to stop them. What I saw was shocking, stunning, beautiful and horrible and out of this world all at once:  Laying beside me I saw not my husbands physical body, but his light body.  The light was blindingly beautiful, and the matrix of the outline of his body was blue-white and pulsing and vibrating and flowing.  Shockingly, at the area of his heart was what I can only describe as a "cannon blast" from the inside out, a giant hole (bowling ball sized) in his light body, and the edges were torn and ragged and burnt black-red in color with the very edges burnt black, bending outward as from an inside blast.  His "light" was streaming out of the hole, leaking out so fast like blood pumping from a severed artery. 

The knowledge "given" to me came in what I can only describe as a "thought ball" -- lots of thoughts all at once, like a chapter out of a book was dumped into my head at once.  I "knew" his light was just as pure and beautiful and powerful and holy as every human on the planet, and yet I "knew" that the size of this wound was unusual and much too large for me to help him.  I "knew" he was trying to "stuff" the hole with many ongoing relationships with women,  and that it would take a very long time to heal, and that healing may not even begin for a very long time. 

I stared in awe at the majesty of his light, knowing we all have such amazing light, that light is all we are made of, that it is what animates our bodies, that we are all energy centers of light in the light-matrix of all that is. We are like "intersections of conscious knowledge and intention" in the matrix, and where we direct our light from our "center" moves the flow from us and affects everyone/everything/all that is.  I knew, relating back to my husband, that if I stayed with him, I would only enable this wound, that I had to leave him to help him no matter how much I loved him.  As long as I stayed with him, he would refuse to "look at his wound."   I held him in awe for a while longer, sent a prayer of healing to him, and finally closed my eyes, ending the experience.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain, There are some events that words cannot do justice!

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain, Divorce can feel life threatening!  Certainly "status of life" threatening

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I felt absolutely wide awake, like I never had even come close to sleeping, and was very shocked that my awareness had actually risen while I was laying there.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No -- it was very conscious, as wide awake as possible.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

Seemed like I could have risen out of my body, but what I held before me left me so awe-struck that I did not want to "go" anywhere.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            The awe one would feel at seeing the most beautiful sight ever seen, the happiness at the beauty, the profound sadness at the same time at knowing I could not stay married to this person, extreme honor at being "shown" this sight and given this information.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Roaring vibrations

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes

Hearing -- roar of vibrations.  Sight -- as noted, of "another world".  No note of other senses -- sight was so encompassing, there was no need for other senses.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes, Felt like "no time and all time"

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes, as noted above

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

Changed my views of marriage, that it was OK to leave this man in this life.  Also, as noted, saw extreme beauty of all humanity and all creations.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       My life is completely different -- changed everything!  Left my husband, quit my career, have now new husband (very faithful!) and career and beautiful new home.  Lots of psychic happenings since then.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes

As noted above, my life is entirely different -- different husband now, different home, different career, different beliefs, different life goals.

Have you shared this experience with others?         No

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Awe, extreme gratitude, resolution to needed actions, some sadness at ending of marriage

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Seeing amazing light structure, and seeing amazing huge wound

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Uncertain, Difficult to put into words the majesty of the moment.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    That's it...