Kathy C's Experience
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My experience was a bit different it came in two parts. Myself and three friends were the victims of mistaken identity involving a home invasion. Three mask men one of which held a sawed off shotgun to my head while another shot my male friend for trying to defend my life. After much insane behavior the men lined the remaining three of us up on the ground execution style. I had not prayed for years, I knew it was over. I made a promise if I were spared I would do anything to make changes in my out of control life. I was living a fast, selfish, vane, partying existence. At the moment I made the promise time stood still, as if by some force outside of the scene one of the men did a complete 180 and talked the other men out of killing us. They stole my car, my purse, and my identity.  Back at home with my husband and boys, asleep the following night, a being came into my room and took me by the hand and pulled me out of my body. I had never read about anything, heard about anything about the other side, except what the Catholic church had taught me. I was taken to the corner of the room and turned around to see my husband, our bed and my sleeping self. I was whisk beyond the confines of our home into the sky and off into a sort of peaceful, light nothingness. A group of beings were waiting to talk with me. I was shown what was to come, I saw myself pursued and shot to death on the front porch of my home. I was told my body needed to stay whole and was spared being killed and I had a choice to make right then and there that I could choose to go back and live out the short future, and this time be killed, or go back and fulfill the terms of the promise I made for the sparing. I decided to go back, my boys were young, I felt sorry for them they would face a future with a dead mother who was killed by some really bad men. I remember coming back into the body, snapping in like a rubber band, gasping for air and scared out of my wits. I remembered everything, exactly how the beings looked, how easy the choices looked from the perspective I knew out of the body. I wanted to forget it, to break my promises. The future started to unfold exactly as I saw it, the threatening calls came form the bad men, they watched me and commented on my whereabouts. the police were no help. I was scared to leave the house. I received a phone call from a friend that a psychic in Phoenix called her sister and told her to call me that she had a vision of my impending death and could I come to see her. I went. She told me she would help me stay safe while the transition period played out, there is no description of the odd occurrences. The psychic told me when it would be safe again, when the men would stop pursuing me, she even stated the exact wording of the title of an article in the Phoenix paper that would let me know they had been arrested for another crime. Four agonizing months later I found the article. I felt like there was a foot on my back and it was pushing me out of my marriage, my boys, all my friends scattered.

I had everything taken away, my rental house burned down, I started my new life with a beat up car, a change of clothes and a purse. A third generation Comanche medicine man who ran the Indian Medicine program at a local hospital called me. How he found me God only knows. He said they, the native American ancestors told him to come and help me. Then the weirdness really began. He helped me accept that I couldn't go back, I had made a promise and I would be held to it. I kicked my feet, dam near lost my health completely trying to avoid the awakening that was happening. During my time with the medicine man I learned why I was spared and what the path I was now going to walk entailed, it was the most intense physical, emotional and psychological change. Looking back now I know what I came here to do. while I was doing it, it was hell, it took twenty years and countless teachers to help me withstand the pressure. In the end of the journey I was well educated about what is beyond the veil of separation. I was an intuitive, an artist, a kinder more loving person. The girl I once was died that night. I was given an advanced look at my death, my body left whole without a gunshot so I could withstand the pressure and the toll a spiritual awakening would cause. I can still see the  people whom I met on the other side, how the world below looked like the pictures form the apace shuttle. How insignificant all the earthly drama appeared from that perspective. Now I walk quietly, knowing what I know, teaching what I have learned, making art. Chopping wood and carrying water.

 At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No     when it happened it was a vivid as my waking consciousness. I knew no one would believe me I couldn't trust anyone. Until the medicine man came along I had no vocabulary for the experiences I was having. It was a different time then there were few books.

 At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    From the corner of my bedroom to passing my rooftop that night I was struck by energy like I have never felt before. The freedom, the vibrant glow of moving through the skies, then I was with the others. They were like beings made of clear vibrating jelly.

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   I knew so much more, it was like I was the brain, not the body, pure thought, shimmering is the only word.

 Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   It wasn't the same vision, isn't on the other side, it is a complete knowing, it is like revisiting a memory in your head. A kind of inner vision that has no need for a tool like the human eye to see.

 Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   No ears needed, imprinting rather that actual volume, yet I perceived it as a communication and was given answers for that which was only a thought, not a question. The beings were in sink with my thinking as I thought it.

 Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   I saw my husband and myself in the bed, heard him snoring, saw my children in the other rooms.

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?   I was startled, had no reference point, I was taken aback by the beings direct talk about me and my life

they felt loving but I was scared, I wanted something familiar to hold onto, at one point I noticed I was nude, I sleep in the nude, they manifested clothes for me, it seemed funny but I needed them. I still had some human consciousness holding me to the sleeping me below way down on earth.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   The space was almost like a thin shimmer of fabric.

 Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I heard a voice I could not identify
the beings were known to me and unidentifiable by human definition.

 Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No   I don't know if the people I met were guides, angels, aliens I didn't ask.

 Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Yes   I knew I had been really bad, kind of a review, the future events I saw unfolded like I saw them until I was out of the danger period, then the future was unknown and unexpectedly weird.

 Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
 Already said it was kind of shimmery like fabric.

 Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
 Didn't care about time. At one point I wondered how long I could stay detached from my body with and still go back.

 Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Uncertain

 Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life

 Did scenes from the future come to you?  Scenes from my personal future 
I wrote about seeing the upcoming events and how they would or wouldn't unfold. I felt like I was going back to a testing period.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes   I knew during the experience  of life after death, when I came back I didn't have any reference point except Catholicism.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   I knew I was connected to others and they knew me, not the earthly me, the spirit me. Very different.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   Yes  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   Mostly I knew that if I left the earth I would not fulfill my role as mother to my two boys. I still had the choice.

 During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   I know now what I had committed to do, only after the job was done, had I known I couldn't have, or wouldn't have the courage to do it. I also know a whole group of beings committed to do the same job. Long story...

 What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   did not know anything like out of the body existed.

 How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   No way I could ever forget the event that changed my life forever.

 Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I was no longer free to be a selfish self seeking brat. I felt I had no choice anymore had to grow into a good person, lots of teachers, doctors, therapists. I am conscious, very conscious now.
My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   I valued clearing up the past on every level, unloading the baggage I was carrying not only from my lifetime, but from my family, and beyond. I knew I was sick and burdened emotionally.

 Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   Yes, I am proud of the work I did although few really know what it entailed. People just know I am different and conscious.

 Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   Shortly after I started sensing with my hands, seeing movement out of the corner of my eyes, ghost appeared, had may vivid experiences, became psychic, learned a bunch about it, worked with it, gained knowledge, and now live kind of peacefully.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Yes, I am proud of the work I did although few really know what it entailed. People just know I am different and conscious.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  Shared it the day after with my husband. He took out a huge insurance policy on me. I didn't talk about it much for 5 years.

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was probably real   Couldn't forget it. Couldn't avoid the changes happening to my body and mind.

 What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   I know way to much now,  I read a lots of books, it is totally normal to me now.

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I am kinder, my kids like who I am now. People respect me, come to me for guidance.

 Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   Pretty much believe I know the truth, but also realize others think the same way about their beliefs. I don't try to influence anyone's thinking, I know once we cross over we are all just love.

 At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes   it would take to long to describe all the other information that has come to me.

 Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   I died, I am not sure if I became another pat of the same soul, or if I was a walk in, but I am not the same person who left my body that night.

 Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   I have written and lectured about my experiences and have met others like me.