Joshua A's Experience
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Experience description:
I was
laying in bed in the morning. I had just woken up and I now know that I was in
the hypnopompic state. I must tell you that ALL of the OBE's I have had, and
there have been many, have occurred either in the hypnopompic state or the
hypnogogic state. I must also tell you that in every case I become consciously
aware in this state and when I do I cannot move, I am paralyzed due to the
chemicals secreted to prevent physical movement in the dream state. The first
time this happened I was a child of about 9 and I woke up and could not move, I
was terrified I struggled in vain but could not move I felt that spirits were
going to come and do things to me but I could not move, I found that the only
thing that would allow me to escape was letting go and falling asleep again.
Once I did I "awoke" and was able to move. I eventually found out what this
paralyzation was all about through my own research. Anyway, on with the story of
my first OBE. I was in
the hypnopomic state and was practicing progressive relaxation and meditation.
Suddenly, I felt myself start to spin as if I were on a centrifuge (this has
always marked my departure from my body when I consciously cause an OBE) I
recognized this feeling from when I was a little child, I had felt this before.
I heard a roaring and rushing sound, the movement and sound was both loud and
violent but not painful. Then all the sound stopped as well as the motion. I
found myself floating above my body. I noticed
that the light in the room was as it had been just moments before but I noted
that I was seeing it with "other" eyes. There was a certain clarity but also
diffusion. I knew I was having an OBE. I remember thinking, "oh boy, it's really
happening!" I then imagined that the ceiling was no longer there or that I could
pass through it. The ceiling then dissolved away and I saw the blackest, deepest
sky with stars as bright as I had ever seen. The next
thing I knew I was launched into space at a blinding speed. I remember that the
stars shot past me like they do in Star Trek and became just streaks of light. I
remember that it seemed like I was going so fast that I had traveled to the
center of the universe. I remember seeing a bright dot of white light and I
moved quickly toward it. The light grew larger and brighter as I moved closer
and closer. Remember, I was still traveling at this blinding speed and the rate
at which the light grew in size was fairly slow. So imagine that I passed stars
like they were road signs on an interstate and this light took A LONG TIME to
get close too. Finally
the light was so close that it filled my vision and I could see nothing but
light. Then my eyes seemed to adjust to the light and I was floating before a
great map. The map I realized was my life. I saw myself depicted as a word
(written in some strange language and yet I knew what it meant) inside a
circle... to tell you the truth it looked like an ORG Chart (organizational
chart) I saw the relationships of people and things to me depicted with lines
and I saw God and how God was related to things. Then a moment later I sat up in
bed and it was over.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I was
clear and lucid
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No, very real
and tangible
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
elation, joy,
wonder
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
Roaring or
rushing sound, when I was in front of the map I think there was a sound but I
can't remember it now.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes
As I
said the room looked the same but there was a subtle difference, like the eyes I
was seeing it through captured the light in a different way.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes
I
knew how I was related and connected to all things but could not capture that
knowledge or remember it.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes
I
reached the center of something though I am not sure this was a boundary or
limiting structure... maybe I was like a moth attracted to the light!
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes
It
became fairly easy for me to induce OBE's and other altered states.
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I
remember feeling certain that there is an afterlife.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
I am not sure
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
I am
sure it has in some way but I couldn't say exactly.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
The
reactions were positive. I think it opened the door for others to share their
experiences with me.
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
elation,
wonder, joy
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
That I had it,
that I forgot the message I received.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I have
had many such experiences which I would be happy to share but not by filling out
questionnaire after questionnaire. For the sake of research I would provide the
information if someone wanted to interview me.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes
I
have induced altered states and OBE's since. I have also had experience with
psychotropic drugs.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes