Jennifer A's Experience
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Experience description:
My first
obe happened one sunny afternoon about two years ago. I decided to take a nap
but found it difficult to fall asleep. As I lay there, I felt myself slipping
into darkness, unable to breathe and move. I struggled trying to fight against
the darkness and tried to wake myself but I couldn't open my eyes. My whole body
felt so heavy I couldn't move. I thought that if I could force myself to sit up
I would be able to open my eyes. I tried to move with all my might. It felt like
my body was as heavy as lead and I was moving in slow motion. After what seemed
like several minutes I was able to lift the upper part of my body but I then
realized that I was holding it up without using my hands for support which is
physically impossible. It was then I realized that I was floating and I got
scared. I turned
my head to look at the place where I had been lying down for confirmation and I
saw my body lying on my side with my hair covering my face. At that moment I
thought I was dead. I tried to brush my hair away but my hands were translucent
and just passed through my head. I tried to shake my physical self to make
myself wake up but I couldn't hold my body. I looked around and I saw my husband
working at the computer. I tried calling out to him but I couldn't speak. I saw
him turn off the computer and leave the room I wanted to tell him to wake me up
but I couldn't. I followed him to the living room and I saw him tell my daughter
they were going to the grocery and then I saw the leave the house. I got really
scared because now no one would disturb me and I might not be able to wake up. I
thought of my family coming home and finding me dead. I went back to my body and
tried to return but I couldn't. I tried to fit myself inside but I could just
see my translucent self overlap with my solid body. I really
felt separate from my body and couldn't connect with it. I thought, "NO, I CAN'T
LEAVE YET. MY DAUGHTER NEEDS ME. I WON'T LEAVE HER." I prayed and begged God to
let me return. I prayed over and over for a long time until I felt I was one
with my body again. Waking up I took a great breath like when emerging from
under water. After that
I've had some more OBEs but only brief ones and at the moment I feel myself
separate from my body I immediately try to return. My latest (7th) OBE is this
afternoon. All except two of them are like the first one. In one OBE
I felt myself leave my body but as I looked around I was somewhere else and it
felt like it was another time. I was in an old house (old now but not to myself
that was in it). I felt the sheets of my bed and the feel of the wood floor on
my bare feet. I also heard a man calling me from down stairs whom I knew was my
husband. It felt so real but I can't bring myself to think that it is.
The other
one is really scary. I am always scared of my OBE but this was even more so.
This was different. This time I felt myself being forced out of my body by
something that felt really evil. I felt a cold wash over me from the top of my
head and as I struggled to keep myself awake (it was very difficult to keep my
eyes open) I saw him leering down at me. He was black and he was like a shadow
and he had menacing eyes that glowed. It felt like I was battling him with my
will, like he was trying to push me out of my body. I prayed to god to help me
and I repeated the Our Father in my head over and over until it stopped. One time
it felt like I was in the past. I was moving in a different place in time and I
was myself at that point in time. I never imagined being someone else before or
ever existing in the past but as I was there I just knew that it was me in a
different life. I have never seen this house before but I saw it in perfect
detail and I felt the walls and the floors and I didn't see the person calling
me but I knew he was my husband (the same person who is my husband today but he
belonged in that time) and I felt very content but I knew I did not belong
there. That was not my time, I had to go back to my own time where my husband is
now.
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I am awake everytime and very
conscious of everything happening to me and everything around me
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
just that its hard to believe that
its real but it doesn't feel like a dream
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
I look like myself except I am
translucent
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
Really scared
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
sometimes I hear a continuous
buzzing sound before it happens
Did you meet or see any other
beings? Uncertain
I saw him leering down at me.
He was black and he was like a shadow and he had menacing eyes that glowed. It
felt like I was battling him with my will, like he was trying to push me out of
my body.
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
Yes
I saw
my body lying on my side with my hair covering my face. I tried to brush my hair
away but my hands were translucent and just passed through my head. I observed
my husband working at the computer and later he and my daughter left the house.
When I had awakened I related to my husband what I saw and he confirmed it.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes
I
observed my husband working at the computer and later he and my daughter left
the house. When I had awakened I related to my husband what I observed and he
confirmed it.
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes
I
could not speak or feel anything but I could see and hear perfectly
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
One
time where it felt like I was in the past. I was moving in a different place in
time and I was myself at that point in time. I never imagined being someone else
before or ever existing in the past but as I was there I just knew that it was
me in a different life
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Uncertain
One
time it felt like I was in the past. I was moving in a different place in time
and I was myself at that point in time. I never imagined being someone else
before or ever existing in the past but as I was there I just knew that it was
me in a different life. I have never seen this house before but I saw it in
perfect detail and I felt the walls and the floors and I didn't see the person
calling me but I knew he was my husband (the same person who is my husband today
but he belonged in that time) and I felt very content but I knew I did not
belong there. That was not my time, I had to go back to my own time where my
husband is now.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain
at
that one time where I felt I was in the past I was first in my room (not the
room that I have now but an old bedroom in a house I've never been to before) I
went into the hall to the top of the stairs but I didn't go down, the person
whom I somehow knew was my husband was down the stairs waiting for me but I felt
I didn't belong there and so I turned back and willed myself to return to where
I was lying in my real room.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
Every
time I spend most or all of the time during the OBE trying to return to my body
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Uncertain
It
makes me think that we indeed have a soul and our consciousness doesn't really
reside in our brain but in our soul and that our souls go through one life after
another.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No response
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
My
mom thinks I'm hallucinating. I think my husband believes that it truly happened
since I could describe to him exactly what he did during my first OBE when he
went to our living room to get our daughter while I was in bed and couldn't have
seen them. I don't tell other people about it I am afraid they would think I'm
crazy or a freak.
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
Scared
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
Worst during
the first time was thinking I was dead and unable to return to my body. Even
worst was when I experienced another near OBE which felt like an evil being was
trying to push me out of my body and having to stare at his eyes.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
All my
experiences seemed terribly real but It seems so far fetched even to me. Am I
hallucinating or imagining it like my mom thinks?
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes