Jessica B's Experience
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Experience description:
I was truly 'in tune' with the
music and suddenly i felt a beam of light - it felt very bright in the dark
concert hall - it shone down on me and seemed to enter the top of my head.
Information was communicated to me - 'through' the music - that we are light
and love and that love truly conquers all - that all of the 'good' and 'bad'
things that happen on this earth are nothing compared to love. And then i had a
vision of how everything is related and truly 'one'. That is
the best i can describe it. It lasted about 15 minutes and it took my breath
away. The state of mind i was in after was amazing - it was like i didn't get
'tangled' in the problems of everyday living - i had great clarity and insight -
i was totally calm inside and full of joy. Eventually i got more back to normal,
but i still have a very different view of life. Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience? Yes
I was at a rock concert with friends. I had been struggling with depression
for a while and i was not really enjoying myself at the show - not the way they
seemed to be. I was sort of pretending and forcing myself to smile, clap and
'enjoy' myself, and i gave myself to permission to not have to do that. So i
sat down and just listened. And the music seemed to start speaking to me - the
music would start doing one thing (sounding sad or dark or lively and upbeat)
and my thoughts would flow the same way...
I was on a depression
medication - Welbutrin
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes
I was shown so much that any
words i try to apply to it are completely inadequate
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
i was alert and seemed to be of
elevated consciousness
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
it was very dreamlike but i was
wide awake
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
I am not sure that i was
separated from my body or not? I seemed to have this vision - and it was as if
everything that was really around me was distorted.
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
joy. love
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
the music was especially intense
and seemed to be speaking directly to me.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light?
Yes
white. bright. love. healing.
embracing.
Did you meet or see any other
beings? Yes
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
Yes
yes. i knew where i was but it
seemed different. 'magical' almost. Also had no sense of how much time was
passing.
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
I feel like i was given a
glimpse of our true state of being. I was also taught about conquering fear and
about the love that surrounds us and that we are full of. I am also able to
read spiritual and religious texts with a sense for what is really true and what
is not - i feel like my experience elevated my point of view.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
Yes
I find that my sense of
intuition is clearer to me now. I am also much more aware of the energy in my
body (have taken up yoga and tai chi) . I find that i am not always in the
zone...but when i am, i feel energy prickling the top of my head. Sometimes i
also feel it racing in my legs. Sometimes I see auras.
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
i was able to forgive myself
for something that had been eating me up on the inside.
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? It has
improved my relationship with my boyfriend, now husband. I now meditate, and do
yoga, tai chi
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
i don't know that i have
influenced anybody by telling them about my experience. I find though that
because of my experience and my increased intuition, that i am able to help my
friends more.
What emotions did you
experience following your experience?
joy
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
The best was the elevated view
point - even though i am not always able to see from that vantage point, having
seen it and remembering it, is awesome.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
You
might be interested to know that for the last few years prior to this i have
been experiencing occasional sleep paralysis along with minor hypnogogic
hallucinations (usually people talking around me, foot steps, doors opening and
closing, the feeling of a presence) . . I was always scared and would try to
wake up and snap out of it. I now feel like this is my doorway to an obe and am
planning on exploring it.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No