John C's Experience
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Experience description:
The
physical conditions environmental and meteorological are as follows: We (me and
a crew of 1) depart Frankfort Michigan harbor into Lake Michigan at exactly 9AM
August 19, 2005 into rather confused 3-5 seas: i.e. high waves coming from
predominantly one direction but given to irregular other waves deviating from
dominant direction causing the boat to pitch, yaw and roll considerably. The
boat is well found (60 ft, 60,000lbs) and handled the conditions easily, albeit
anyone at the helm has to be constantly vigilant; constantly re-adjusting the
positioning of the rudder to maintain course by turning the wheel. A good
helmsman adapts to the rhythm of the sea state and makes modest incremental
adjustments; an inexperienced helmsman over steers in each direction. I am an
experienced helmsman. Neither I nor the boat were in any difficulty, real or
perceived. On balance the conditions were what we expected when we prepared to
depart and we both had previously been through more extreme; both crew and I
wear clad in yellow waterproof foul weather gear when �on deck�; I was alone at
the helm, my crew resting below. Sometime
between 10:15AM (I had looked at my watch) and 10:30 I experienced an odd and
never before sensation as if a pressure gradient was being drawn about my head
which ultimately drew out or forced from my body what I can only describe as ME
or my consciousness of myself. That consciousness/me moved above and behind my
external body some distance (maybe 20-30 ft, although time and space seemed
suspended during the experience). I was suspended in an incredibly brightly lit
isotropic �universe� bathed in a light of incredible clarity and brightness but
not disturbing in its intensity; a limited number of two dimensional objects
somewhat round in nature floated without purpose in all directions and
attitudes; there also floated (stationary but unsupported) 2 larger, square, two
dimensional woven fabric-like wafers with very loose warp & waft, so that I was
able to see through them. The one closest to me was reddish in color, the other
neutral; I had the �feeling� or even more the �knowledge� that the red wafer was
a source of great distress (threat?) to me. The wafers, through which I could
see, were situated between the conscious ME and the unmistakable yellow clad
physical me (slowly decreasing in size as if the spatial distance between was
increasing) observed from behind (including my balding crown) standing at the
helm with my hands at the 10 & 2 o�clock positions of the wheel with legs
separated for balance, as I was before all this started. I had no perception of
any physical movement of the water, boat, wind or ambient temperature, although
I was �aware� of the physical surroundings. The physical world seemed to be
suspended as to time & place. There was
an overwhelming feeling, sensation, perhaps more aptly �understanding� of peace,
tranquility, serenity and yet these words are not exactly adequate, as if
language has no frame of reference to describe it ; tranquility is the absence
of and thereby implies (needs) the existence of chaos for its meaning; I need a
word to describe the feeling of peacefulness and serenity of tranquility in
which chaos never existed. As I �realized� (sic!) I was moving away from the
physical me, my consciousness protested; I �said/heard� �No, No not yet� (or to
that effect) and in what felt like a struggle at some level, I �willed� the
cessation of the sensation of moving away and after a time (time?) �I� passed
thru the fabric-like wafers as the yellow-clad me got larger. I had the
sensation of re-entering at my head but the pressure gradient �going-in� was
multi-layered and of significantly greater intensity than the earlier
�going-out. I found myself standing as I was/had been at the steering wheel
totally conscious and aware of the incident I had just experienced ; it took a
few seconds for the pressure to subside enough to allow me to call for my crew
to come and relieve me at the wheel. Since he was below in the cabin and not
dressed for the elements it was perhaps 5-10 minutes before he relieved me at
the helm during which time I had no difficulty in steering and maintaining my
position, i.e. functioning normally. At no time
during all of this did I feel dizzy or faint. There was no pain either in my
head or thoracic region; no numbness. I have no idea of the time that elapsed
(duration) except to say that given the sea condition it could have been no more
than 10-15 seconds or else the attitude of the boat, without course correction
from the helm, would have become quite noticeable to my crew and he would have
come up from the cabin to see what had happened. Once
relieved at the helm I went below and ingested 2 aspirin, then went up and lay
down in the cockpit of the boat for a time trying to sort out all I had
experienced. No
subsequent similar experience has occurred since. I have initiated a program of
physical and neurological evaluation to determine if there is an organic origin
to the experience (doctors eye me with some degree of incredulity!). If such is
found I will deal with it appropriately. If there is no organic causation, it is
certainly the strangest but most extraordinarily wonderful experience of my
life.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain ordinary language is inadequate to describe all sensations,
light, etc.
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different
from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
nominal increased alertness due to conditions of the sea state
Did your
vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such
as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes the inadequacy of language makes it difficult to qualify or quantify;
more vivid, clear, sharp, etc. Purity in the sense of ambient perfection.
Did you
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
incredulity, a certain quasi-curiosity; apprehension upon the
perception that I was not going to be reunited with my physical self;
determination that I was not going to leave my physical self.
Did you
pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did you
see a light?
Yes the ambient light was brighter than I had ever experienced although not
disturbing to the eye; light of a greater clarity than I had ever experienced
Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Uncertain I perceived I was in another dimension which was "superior" to
the normal world; since I could "look down" on the real world and the physical
ME I was aware of the comparison
Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain real world time & space seemed suspended, stopped; the event time
& space had movement but did not possess quantification or did not require
measurement
Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain at some point I perceived that I was moving toward some unseen
boundary from which I would/could not return to the physical world. at that
point I 'refused' to go further and willed my return (see narrative)
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Uncertain I sought medical evaluation within 10 days of the experience. The
typical reaction might best be described as 'sympathetic'.
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes media reports
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real The beginning and ending to the experience
was felt physically; there was no unconsciousness or dizziness or fainting at
any time; the possibility of hallucination seems limited given the circumstances
under which the event occurred. I committed the experience to writing 2 days
after the event so as to accurately reflect the details of the event.
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
it was an
experience of incredible beauty and purity of sensation.
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I can call to mind with perfect clarity all
the details, both as to the physical world conditions and the 'experience'
ambiance.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes to the
extent the experience can be 'described'