Howell W's Experience
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Experience description:

I have always sought knowledge at a different level than my peers and family, as such I have experimented with many religious/ spiritual exercises. At the age of 14 I began to attempt to induce trance states and Out of Body Experiences. One afternoon while meditating I entered a trance state and experienced the most intense episode of my life. For lack of a better term I watched as a version of myself lived through several experiences of a life that occurred in what appeared to be late in the middle ages in northern Europe. Themes ranged from sexual encounters, to mundane life experiences but culminated around the fact that the person that I was held a blatant hatred for nobility. I viewed several instances of espionage including the theft of official documents and their replacement with fake countermanding papers sealed with a stolen or manufactured signet. At one point I observed this 'me' being caught and taken to what must have been a keep or some form of dungeon.

I remember being adamant in stating "I did not do it!" then immediately thinking "(this time)". Found guilty by my accusers, and rightly so, I was sentenced to death by way of public execution. On the day of the execution I was lead to a platform. While enroute I experienced sweating, gnawing anxiety in my stomach, racing panic, and an ultimate fear. Upon arrival at the platform I was urged to voluntarily place my head upon a stump of wood, as I resisted with denials of my guilt I was assured that the executioner did not care about my plight as his job was my death. After placing my head on the block I was soon decapitated and watched as my eyes tumbled down away from my body. At this time I began to fall. In the first minutes I screamed until I became weary of this action and began to look around. I found myself falling at an unbelievable speed through a dark shaft that appeared to pass many levels of cavern. I believe I could see darting eyes staring into the emptiness as I passed. After falling for an eternity I landed in a very strange place with two directions to choose from. I attempted to go forward but was compelled by an unseen force to go the other way. After turning I found myself inside what I can only describe as a river. (Styx?) I attempted to walk, run, crawl and then swim to no avail all the while feeling as though some thing was chasing me in an effort to do me harm. Finally exhausted mentally I attempted to utilize my will to move with immediate success. As I succeeded in travel I was aware that the thing casually coming for me had now realized that it was time to take a more active approach. The level of fear I felt cannot be described. The running away and pursuit lasted for what seemed a long time. At the end of this experience I found an area where there were small lights, millions of small lights. I picked a point of light that called to me and entered it. I can only guess by how I felt that this was how I chose another incarnation.

I came out of the trance sweating, nervous and out of breath. This experience was so real that I have changed my whole belief system.

 Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     An a-typical experience. I do not feel comfortable speaking with many people as the experience was profound yet hard to convey as normal.

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Throughout. There was no time at which I felt asleep or groggy.

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            Throughout. There was no time at which I felt asleep or groggy.

 Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     It was as if I was in a state of recollecting a past memory only more vividly as though I were actually reliving it.

 Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Fear and anxiety

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     The cakelike tunnel I fell through.

 Did you see a light?           Yes     The pinpoints of light in the darkness that I believe were en utero life awaiting their souls.

 Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I saw red unblinking eyes as I fell.

 Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     Not my current life but what I believe was a past life. I learned a great deal and now live my life as I believe one who acquires karmic debt should in order to limit negative life and post life experience.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain      I observed places, actions and things which should be easy to confirm or deny given access to extensive records.

 Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     Otherwise distinctive, definitely.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     The whole experience.

 Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     The corridor where I landed where I was forced the other way.

 Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Only one other man who was in his forties and I in my twenties. We were skeptical of each other and took the approach of giving small bits of information each in turn. His experiences (2) were in relation to near death due to a motorcycle accident and later cardiac arrest. His experience was merely of the falling through and description of the tunnel with the eyes.

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I had heard of them as anyone else does. I do not believe this to be an NDE as it was trance induced. However I have spoken to one person who had a similar experience as result of NDE. I have tried to find anything with this information in it but nothing ever comes up.

 How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I still feel influenced years later by this experience as it was so real.

 Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I look at the world much differently. I know there is reincarnation and an existence after death.

 Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I am no longer a believer in Christian doctrine as people practice it.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No       I have a heart condition (WPW syndrome) and my heart has stopped twice while in surgery, both times I have come out of the anesthesia to full consciousness as I lay on the table, my mind racing, heart and lungs still. At no time have I ever experienced anything like this.           

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I wish there were information relating to similar cases that I could find.