Ivan R's Experience
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Experience description:
I
was sitting on a balcony, second floor off the ground. I was looking out into
the distance and was 'letting my vision go'. I was playing with this all day
without really realizing what I was doing. I was deliberately zooming up to
trees that where great distances away as if I were right beside them and was
making them sway with me. I was zooming my vision right in front of buildings on
opposite streets and making them float and rotate. I did not realize I was
leaving my body until I was zooming in towards a wall on the opposite side of
the road. I thought at the time it was just my 'vision' that was situated on the
road, then I turned sideways to see a motor bike come towards me then hit me. I
snapped back into my body with a great shock, and I had a corked thigh the same
side I saw the motor bike ride into me. I was over 30 meters away from the road
on a balcony and I was some what conscious through the whole experience. I was
zooming into everything around me all day not really realizing what I was doing,
I was just 'letting my mind go'.
I
was not stopping myself from going, now when I 'try' and do it I realize what I
am actually doing and that thought holds me back. Your sub-conscious wants to
naturally leave your body, the only thing that keeps you in your skin is the
grip of your conscious and your concentration. Where ever we are concentrated
and focused towards is where our presence is built up. I was concentrating and
focusing outside of my body, and therefore I took myself away from my body. From
this experience I realized in a sense we are a build up of the direction of our
concentration.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
Yes At the time I was on drugs, but it was not an hallucinogen. Since the
experience I have learned to induce this state deliberately without the
influence of drugs.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I
was subtly alert. I was in control of my actions. I was inducing the experience
without realizing what I was even doing.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Yes.
When I think back on the experience I had the same presence of myself as I would
in a dream.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes I was just in my concentration. I had no thought of what my body was
actually doing. I was just completely engaged in my focus.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Nothing really. Maybe sort of an uncertain freeness.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
No.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No I was just zoomed into what was around
me. I was connected to my own world. To the world that I was creating in a
sense. I realized from this experience that we have a direct connection with our
inner selves, and our inner selves have a direct connection with the immediate
world around us.
Did
you see a light?
Yes It was day time. I saw usual daytime light, maybe subtly fuzzy.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
I
eye witnessed myself being hit by a bike because I was zooming towards a wall
that was beside a road. I tried to prove it to a friend later that day by
putting a book on the ground standing up then going as far back as I could until
I couldn't make out any words. I was attempting to zoom up to the book as I had
just done and read the words. I felt a bit stupid and gave up quickly. It is
possible to project yourself anywhere.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes I had a corked thigh the same side of my body the bike hit me from.
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
All
I really noticed at the time was my vision and the feeling of my inner presence.
As that was all I was concentrating on.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes Space and time did not matter. I could free zoom through space as if it
was not even there.
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes Before my experience I had been doing a lot of real self
exploring. So in a way it was a lead up to the experience. Since the experience
I have realized a higher knowledge and our true potential and it is very
exciting.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No I did not know what would happen if I crossed the boundary. I later
found that I was still connected to the body as I actually felt being hit by the
bike even though I was not there. But the feeling was nowhere near as if I had
been hit in physical form. It was much more subtle.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
No.
It was shock that sent me back. I did not even realize I was leaving my body
until I saw the motor bike hit me. I was just carelessly zooming into my
surroundings without thinking of what it really meant.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain In a sense. Not anything I exactly control. But I am now more
aware of what is possible, so that does open many doors in my mind.
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes Increased belief in our infinite potential.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
I
haven't yet learned to fully apply myself to my life and myself. But the
experience made me realize the totality in which it is possible to be able to
apply yourself. I am still polishing this, and filtering through myself.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes I am more aware of our possibilities.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Disbelief as they were unable to relate to the experience.
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
I
felt nothing but extreme possibility
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The
best part was making trees and buildings float and rotate while I was leaving my
body. It was weird, I was not making them float and rotate, they naturally did
it when I let go. The worse part was that it stopped and I was unable to fully
grasp and attain the totality of the experience and use it in my day to day
life.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Not
for now. I would really like to work with people who study these experiences and
similar things. I feel I have so much knowledge that has not been totally
realized by people yet. I feel I can be a pioneer of our time in so many ways.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes I can induce it myself. I can get to the verge, but I cannot fully let
go because my there is so much holding me back in my day to day self. I can
reach the point of being able to leave my body in under a minute given the right
environment.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes I feel it did in some respect.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
There is more questions you could ask. Your questions seem to be based mainly
around dramatic circumstances, that involve feelings and specific situations.
The state of leaving your body is much more free, and does not have to involve
anything extreme. I will think more about possible questions.