Jennifer Pre-birth
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Experience description:

For years, I’ve sought to find others who’ve had similar experiences as mine.  I grew up thinking I was a bit freakish, and when I tried to share my experiences, I was met with disbelief and ridicule.  To say that one must be brave to share what you remember is an understatement. Thanks to all who have shared.

I had just died and was greeted by a being who I would compare to a guide.  I was in a dark void, yet seemed to be aware that the world was below me.  Failure was my instant feeling upon greeting the being.  I had once again, not completed my mission, or whatever task I was supposed to do.  I knew I would always have to return to Earth until I had completed the task the beings had told me I was supposed to do.  I realized I had tried this many times before, and with each life, I had failed.  I was frustrated and told the guide it would be easier if I could remember this place, this in between lives space.  Then, I would be able to successfully complete my task, and never have to return to Earth again.  The being seemed to ponder my idea, and in what felt like an instant, we were meeting other beings, much like my guide.  She, my guide, wanted to share my idea with the others. 

They must have approved my idea, because my next memory is of me being surrounded by several spiritual guides.  They were full of love, and seemed to be encouraging me to remember.  They told me this was the last time.  I’m not sure if they meant the last chance I’d get or if they meant something else. Then I was being born born, or rather, I was 'falling' or 'traveling' through a space in between that void and this Earth.  There was a being there.  He was more like a force, devoid of care or love, and he is the one responsible for erasing my memories.  While I was in this place, the time before this current life, I realized I had tried to remember many times before.  As in, after deciding to try to remember with my guide, and before each reincarnation, I had failed every time. I seemed to remember all my failures each time I was fighting this being who erased my memory.  He seemed amused by me.  Like, he thought it funny that I ever thought I would be able to remember.  Like he had been amused that I was still trying.  I balled myself up, almost like focusing on only myself, and holding on with every ounce of strength, to my memories, to myself.  I never doubted that I could remember for some reason, even after failing so many times before.  Maybe it was because my guide beings believed I could, I’m not sure.  After my fall was finished, I was greeting by another being, or force.  This being was panicking, because my memory had not been erased this time, finally.  They didn’t seem to know what to do.  This being left to converse with someone or something else.  At least, that’s what I seemed to think they did.  Upon return, the being seemed relieved.  He said if I told anyone about my experience, they wouldn’t believe me.  And then, I suppose he allowed me to pass on through to be born on Earth.

I’ve a few other memories of that place.  They are of me choosing my parents, specifically my dad in this life.

I’ve spent a large portion of my life exploring different possibilities for my memories.  Until I saw others had experienced the same as mine, I felt very alone.  I think I discovered the answer to what I’m supposed to do in life.  It’s what we are all to do, but it is slightly more than just loving others.

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    It’s hard to describe what took place.

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes    I was born a month late, which was unusual, but my mother said the doctor insisted I would come when I was ready.  I was born weighing 5 pounds 2 ounces.  I stayed in the hospital before they discovered I needed a blood transfusion to save my life.

 What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    That’s hard to say since I was a newborn.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   Uncertain    

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Frustration at having to return to Earth, happy to remember, confused as to what is going on on a plane beyond our existence here.

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         No

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         Uncertain     I experienced the void before birth.

 Did you see a light?        No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    My spirit guides, the being I fought who erased my memory, and the being who allowed me to proceed right before birth.

 Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         Yes   

I somehow knew my grandmother was praying for my survival.  I chose to stay because the preacher prayed to God and asked that he let me live so that I may be a servant to Him.  I choose to stay, because I wanted to help, and I didn’t want my death to hurt my birth parents.  I do not remember meeting God, nor do I remember a God at all.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain     My mother has said they prayed at church for my well-being.  My grandmother did attend this church.

 Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes    I felt no pain there.  I saw, but communication was different.  I felt thoughts of others maybe, like voices were not used.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?          Uncertain    

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    There is a hierarchy that sends us here.  Reincarnation is real.  The force, or being, that erased my memory so many times is not a spirit guide like the others.  It’s almost as if the spirit guides are helping us escape Earth, because the task we are given is much to hard.  They, however, must also have no control over the being, or force, that erases memories.  I never even saw the spirit guides communicating with the force.  My mission became to remember, so that others also have a chance at remembering.  My mission to escape Earth, from the beginning, was to overcome the animal instincts my body wanted to act on.  To love and help others is a good step, but I had to overcome every temptation to do what is right.  This is much much easier said than done.  We don’t know that there, we think it should be simple.  However, once we are here, it takes an incredibly strong soul to overcome, especially once the memory is wiped.

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           Yes    Earth

 Did you become aware of future events?      Uncertain     It didn’t make sense until I read others experiences.  There is a great change taking place at a level beyond our understanding here.

 Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          Yes    I chose to live.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      Uncertain    

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?     Uncertain    

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   I feel very isolated, since I’ve been unable to share without backlash.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    It keeps me going on the right path, even when I stray onto the wrong one.

 Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes          Disbelief, so I remained silent to friends and family.  I only shared with my significant others.  They were open-minded but nothing completely changed for them.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?          The best part is finally remembering, while the worst is being here because I feel like I should not be.

 Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I hope my memory helps someone else.  I’ve done what I can by sharing it while I’m here.  I feel as if I’m no one special, and I want to stress that anyone, those with memories or without, can encourage people to resist temptation (for lack of a better word), help others, and do what is right, in order to complete the mission.  Much easier to say than to do.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No     

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes