Jeffrey's Experience
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Experience description:
Sleeping at night at a friend's home, on the guest couch. Normal sleep, normal
dream... then, in the dream I see a woman with whom I had been briefly (a week
or so?) intimate *six months before.* She is walking away from me, my sight
follows her, hoping she will turn to look at me. She does stop, turns, and when
her gaze meets mine, we are instantly magnetized into a merging each with the
other... and then... transcendence... the bodily forms dissolve in a swirl, she
is no longer there, nor is my own human form, as my awareness is pulled upward
exceedingly rapidly (though there is no sense of wind speed nor friction nor
sound of travel)... upward into dark night sky... my senses seem remarkably
upgraded, unified, perceiving in a much more whole and direct manner... a
sensation of deepening warmth and pleasure is evident... I can see very far,
many stars and planets are seemingly close enough to touch. It is clearly
evident that I a perceiving more completely and truly than ever before; THIS IS
REAL. I am aware that the Jeffrey body is asleep on the bed far below, and I
feel no sense of identification nor attachment to it. I am aware that THIS is
my real essential being, awareness beyond physicality, beyond earth, beyond
time. The higher I expand, the more ecstasy and warmth are registered by my
consciousness. I am struck with a question as to where I am being taken to...
and a thought comes to me that I am being pulled to the sun... not merely the
surface sun, but the Sun behind the sun! Whoa, I think... I am going to God!...
Then a voice comes to me seemingly from outside, very matter-of-factly stating:
"You are leaving your body behind... are you ready for that?" There seemed only
one possible answer: "No." With that, my awareness was instantly sucked back
down into my physical body and I was waking up on the bed.
2.
my sense that 'death' is rather a non-issue, it's not an end.
3.
my sense that the union of masculine and feminine is possible significant to
awakening, to becoming 'whole.'
2.
my sense that 'death' is rather a non-issue, it's not an end.
3.
my sense that the union of masculine and feminine is possible significant to
awakening, to becoming 'whole.'
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
unless I was dying in my sleep? I don't think so.
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
No It's not difficult to describe the external sense of upward expansion,
but of course I am not able to convey the profound and direct quality of inner
expanding bliss-ecstasy.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
I was increasing in a sense of full-on bliss-ecstasy beyond mere orgasm just
before the Voice spoke to me.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More
consciousness and alertness than normal The sense was one of Fullness... as if
all my earthly senses had become unified into one capacity for omni-awareness...
it seemed as though I could reach out and touch the furthest visible reaches of
the universe in space, as if it were all 'right here.' And the sense was that
this experience was far more convincingly REAL and OBVIOUS than anything I had
ever before experienced via the normal sense perceptions of my physical body.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
"Far
vision"... yet everything seemed to be within reach, right here.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
I
only recall 'hearing' the words of The Voice, and the thoughts in my own
awareness,
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that
your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Ever-expanding (upward), increasingly warm... warmer and warmer...
ecstatic...orgasmic... beyond orgasmic (I recall having the thought that "that
ol' body of mine on the bed must really be creaming the sheets!")... though upon
return of personality/consciousness into the body, there was no evidence of such
a physical orgasm... apparently the experience had occurred in inner
consciousness only.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel?
No
Did
you see an unearthly light?
Uncertain It may have been, but only far above me. I was being pulled toward
it, but I wasn't ready to get anywhere near it, apparently.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an
unidentifiable voice?
I heard a voice I could
not identify
At one point a resonant, gentle, and apparently masculine Voice, spoke: "You're
leaving your body behind. Are you ready for that?" I didn't have any choice
as to my answer, which was a spontaneous "no."
Did
you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who
are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha,
etc.)?
No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
time
seemed irrelevant, time was not in effect here.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you come to a border or point of no return?
No
Did
scenes from the future come to you?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (�life after death�)?
Yes It was my sense that it was plain, clear, and obvious that when I drop
that body/personality "Jeffrey" that this non-physical conscious essence will
continue effortlessly, inevitably... that there is no death of this essence.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes At one point I wondered, "where am I being pulled to/toward?" then a
thought response came: I am being pulled toward the sun... not the surface sun,
but 'the Sun behind the sun!' Then I thought, "Whoa! I'm going to God!" And
the further the progression of my expansion, the warmer and more ineffably
ecstatic were my senses registering... so I simply assumed that 'God' was the
absolute of warmth and bliss... and I was not yet sufficiently purified to
experience that ultimate state of being.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not)
exist?
Yes It was clear to me that my normal bodily perceptual experience fell far
short of awareness of the greater actual universal Reality.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding love?
Yes Love/union between masculine and feminine definitely had something to do
with the experience.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information /
awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living
our earthly lives?
Yes Actually, this is a conclusion I reached as a result of the experience:
the awareness that 'God' is infinitely, ineffably beyond our meager human
conceptual and/or dogmatic institutional religious interpretations thereof...
the Reality of The Real Resplendent One will not fit into our human labels or
boxes.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
No
What occurred during your experience included:
Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of
your experience The condition of my prior conceptual beliefs were all expanded
and raised to a new basis in *direct inner experience* beyond prior teachings or
interpretations.
How
accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events
that occurred around the time of the experience?
I
remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred
around the time of the experience However, though I remember the events of the
experience with some sense of lasting clarity, I am unable to retain or return
to the immense sense of profound rightness.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your
experience:
I
thereafter wanted to study, seek, to understand the nature of this greater
reality which I had tasted... I have collected thousands of books on such
subjects.
My experience directly resulted in:
Moderate changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes I sloooowly came to realize that perhaps the greatest implication of my
experience is that there is no death, that there is such as eternal existence.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful
or significant to you?
1.
my sense that God/Reality is way beyond what we think, say, or write about it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your
experience that you did not have before the experience?
No
Heh... thereafter I could smell the stink of preachers and their control trips
and rackets more readily than before.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful
or significant to you?
1.
my sense that God/Reality is way beyond what we think, say, or write about it.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
the longer time goes on, the more readily and likely I am to speak of it, and I
like when others share their own similar experiences in return.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
Yes I'd heard of them, read of them in books... and that books are nowhere
near as convincing as the direct experiencing of it.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to
weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real Despite my willingness to acknowledge after the
fact that that my experience is/was entirely my own subjective experience,
nevertheless at the time it was occurring I was perfectly convinced that I was
experiencing a clearer look at real Reality.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was probably real I was more real than anything I have ever
experienced via my physical body senses.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
In
some ways I am less happy, because the earth game seems such a relatively
worthless sham to me ever since that experience. I generally feel as though I
am merely marking time here... waiting for the return to a real universal
existence. No longer much interested in the entrapping trinkets and treasures,
lies and propaganda offered by society.
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result
of your experience?
Yes
The
more formless, infinite, eternal, and free, the better.
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
Uncertain I often do not recall my dreams. But a few times in dreams I have
had some minor, briefer experiences of ego identity/form becoming lost in a
briefly blissful almost-transcendant swirl... then coming back into normal
un-awareness, time, and form.
Is
there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?
In
many ways, life in 3-D is more challenging because I can no longer act like one
of the unthinking sheeple, I can no longer automatically go along with the
mainstream capitalist materialist flow.
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes