Kassie M's Experience
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Experience description:
ABOUT FOUR
YEARS AGO I WAS NAPPING AT A BOYFRIENDS HOUSE WHEN I FELT MY MIND WAKE UP BUT MY
BODY COULD NOT MOVE, I WAS TERRIFIED. I COULDN'T SCREAM OR DO ANYTHING. I
REMEMBER THERE BEING A PRESENCE OF SOMETHING THAT SEEMED SHADOWLIKE AND I WAS
AFRAID. I INITIALLY TRIED TO CONVINCE MYSELF THAT THIS WAS NOT REALLY
HAPPENING. I FINALLY STOPPED TRYING TO SCREAM AND REALIZED THAT I WAS
CONCENTRATING ON MY BODY VERY CLOSELY. LISTENING TO MY BREATHING AND MY
HEARTBEAT. THE NEXT THING I REMEMBER WAS FEELING THE SENSATION SNAP BACK INTO MY
BODY. MY INITIAL REACTION TO THIS WAS ONE OF TERROR. ABOUT A MONTH LATER I
STOPPED BACK AT MY BOYFRIENDS HOUSE AND WAS NAPPING, I WAS TIRED AND SOMETHING
TOLD ME TO NOT TO CLASS WHILE HE WAS AT WORK.
I NOTICED THE
SAME FEELING COME OVER ME AND ONCE AGAIN I FELT LIKE I WAS PARALYZED. ONLY THIS
TIME I WAS LESS SCARED AS I REASSURED MYSELF THAT I HAD WOKEN UP THE TIME
BEFORE, WHAT SEEMED LIKE TEN MINUTES LATER HE BURST INTO THE HOUSE AND I WOKE
FROM THE STATE ONLY TO FIND HIM DISTRAUGHT DUE TO FEAR LINKED BETWEEN LOSS OF
CONNECTION WITH HIS SISTER IN MANHATTAN ON THE MORNING OF SEPTEMBER 11. I WENT
WITHOUT THESE STATES FOR ABOUT TWO YEARS. I HAD MOVED TO A DIFFERENT CITY TO GO
TO SCHOOL AND IN THE MEAN TIME MET A MAN AND BEGAN A VERY SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP.
WITH THE DISSECTION OF OUR RELATIONSHIP I MOVED BACK TO MY HOMETOWN IN PENSACOLA
FLORIDA WHERE MY PARENTS GAVE ME A PLACE TO LIVE UNTIL I WAS BACK ON MY FEET.
WHILE I WAS THERE I EXPERIENCED TWO MORE EXPERIENCES BOTH OCCURRING WHILE I WAS
NAPPING.
THE FIRST TIME
I WAS IN MY BEDROOM AND RECALLED THE FEELING OF TINGLING THEN I LOOKED AROUND
THE ROOM AND SAW THINGS EXACTLY AS THEY WERE EVEN MY CATS WERE RUNNING AROUND IN
THE ROOM. I SEEMED TO BE STILL IN MY BODY, BUT AS USUAL FELT PARALYZED. ONLY
THIS TIME THERE WERE NEW ELEMENTS. WHEN I LOOKED IN FRONT OF MY BODY TOWARDS
THE DOORWAY THERE WERE TWO CHILDREN SITTING ON THE GROUND PLAYING. THE NEXT
MOVEMENT WAS TOWARDS THE ENTRANCE TO THE ROOM ON THE OTHER SIDE AND THE
REALIZATION OF AN AFRICAN AMERICAN WOMAN IN WHAT APPEARED TO BE A NURSES
UNIFORM. THEN I WOKE UP.
THE NEXT TIME
IT OCCURRED ABOUT 3 MONTHS LATER I REALIZED THAT MY BODY WAS FEELING LIKE IT WAS
ABOUT TO SUCCUMB TO THE "FEELING" AND I LET IT GO, THIS TIME I JUST SEEMED TO
FLOAT AROUND MY SPACE AND LOOK AT THINGS, IT DID NOT LAST VERY LONG. THEN THIS
MORNING I WAS SLEEPING IN AND FELT SEVERAL STRANGE HAPPENINGS. FIRST I HEARD A
CONVERSATION FROM MY MOTHER SCOLDING ME FOR MISSING CLASS, I WOKE UP AND CHECKED
MY PHONE TO SEE IF I HAD ACTUALLY TALKED TO HER, I HADN'T. I FELL BACK ASLEEP.
THEN I REALIZED THAT I WAS FEELING MY SELF LEAVE AGAIN, MY BODY DIDN'T FEEL AS
NUMB AND THIS TIME I JUST GOT UP AND WALKED AROUND. I WAS FULLY AWARE THAT IT
WAS A DREAM AND THAT I WOULD WAKE UP AND BE FINE (MY BIGGEST FEAR IN THIS IS NOT
WAKING UP) THIS SOUNDS STRANGE, BUT AFTER I CHECKED EVERYTHING OUT I HAD WHAT
SEEMED TO BE A SEXUAL EXPERIENCE WITH ANOTHER PERSON, BUT I COULD NOT MAKE OUT
ANY PARTICULAR PERSON. AFTER IT WAS OVER I REMEMBER HEARING A MAN'S NAME IT WAS
THREE PARTS, AND I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS BUT KNOW THAT I WOULD RECOGNIZE IT
IF I HEARD IT. I LAID IN BED AND RECALLED THIS FLICKERING OF THE SUNLIGHT THAT
WAS AT THE WINDOW. I REMEMBER FEELING MYSELF GETTING ACQUAINTED AGAIN WITH MY
BODY AND ACTUALLY REMEMBER THE EXPERIENCE OF COMING BACK TO THE WAKING STATE.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
FULLY
CONSCIOUS
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
NOT THIS TIME,
IT WAS VERY REAL I EVEN FELT TOUCH
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes I KNEW
THAT I WAS DREAMING AND THAT THE BODY THAT WAS MOVING AROUND WAS A DREAM BODY
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
CONFUSION,
PASSION , RELIEF
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
YES, A
CONVERSATION WITH MY MOTHER AT FIRST AND THEN A NAME
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
No THE
LIGHT WAS AT THE WINDOW RIGHT BEFORE I CAME OUT OF THE STATE
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes I DID
NOT RECOGNIZE A PHYSICAL FORM ONLY AN OUTLINE OF A FIGURE, THERE WAS NO VERBAL
COMMUNICATION BETWEEN US, I SIMPLY FELT SAFE WITH THE BEING AND HAD A SEXUAL
EXPERIENCE WITH THEM, THE NAME WAS SAID BY ME AT THE CLIMAX OF THE SEXUAL
ENCOUNTER
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
Yes
I
WALKED AROUND MY APARTMENT AND WENT BACK TO THE BED WHERE I REALIZED THAT THERE
WAS ANOTHER BEING PRESENT, I KNEW THERE WAS A FEELING OF SEXUAL FRUSTRATION AND
THEN SUCCUMBED TO THE BEING AND FELT VERY COMFORTABLE WITH IT.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes I COULD
FEEL THE SEX, I FELT LIKE I WAS SWEATING AND ORGASMING, I COULD FEEL THE WEIGHT
OF THE OTHER PERSON
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain
ASIDE FROM REALIZING THE WHOLE THING WAS A "DREAM" NO.
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes I KNEW
THERE WAS ANOTHER BEING THERE, I KNEW WHAT WAS HAPPENING BETWEEN US AND I KNEW
THAT THE NAME I KEEP DESCRIBING IS OF SOME IMPORTANCE
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
I KNEW I WAS RETURNING TO MY BODY AND WAS OBSERVING THE EFFECTS OF THE RETURN
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain THIS HAS BEEN OCCURRING FOR SOME TIME AND SINCE THE BEGINNING I
CAN SAY YES, I HAVE BECOME WHAT SEEMS LIKE IT IS MORE PSYCHIC, USUALLY IN THE
VISIONING OF CERTAIN PLACES IN MY DREAMS. I USUALLY SEE A PLACE AND HAVE A
FEELING OR TONE TO THE DREAMS, THAT WHEN I AM IN THE ACTUAL PLACES LATER CREATE
A SENSE OF DE JA VOUS THAT REMINDS ME OF THE PARTICULAR FEELING (POSITIVE OR
NEGATIVE)
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
IT MAKES ME
REALLY INTERESTED IN WHAT IS HAPPENING. I FOUND THIS WEBSITE IN THE PURSUIT OF
EXPLANATION. THE EXPERIENCE THIS MORNING HAS REALLY INTRIGUED ME AND I AM
LOOKING FOR ADVICE/ANSWERS/INFORMATION
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes I AM
HUNGRY FOR INFORMATION, AND AM RETUNING MY LIFE TO BUILD ON THIS GIFT/CURSE
Have
you shared this experience with others?
No
What emotions
did you experience following your experience?
I USUALLY FEEL
A DEEP SENSE OF DEPTH OR KNOWING
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
THIS TIME IT
WAS LETTING GO, HOWEVER I WAS BECOMING AGGRAVATED WITH THE AMOUNT OF TIME IT
TOOK FOR ME TO COME OUT OF IT
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
NO
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes