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I have had  a previous OBE experience and night terrors for as long as I can remember the previous OBE occurred while under sedation for a dental treatment when I was about nine and seems to be pretty standard fair based on other accounts. I remember the nitrous mask, a floating feeling then bumping into the ceiling. I rolled over and was looking at the dentist and his assistant from the ceiling. when on of them stepped aside I recognized myself, freaked out and was sucked back into my body. No one believed me when I told them about it so I just dismissed it. The night terrors occurred randomly through out my life and were always a terrifying experience. Eyes open un able to move or speak for what seems like a eternity, the fear that some how you were paralyzed in your sleep. Then being able to wiggle some appendage and the terror is released this usually occurred early in the morning just before waking or just after falling asleep. I felt I had no control of what was occurring and there were often menacing entities present in the room until I shook the terror and was able to move again. 

My most recent experience with night terrors and OBE occurred over a period of four days. I had just received a dose of radioactive Iodine for treatment of thyroid cancer about a month after my thyroid was removed. I had to stay in a separate room from my wife and not have contact with my 3year old daughter, so I was sleeping on a futon mattress on the floor of my den. I was exhausted from the radiation and not having begun any thyroid hormone replacement therapy. I remember lying on the floor on my back and it seem as soon as my eyes were closed I awoke to a terrifying experience. I was frozen in that position but even worse initially I tried to move or tell my self I was reaming and to just wake up. I could move my eye and look around the room but that was about it. As I begin to try and focus on aspects of the dimly lit room I notice things floating even darting around the room. They where definitely menacing in nature. One in particular seemed to be perched in the corner of the room next to the ceiling. Very gargoyles in nature just staring at me. I made an effort again to get up and instantly it was on my chest forcing me to stay in place. It had its face close to mine and I remember it almost taunting me with its disregard form my complete fear of the situation. I was trying to push  against it and sit up but the weight was immense, simultaneously I was watching the other ( I am not religious but would call them demons or at least malevolent spirits swirl around the room. I became distinctly concerned that they might go in my daughters room and try to harm her in some way. I try to scream to warn her or wake up my wife or mother in law who was staying with s to help while I recovered. The best I could to was emit some guttural groan that I am not even sure was audible, anyway it force my lips to move which seemed to break the �spell� and the entities reluctantly left as I recovered my ability to move. I walked around the house strange as it sounds checked to doors checked on my family and was generally reluctant to go back to sleep. When I did the ordeal began again with a similar chronology inability to move what seemed like evil spirits in the room and that thing sitting on my chest enjoying my fear or at least indifferent to it. Again after an eternity I forced my self to move and thus the spirits dispersed. When they cleared the room it was not instantaneous it was as if a black smoke darker than the rest of the room was wisped  away. That happened for what seemed half a dozen times that night. 

I was very hesitant to discuss this with my family for sear of seeming crazy, which is how I felt after that first night. I got on the internet and researched the subject of sleep paralysis for the first time ever. I did not realize that it was an experience that others had had. Most accounts where of others terrified by the occurrences and unsure what to do. Many felt plagued by them as if it were some sort of curse with the only hope being  waking up. Most recommended trying to wiggle a finger or toe to break the spell. Others just rode it out in terror. I did find an account that caught my interest of an individual that had learned to deliberately move through the initial fear of the experience and transform it to an OBE. This individual gave specific instructions for doing so. I followed their advice and the following night was a much different experience. I awoke to the same scenario as the previous night, only this time I assured myself that they could not harm me and were only capable of instilling fear and intimidation. This seem to rob them of their power and even transformed them into a positive presence some with a religious back ground would probably call them angels. I then made an effort to rotate my astral body horizontally with my hips being the axis. This allowed me to break free of my body and I began to float toward the ceiling. I spun around once I reached the sealing and saw myself lying their eyes open with a blank stare on my face kind of like I was staring up at myself on the ceiling. Turned back to the ceiling observing its texture and began to try and move along it in an effort to travel to my wife�s room which I was able to do. I hovered over her and my mother in law for a time just looking at them and noting other objects in the room. I remember feeling a sense of pride in overcoming my fear and wanting to tell her �hey look at me I am flying� when I attempted to speak the sound of my voice instantly sucked me back into my body. I made several other short trips around the room and house that night and awoke almost excited to share this less frightening almost spiritual experience. When they woke up I told them of my previous experience the night of terror as I referred to and them the experience of that night where I had experience and OBE and travel to the room the were sleeping. I was able to recollect where thing where in the room without having been in their like where suitcases we and clothes on the floor, which side of the bed they were sleeping on ect. I am sure it freaked them out. I know I was feeling odd yet excited about the potential. The next might I awoke to the demons again and embraced them with love as if politely asking them to depart so I could get on with my OBE. That night I travel to many places some very far some not in this time or even dimension. I just the methodology I used the third night is worth mentioning incase anyone actually reads this. I laid on my back with hand palm down at my side I tried to relax and as I did so asked that I be able to experience and OBE again. Don�t ask who I was making the request to. I then pivoted on the horizontal axis and broke loose of my body once I did I was of until I choose to return the last night seemed like an all night experience.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? Yes    Radioactive Iodine from cancer treatment


Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?            Hyper-alert

           
Was the experience dream like in any way?  I could not have dreamed this stuff up

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          Yes    I was me in spirit is the best I can do

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          initially fear then curiosity then elation

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?          a rushing noise almost like a beehive or electricity

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?        Yes    I experience both malevolent and benevolent spirits, but I think that was a judgment on my part once I ceased to fear them the were not evil like I initially thought

Did you see a light?         No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    a being was sitting on my chest holding me down, he wasn't speaking in words but the message was clear " don't even try to move.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes   

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Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Yes    see narrative

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?     Uncertain  

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?          Yes    I feel I was able to cross space and time as well as dimensions


Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes    that only love can free us that was what the spirits in the room were trying to tell me once i looked at them with love then all fear subsided

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           Yes    at first the walls and ceiling of my home seem to be limits but that faded after the second night

Did you become aware of future events?      Uncertain    

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          Yes    see narrative, the first night I was force back into my body by the sound of my own voice. the next night it was my choice

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?           Uncertain    

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?          Yes    Love is all their really is fear is an illusion

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I try and follow my intuition and consider myself a spiritual being first and a physical manifestation of that being

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Yes          much more ownership in what takes place in my life, I feel I have some measure of control, based on how I perceive things.

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    I told a couple of open mined friends some listen and some had similar experiences

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  a renewed sense of curiosity about my spiritual aspects

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    I was reminded that their is more to life than we experience in ordinary reality. at first is scared the crap out of me

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?       I have not had an OBE since but I plan on trying again soon, and for anyone that experience night terrors please let them know that the fear is just a gate keeper and if you can move past it wonderful things await you on the other side

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?          Yes    I now meditate and practice yoga which replicate the sense of well being this experience gave me

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes