Experience description:

It was the craziest most bizarre and amazing thing I've ever experienced. Like I can't even begin to tell ya how insanely incredible it was. And there were 3 people there with me and they've never seen anything like that happen before. And what I saw wasn't all present time. Like I saw the events of what was to happen immediately after they realized I was dead. And I couldn't communicate to them that I was dying. I wasn't able to speak. My chest wasn't rising and falling like it should. It felt like my heart was going to explode. It hurt so bad and felt like a ton of bricks were on my chest. I could communicate with my husband, with my eyes and that was insane. He knew something was very very wrong and then I started kissing his hand and he said 'Jess!? She's fucking staying good bye!' and I was. My husband laid me down on the couch and the motion of that is when my soul left my body. I was standing over my own shoulder and I can still see my face when I died. It was a blank stare. And I was in a dark room like it reminds of a film set with 3 walls. I couldn't see myself or who was next to me but His presence was undeniable. I just knew it was God. and I was begging with him to let me come back. I was so sad for my husband and wasn't ready to leave yet. Aubrey my friend said that the way me and my husband were able to communicate without speaking and how he held me the whole time was very sweet and amazing in a morbid way. And he HAD to hold me. I arms were wrapped around his neck so tight like I was legit hanging on for my life and I remember telling him you can't let me go because I knew that him hanging on to me was what was keeping me half there and half gone. And they kept asking one another of they should call 911 and I I was racing against time to get back because if they made the call it's was legit a done deal. And Aubrey said let's pray and I shit you not as soon as she began to pray I remember telling Him 'see.' And then I was back  and My husband says he felt me come back. He FELT it. He knew I was back before he even pulled back and looked at me. And I took a very deep breath like someone would if they had been drowning and I immediately started sobbing saying what was that? And this had only gone on for maybe 20 mins or so but to me it had been hours!! It had been such a long drawn out thing for me and I was convinced that it had been a long drawn out thing

I wrote it all down the day after it happened. And here is the super crazy part....I was questioning what I believe for a while before that and 2 months leading up to it I didn't know what I thought anymore and the week before this happened I literally and I shit you not, told my husband, 'I need to have a NDE to know for sure. Like I just need to die!' BOOM!!! mind blown. I was given a gift that isn't given to everyone. I have insight to what we are and what happens to us. I truly truly believe there is a God. I know there is cuz he was standing beside me. And I know that there's so much more to us and this earth than what meets the eye. I've always been very intuitive and I've always had 'feelings' and just chalked it up to anxiety  but after my experience I think that maybe I have some sort of ability to pick up on different energy and that's what those feelings are  like I sense with things are off with people and I can read people really well always have. And I've always been able to tell when something bad was going to happen. Like I would just be anxious and have this feeling on my stomach. I don't know how to describe it.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain  Not that I know of

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     It's such a profound and indescribable experience

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      The moment I knew that this is it. This is the night I die.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      Normal consciousness and alertness   None

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   No change

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   No change

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Sadness. panic over leaving my family and not being able to tell them.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?      

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The best word to describe it was a different dimension

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It felt like this had been going on for ever. In reality it was maybe 20 minutes.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   I know there is life after death. I was still very much existing and thinking. I just wasnt in human form. It was my soul and mind.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   The presence of God standing next to me was so overwhelming and undeniable. I just knew it was Him. It has never even been a question as to who was standing there. I just knew

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   I knew immediately that we live on after life on earth and that God is sooo very real

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I was struggling with my beliefs at the time of my experience. I've always like to think there is a God and we live one but I didn't truly believe it to be true because I have to see it to believe it and I was definitely shown that to be true.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th   It was the realest thing I have ever experienced. Very hard to explain.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   My hearing is very very sensitive now. I hear things, like conversations between people but nobody is any around me. As well as my vision. Lights are too much for me. Especially at night time.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   I am able to wholeheartedly know and believe that we life on and that we are our souls and God is so real

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Uncertain   I'm don't know how to explain what has been happening to me. I wouldn't use the word psychic though.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Feeling God's presence. Also how my husband holding me seemed to help keep me in this world. The love and energy between us seemed to make a difference in the outcome of that night and that is very special to me

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  Very few. There were 3 witnesses to the events. I shared with a few other close family members 2 and 3 months after the experience.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I knew it was real but questioned my sanity because it was sooo out of this world. We are amazing beings! We have abilities that our human selfs can't really fathom.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   Still know it was real. I don't question my sanity anymore though

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No   Yes

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   I feel like I'm way more spiritual and working on connecting more to my true spiritual self   No

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?      It's just so amazing. I wish I had the ability to show people what I saw and experienced.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   Yes

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   As best as I can   Research studies. Conferences.