James K's Experience
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Experience description: To sleep I
usually clear my mind, and move into my place of silence, complete darkness.
within a few minutes "while my body is awake i.e.. I know I'm not dreaming and I
am conscious or whatnot." I begin to see as if my eyes are open, or through my
eyelids," but I'm in a different place, places I've never seen before "always a
different place" at first this was scary thing for me, but it's been happening
at least once a week since it first started. So I
observe my surroundings "usually in Awe, of the beauty" and I feel myself
drifting off. On this
one particular night I had felt as if I had actually awoke in a place I've never
seen before, and I saw myself standing in front of me. I was in a "praying on
knees position" i.e. not the way I was sleeping, or in the room I was sleeping
in I looked at myself "in front of me" and tried to speak, but instead the words
moving my lips moving "the me on my knees" the standing ME's lips moved. What
was I trying to say? Oh MY GOD! I looked around to see if there was anyone else
or anything else. I saw nothing but a wooden chair behind me that appeared to be
an antique. Feeling there was nothing to do here I remember walking into myself.
Then I remember the most intense falling feeling I've ever felt.. it lasted for
what seems like a really long time. . I then awoke. . and had what I'd describe
as mixed brain messages. . i.e. thoughts were colliding inside my head as if I
were resorting them it took me a good 5 minutes to "collect" myself. I then
closed my eyes to try to go back to sleep. .it almost seemed as if I was being
forcibly put to sleep. .the next thing I remember I was holding my head by the
hair in my left hand and laughing about it. I somehow "without the head on my
body" looked at the bottom of the head and it was a graphic depiction of a the
bottom of a head that had been cut from the body. Oddly I was not afraid. .
that's all I Logged from the experience. After I
awoke I felt invincible, and as if I could conquer the world. I have felt this
way since this occurrence to this day. Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience: No Was the
experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain
What was it about the
experience that makes it hard to communicate?
Seems as if i'm missing a piece of the puzzle. .perhaps the dog chewed it up. At the
time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No What was
your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Was aware of surroundings, and that they were not where i was sleeping. Seemingly
seeing a show on the back of my eyelids. Was the
experience dream like in any way?
When i was younger my dreams were of places ive seen. . just slightly off. . ie.
some things were out of place. . this seems more like somewhere someone has
taken me oddly. . I cannot explain it's a feeling and i'm no Poet Did you
experience a separation of consciousness from your body?
Yes Describe
your appearance or form apart from your body:
Explained Above What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
At first fear. . then a sudden "Everything's Okay" hard to explain in words Did you
hear any unusual sounds or noises?
No sound at all; ever during any of my experiences. . Did you
see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions? Yes
Describe:
I see often see what i'd describe as paradise exactly as i'd have it be. This
happens once or twice a week. I'll still be knowingly conscious "i just laid
down and cleared the thoughts of the day from my head, until there is nothing
but black. Then it's as if i see through my eyelids, but i'm in another place
"paradise. so to speak" I perceive it as another plane. Did you
have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
Describe:
Time is of no object. .I'm just there, and loving it. Did you
have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
Describe:
It is very easy for me to imitate a language, or use the correct accent now. Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Describe:
Free to roam Did you
have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
Describe:
No, but since i was around 13 I fight with myself when i look in the mirror
about things i've done during the day as if there are two of me. Not physical
fighting just me disagreeing about something i did, or said. I don't speak it's
more of an inside battle. Has the
experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.?
Career choices? Closer to
my Family now. . I can say what i'm thinking, not what i'm thinking about
saying :o) Have you
shared this experience with others?
Yes
Describe:
My Arabic friend tells me i have a genie inside me he can see it in my eyes. I
laugh, and laugh. .. He told me it's true. . and they are all around us. So i
told him if there is a carpet riding genie in this room DO something, Move
something, or Make me say something Stupid. Oddly after i said that. .i spoke
the words "To Late" like it was a reflex. I DID NOT THINK THAT IT JUST LEFT MY
LIPS! So here I am left with nothing but confusion. . What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
Just far less emotion or compassion toward females. What was
the best and worst part of your experience?
Best: Not caring about anything, at peace Nothing was bad beside the initial why
do i see myself. Has your
life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Describe:
Just have a better understanding of the way people are, become, or can be. Following
the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No Did the
questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Explain:
You must get a lot of these. . Please
offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.oberf.org questionnaire?
i don't know how to make it make this a question, but i'd like to know if others
see things as they begin to goto sleep through their eyelids as if they were
awake, but in a beautiful place they have never seen before.
I had just moved in with a few of my female neighbors, because I had got kicked
out of my apartment. I had stayed up all night as I normally do, because I
always seem to be searching for something. .or in other words I feel as if I had
left something uncompleted. .during the previous day/night.