Justin E's Experience
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Experience description:
It
was Tuesday October 13th, 1998. I woke up at 5 a.m. with a sore throat and
decided that I would not be going to school that day. I fell back asleep and
began dreaming. I was conscious during my dream and watched it as it unfolded
before me. Lucid dreaming is something that I have experienced on several
occasions. After the dream passed, I was still conscious. I had never watched
an entire dream unfold while remaining conscious but I attributed this to the
meditation that I had been practicing for the last three months. After the
dream passed, there was darkness but I was still completely conscious.
Suddenly, I heard a noise like a low hum and I saw what appeared to be a TV
screen. I looked at the screen and saw two people walking on the beach. I felt
as if what I was seeing on the screen was actually happening somewhere. It was
just this internal knowing that this event was real and it was taking place
somewhere.
The
image cut off and the TV became staticy and disappeared. The low humming noise
that I had heard remained in the background but at this point it became much
louder. The humming moved into my head and moved down my body in a rhythm.
Over and over this vibration moved through me and it felt similar to being
electrocuted but without the pain. Each time it moved through my body, I could
feel my body violently shaking (it was not my physical body). The rhythm became
faster and faster and my heart started beating wildly. I felt like a massive
amount of energy was moving through me and I was afraid of what was happening.
I had been meditating for 3 months, attempting to achieve an out-of-body
experience but I was not ready for these events that happened; it was very
frightening. The rhythm became so fast until it clicked or synchronized with
something. At this point, I began floating out of my body and I felt free.
I
was an individual point of consciousness without a body, just a speck of
consciousness. I saw colored lights flashing all around me. I could see
everything in my room around me but my eyes were closed. I could see my clock
and my bed and I could even see through the walls of my house. I saw my mom
sitting in the living room watching TV and I could see the stars in the sky
above me. I was able to see in several directions at once. As I began floating
above my body, I started thinking that maybe I was being abducted by aliens
because of the flashing lights, the floating, and, the humming noise. I kept
trying to tell myself that I was just having an out-body-experience but it was
very difficult to quell my fears. I thought about myself being back in my bed
and immediately I could feel myself on my bed again.
Next, something very strange happened. My consciousness flickered between two
points of consciousness, between lying on my bed and floating above my body
toward the ceiling. I actually experienced being conscious from to vantage
points at once. This was a mind blowing experience. I could not shake the
thought that maybe I was being abducted by aliens and that I needed to wake
myself up. I thought about being back down on my bed and the I woke up. After
I woke up and sat up in bed, I began crying. The experience was unlike anything
that I have ever experienced before. It completely changed my perception of
everything that I have ever believed.
Before the experience, I was a hardcore Christian but now, I knew that there was
so much more "out there" than what church had been teaching me. During my
experience, I was more conscious that I usually am during my waking life. This
was like a super consciousness as if I was waking up to the real life and when I
came back to my body, I was falling into the dream that I know as waking life.
Either way, the event changed me profoundly me. I cried for about 5 minutes
feeling both afraid but excited. After the experience, I felt very alienated
for several weeks. I felt that I had a piece of knowledge that maybe I was not
supposed to have. It was a lot to process. I did feel that I could relate with
many people in my daily life because they had not had this experience and they
didn't understand just how real the spiritual realm and the soul was. I
attempted to talk about my experience to others but kept getting unwanted
negative reactions. Some people said I was dreaming, others laughed at me, and
some genuinely listened but no one really understood, not even my youth-pastor.
After some time, I just quit telling people about my experience but change that
has resulted from it has impacted me greatly. I know that there is more that
the physical world. I know that I am not my body but that it is just a vessel
for consciousness and I have no fear of death.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes I've had visions that have come true and felt a presence that has guided
me (avoided crashing in a car, etc.)
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes Specific sensations that were felt are difficult to describe.
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
More
conscious that ordinary, as if I had awoken from a dream.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No,
the physical life seemed more like a dream when I came back to my body.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes I was an individual speck of consciousness, a point of light. There was
light emanating from everywhere and I could see in the dark. I did not see my
body.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Fear, Joy, Excitement.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
I
heard a humming noise. A loud vibration. I just remember being scared, not
really knowing what was happening.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes I was an individual speck of light. I saw colored lights flashing all
around me and everything seemed to be brighter than normal. It was nighttime
but I could see.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
Yes
I
saw my mom watching TV in the living room (through the walls of my room.)
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
response
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes My vision was much different. I could see in several directions at
once. I could see through walls.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes I realized that there is more than just the physical world and it exists
right here, much closer than we realize. We are an integral part of it. I
realized that I am more than my body, I have a spirit and my body is a vessel
for the spirit to utilize in the physical world. My original idea that when you
die you go to either heaven or hell had to be reconstructed... even my faith in
Jesus and the bible. I realize that there is much more "out there" than what
they teach about in church. Everything is not so black and white.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
Yes I have become aware of future events in other out-of-body experiences I
have had since then.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
Yes
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I had to rethink my belief in Christianity and my belief about the
afterlife.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
I
relate to people on the basis that they have a spiritual component within them
that needs to be nurtured. I realize that they have a spiritual need to be
loved and I feel that it is my mission/purpose to be loving in any way that I
can. I am studying to be a counselor.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Mostly skeptical. Some believed me and attempted to bring on these
experiences themselves. Some said that I was dabbling with the occult.
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
Joy,
alienation, excitement, catharsis.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The
best part of the experience was breaking free of my physical body and experience
the truer or more refined part of myself. I realized that this other part of
myself was "the real me", and that I wasn't my body. I felt very free and
liberated and felt as if I was capable of anything.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes Nothing with medication or substance but I have had several other
out-of-body experiences and visions.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes