John B's Experience
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Experience description:
I have had many inexplicable experiences over this lifetime so far and now
seem to be opening again to some of these experiences.
To catalogue them all would take many hours of writing so I will keep it brief
and describe a few selected experiences.
At a pre school age I awoke in my bedroom and looked up. In the corner of my
room high up I could see what I can only try to describe. There was no animation
to suit in the early fifties and no screens however in today's animations it may
be described as an uneven ball of 'energy'. I know energy is not descriptive in
itself so I will say, imagine a loosely wound ball of wool, not even but
slightly elongated about a couple of feet in diameter. Now imagine that big ball
of wool being made of semi transparent fibers and those fibers relative in size
to the 2 ft ball as are the strands of a normal sized ball of thick wool. Now
give gaps all through the ball as if there are lots of stands which are not
actually connected but moving around at a relatively fast pace with gaps between
them however all moving as if in a swarm, an unordered but non colliding swarm.
It was not bright at all but I could see the top corner of the room behind it so
it was semi transparent. I interpreted it as a 'presence' and felt fear so
concentrated on pushing it away. I do not recall the time it took for 'it' to no
longer be there as my fear and concentration was highly present and my memory
was of that event and not how long after I went back to sleep. it was night and
late but I do not know what the time was.
That is not my out of body experiences nor seeing some of the things in the
future that I later saw in later life or the 'knowing' that came to me of
certain events that later happened almost like clockwork.
I wish to make no claims as to any 'abilities'. What has happened to me felt
like it was thrust upon me and I continually fought it off.
What follows are a couple of examples of what happened on a regular basis. These
occurrences often occurred at night when I was ready to go to sleep however
there was a period where I was always cautious of laying down for a rest as it
would happen spontaneously.
I do not have chronological data so some of the following may be out of context.
Age, about 16. Laying down. Woke to feel my body rigid (this has been verified
and other physical phenomena observed by partners sleeping in the same bed) On
the top of my head was a feeling like a slightly warm small sponge being
squeezed gently on to the top of my head. My memory does not recall if that
occurred on my perceived 'coming' or 'going'. (Everything is always questioned
by me) I retained an awareness of my body but was floating at a reasonably high
level along a corridor of a hospital. Presently I came to a side door opening
into an open ward with I think about 4 beds in it. May have been six but they
were peripheral only. I seemed to hover to the side of the first bed on the left
where a friend was sitting up in bed and the details are not as clear now
however he had a broken arm plastered to above the elbow in a sling and if I
recall correctly a broken leg with his toes poking out the end. I do not recall
the 'returning' to my body with that memory as the significant part was that.
I just remembered three other friends (also motor bike riders) were
around the bed. to continue, that the next weekend about 4 or 5 days after I
actually did visit that scene again but this time in the flesh. Four or five
days later the chap in question had a motor bike accident. I am aware of post
construction of pre cognizance and studied psychology to try and figure out how
these things could be explained. To try and describe my so called out of body
experiences I would say what was typical was that I would lay on my back, close
my eyes and then would feel that a sensation of energy perhaps like the warm
feeling of a hot drink being taken except that the sensation was upwards out
through the top of my head and I could not control it. While trying to describe
this/these events please understand that it is only an interpretation as I do
not have the scientific vernacular to describe events that may have no
scientific explanation and yes I am aware of delusional visions etc. I would be
somehow aware that I was elsewhere with visions travelling back to my conscious
memory yet unable to move my body and it was all I could do to make a tiny
sound. On a number of occasions I managed to make a sound (Think a sound that
takes the least effort like a moan) to waken my partner on rare occasions and my
partners were able to shake me enough to 'break the spell' so to speak. On
writing this I now recall that feeling of the warm sponge (as if my spirit was
re entering my body but was still connected while away) And again, these words
are only one interpretation of what may be an explanation. For many years I
fought against these occurrences (I have no idea how many times as I was dealing
with a frequent occurrence, not cataloguing the events) I am not a 'psychic' nor
have any wish to be classed in any way as a 'seer'. Apart from my ego perhaps
enjoying being able to 'see' things and 'into' 'stuff'. Yes I know that stuff is
rather nebulous. Examples may be that at school if a question was asked and I
did not know the answer (Fear of going to sleep and only going to sleep when
exhausted meant late mornings and tiredness and missed school) as I had missed
the lesson, the answer would come 'into' my head. Of course I 'could have read
it somewhere' etc is always an answer however could I have picked it up from
another or others thinking the thoughts and picking it up telepathically?
Another of many 'small experiences' was travelling down a road that I often
travelled down. It was an open road speed and had only one cross road with stop
signs so I had clear road for about three miles. Maybe a half mile from those
stop signs I had an urgent desire to slow down from the open road speed to a lot
lower speed. The moment I released the accelerator pedal my logic countermanded
that and I continued at the regular speed. The feeling to slow down became more
and more urgent until I followed it and took my foot off the 'gas' pedal. A few
yards / meters in front of me a motor vehicle crossed through the stop signs at
high speed. Maybe I heard it coming? But the road leading to the stop sign was
not far from a turn off and the car would have been on another road when I first
had the feeling to slow down.
The why can be debated so goes in to the memory bank as yet another rather 'odd'
occurrence. There are more pre knowledge happenings, some quite precise and not
gleaned in out of body experiences. Simply stated and sometimes I was surprised
at what I had said as if it came straight from a place that my conscience had no
awareness of. Coincidences? I had known my wife for two weeks and introduced her
to my Mother and said, I would like you to meet Karen, we are going to marry and
she is going to be the mother of our children. (Probably not verbatim) After we
had been together for a short while I said to my wife that we were going to have
three girls. My three girls are 17, 20 and 21.
I feel that is enough for now. In the present, I find answers come clearly to me
if I find a quiet place and I suppose, mediate but not in any of the
conventional ways, rather going into 'another space' and finding the answer.
Yes, I have passed through a tunnel. One made of
stone and a flat 'floor' not to long and partitioned off. Very similar I suppose
to visiting some sort of crypt which I have never done. Nothing out of what I
would expect if being there 'in the flesh'
At the time
of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At what time during the
experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness? I can not define
that.
How did your highest level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
everyday consciousness and alertness?
Normal
consciousness and alertness
All three depending on the situation.
Please
compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Not really applicable as my visions were the same as if I had seen the real
event. Unfortunately, I need to be careful as I have had visions so clear in my
memory that I can not tell if they are real or imagined. No, not hallucinations
or delusions but stuff that I have actually 'seen' and experienced like
equipment that I have used (like a blow dryer in toilets) that has not been
installed until a week after I have (imagined) I have used it. The challenge is
to separate 'fiction' or if you like 'visions of things to come' from reality.
If I talked about these things to some people they would of course determine
that I was hallucinating. No not using drugs to eliminate that. 'Things' do flow
for me and I sometimes know what 'may' happen with such a strong conviction that
it seems inevitable that it will happen and 'usually' does. I am also sure that
I can fabricate imaginings to please myself in a sort of escape from sometimes
mundane everyday life. Best to wear the dress of society and be as one with the
crowd.
Please
compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
That leads me in to a whole different aspect of my
life not applicable to the above set of events.
Did you see
or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
Mixed and changing over the years
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?
No
Did you see an unearthly
light?
No
Did
you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
No
Did you encounter or
become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by
name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
No
Did
you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Uncertain
Already described and yes and no questions
too specific.
Did
you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
Uncertain
of many things.
Definite in my path here and grounded in its observation which is sometimes an
anomaly.
Did
you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
No
Did time seem
to speed up or slow down?
No
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did you reach a boundary
or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you come to a border or point of no return?
No
Did scenes from the
future come to you?
Scenes from my personal future
Some already described.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (�life after death�)?
Uncertain
How would I know if my imagination was the
instigator of at least some of my experiences. If it was not for the actual
proof being presented to me and others who I had informed of events to come (not
under my or their control) then I would not have my logic entertain 'alternative
realities'
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God
or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
No
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you
either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a
mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s
meaning or purpose?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s
difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not
shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?
Yes
I have described enough already that I
feel like sharing.
Did you have a sense of
knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes
Already described
What occurred during your
experience included:
Content that was both consistent and not consistent
with the beliefs you had at the time of your exp
Hence not knowing what was constructed and what was not.
How accurately do you
remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around
the time of the experience?
I do not know how my remembrance of the experience
compares to my remembrance of other life events a
My life has had many and varied experiences which as time passes, I feel
have been to the benefit of my growth as a soul living in a human body and
perhaps bonded with it and its functions. I neither believe nor disbelieve in
reincarnation. Any absolute belief for me is closing the door of 'anything is
possible'
Discuss any changes
that might have occurred in your life after your experience:
49b. Spiritual life yes. Religious life no.
My
experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes
My (current?) life's journey has constantly changing beliefs and values. My
experiences are no singular or absolute.
Do you
have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that
you did not have before the experience?
Uncertain
Gifts? I fought the happenings for many
years. My life felt cursed with the experiences in the early years. I have had
so many amazingly wonderful happen to me I feel more blessed now. And no not by
and religious or super being but I am open to the idea of being part of a
collective consciousness
Are there one or several parts of your experience
that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
Yes, I can move without trauma into a 'special place' that has no words to
describe it. There is no definition and I don't know where it exists however if
I was asked to try to define it would say that it lay in inner infinity and not
outer infinity where I have the notion that many person made deities supposedly
exist.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Off and on. Not much if at all lately
until now.
Did you have any knowledge
of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes
No, I did not and have not. yes, I was in
a challenging ongoing situation and could feel my physical presence becoming
less in place and would 'easily' slip into another place of peace which I choose
to now describe as a place near 'god'. yes that is an anomaly and my 'god' has
no face, no definition but for the purpose perhaps conveys a feeling that many
will have some understanding of.
What did you believe about
the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely not real
Nothing is real...or as it seems.
Everything is real if we perceive it that way. How would I know except by the
definition of the conditioned response by the majority of society. Do I develop
my left brain or my right brain or concentrate in another small area that some
say transcends both? (Pineal Gland)
What do you believe about
the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
My subconscious does not know what is real
or not real apart from the filter of my conditioned logic. Yes my experiences
have been real. yes my experiences have not been real. I only know that I
'think' I have had those experiences and have not appeared either eccentric or
abnormal enough in general society to have my sanity questioned.
Have your relationships
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I would like to qualify that by saying the above is
quite broad as regards your specific OBE criterion. My relationships have
changed because I have changed. My reactions have changed significantly. I have
learnt or changed or re programmed and find that I no longer 'react' to other
peoples range of emotions in a negative way or at least largely so.
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is there anything else
that you would like to add about your experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
No
As mentioned your survey is for a specific
occurrence which my experiences are not. I came across this site and for
whatever reason started writing.
Are there any other questions that
we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
I have shared enough of my experience to satisfy
this current desire to do so. It is my tendency to 'emerge' and then retreat
back to my undisturbed space. I can only comfortably share when the desire to do
so is within.