Julie A's Experience
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Experience description:
In 2005, I'd just
finished a busy day at work and my child, who was young then, was asleep in
bed. So I lay on my bed staring at the ceiling and just listening to her
gentile breathing. I remember looking at my alarm clock and it was around 6:30.
Since it was early and I love to read whenever I get a moment, I was thinking
about reading.
Just then I felt myself
lift from the bed. My eyes were open and I could see myself getting closer to
the ceiling. Funny enough, the only thought that came into my head at that time
is "I'm going to hit the ceiling" and I screwed up my eyes and pulled in my body
expecting an impact but instead of hitting the ceiling I burst into thus
brilliant bright light of golds and silver ( I can only use these words as the
nearest earthly description of where I was however, the intensity of the colors
and feeling I describe are much more in strength, color and intensity than words
can say. Take the brightest light and multiply it many times. The warmest
feeling and multiple it etc) I felt cocooned in this wonderful warmth, softness
and peace ( I imagine it is how a baby would feel in its mother's womb.
Just as I was looking
around me in wonder I heard a voice but the voice spoke to my mind, and I
answered with my mind. No words were verbally spoken.
The voice ( which I
instinctively trusted and loved) said " you can carry on if you want to".
I suddenly got a mental
picture of my child being alone and the voice said "if you want to go, you will
have to go now because evil things can enter you body ( I knew he meant the body
I'd left behind).
In that moment I felt
panic for the first time. Panic that I had to go back to my child and with in a
second I felt a whizz like feeling as I was pulled back.
I didn't go straight
back into my body but rather hovered over it for a moment before slowly settling
back into it. It was like putting your foot into a shoe and you wriggle you foot
around inside it until it fits in properly. That's how I reentered my body.
I looked at my clock
and no time had passed.
I found it very hard to
share my experience but I told my mum straight away because I knew, from that
moment that death was not to be feared and I wanted her to also know that she
had nothing to fear.
When my father passed
away in 2009, I waited for him to see is family, I began to worry because he
didn't seem to have seen family who had died before but I was so sure I would
although I didn't say anything to him because I didn't want him to be scared.
Sure enough, a few days
before he passed, he told me he'd seen him dead mother by the bed, waiting for
him.
Before my experience,
I had serious doubts about life after death. I laughed at those who wrote about
experiencing out of body experiences and put them down as being mentally
unbalanced or using hallucinogenic drugs. I never bothered reading about their
experiences because I thought it a waste of my time.
However, I no it was I
who was the ignorant one before my experience and it was me who was wrong. I've
never used any drugs and I don't drink alcohol. I am of sound mind and work as a
teacher and studied science at the university.
I remember my
experience today, as clearly as when I first had it
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Higher and stronger
than it is when I'm in my earthly body
Was the experience
dream like in any way?
Not in the slightest.
It was more real than life here on earth.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
I don't really
understand the question.
My thoughts,
personality existed outside of my body. My body being left behind like a shell.
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?
Warmth, safety,
happiness but stronger and more intense than how I would feel them here on
earth. Consequently when I felt fear of leaving my child, that fear was also
stronger than I've ever felt. Many emotions that have no words that could even
begin to describe them.
Its like only ever
seeing and knowing the names of three colors and then one day, going somewhere
and seeing dozens of colors for the first time, and not having the words to
describe them
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
A mans voice
speaking into my mind
Did you recognize any
familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or
encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?
Yes
I don't know if it was
heaven bit it was an incredibly amazing peaceful comforting place of warmth and
color. Very much like I imagine a child would feel in the womb. Safe.
Did you see a light?
Yes
Just amazing gold and
silver like lights that was all around me but did not hurt my eyes or blind me
Did you meet or see
any other beings?
Yes
I didn't see the man,
but I knew he was there. I sensed him close, I knew it was a man and I heard his
voice. I felt safe from him as if I knew him but I don't know why I had those
feelings
Did you experiment
while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes
Stronger. I was
more alive and everything I possessed such has sight, hearing, emotions and
feelings were stronger and better
Did you have any sense
of altered space or time?
Uncertain
Did you have a sense
of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
Well yes, I know
we go somewhere else after death and we do not die.
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware
of future events?
No
Were you involved in
or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
I was told I
could go on and I understood that meant my body would die and I would not be
able to return to it. I also know I was given a choice to stay or go back and
the man could read my thoughts and see the pictures I had in my mind of my child
and my fear or leaving her without my even telling him, he knew.
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
No
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
There is
something higher than us, someone or many beings who know us and watch over us
and there is life after death. And death is simply returning home.
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
It hasn't really
changed my life except I now have belief in an afterlife.
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
It took me a long time
to tell anyone. I was concerned they would think I was dreaming or lying or had
some mental or drug/alcohol issues but I then began to think that others had a
right to know.
Sadly, most disbelieved
me except for my family
What was the best and
worst part of your experience?
Best was the emotions
and feeling of warmth and security.
Worst was thinking I
might have to stay and leave my child
Is there anything else
you would like to add concerning the experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
No
I do not have the
words to fully explain my experience. How can something so unearthly and
superior be adequately explained with earthy words?