Hermina A's Experiences
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Experience description:
During one of the many
routine admissions to the hospital I started to have what I had termed "dreams
in their own category". At first I was plagued with hellish nightmares which
made me scared to fall asleep. Every morning after one of these nightmares I
would be extremely happy to have woken up and know that it was day time again.
But as soon as the afternoon and evening approached I dreaded to go to sleep
because I did not want to have these nightmares.
However the final dream
of these "dreams in their own category" was so beautiful and very peaceful that
it was able to cancel out all the distress which was brought into my being by
the previous nightmares.
If a person can have a
choice to choose what to dream every night when you go to sleep, this last
"dream" would be the only "dream" I would choose every night I go to sleep for
the rest of my life. It was such a beautiful dream, and I don't think there are
actually words fit to describe how wonderful this dream was and do it justice.
All these "dreams' happened while I was in hospital in 1998.
The nightmarish dreams
were actually many since they did not happen during one night, but I am going to
share the latest nightmare which was then followed by the most beautiful 'dream'
I ever had. I must also add that this last nightmare was the most terrifying of
all nightmares I had prior to this nightmare, but no matter how its terror was
intense, it was superseded by the joy I experienced in the dream which I just
dreamed right after this nightmare.
However, up to this day
I am not sure what kind of period of time separated these two dreams, the most
terrifying dream and the most pleasant dream. I am not sure if the day or night
separated these two dreams, or I dreamed them in the same night. All I know for
certain they came following one another, first the terrifying dream, then second
the pleasant dream.
I will first present
the terrifying dream and then I will end with the pleasant dream, in the same
order as they came.
The nightmare started
off by me running away from men, but both me and the men who are chasing me were
in the air, although I was using my legs to run in the air. The man were pulling
or riding a cart (like a donkey cart), but I am not exactly sure which animals
were used to pull this chart as I did not see the actual donkeys who are
supposed to pull the chart.
I was running making
a lot of turns inside of a house which is having a setup of a chief's house in
attempt to loose these people who are chasing me but I was not able to loose
them, neither they were able to catch me in the air. I perceived that inside the
cart which was being pulled there was snakes, but I did not see them with my
eyes, I perceived it.
At one point I got too
tired, and upon realizing that no matter how hard I ran, I was not loosing these
men, I made a decision just to surrender and give up my attempts to loose these
people. When I made that decision I let myself to slumber to the ground in a
total hopelessness state with a purpose of waiting for my fate.
When I lend on the
ground I was facing south and I could see the men chasing behind me but still a
few feet away from me and they were still in the air, it was very clear they
were coming for me. Immediately in front perhaps 3 to 4 feet of me there was a
group of women seated on the ground. Should I have been still trying to run when
I lend on the ground I could have ran straight into this group of women seated.
These women were seated
facing north, and it means we were facing one another when I lend facing south.
They were seated on something which gives an impression that they were seated on
the carpet, but they were actually seated on top of semi-dried waste which is
normally comes from the stomachs of slaughtered cattle. Even the smell which was
emanating from where these women were seated was exactly the smell at the
butchery (I am not sure if I am correct if the place where the slaughter is done
is called a butchery), a smell of a mixture of semi-dried blood and stomach
wastes of slaughtered cattle.
These women were all
wearing black (veils on their head and long dresses which completely covered
their legs as they set with their legs folded underneath their dresses. I
perceived that they were there to meet me so I can go with them somewhere, but
it was not clear to me as to where these women were supposed to take me. The
skin of these women was dull but it was clear that they had smeared something
reddish to their skin as well because through the dullness I could see a red
tone like that of blood. The way they had done their headgears on their heads it
was done in the same manner as the Ovaherero culture women in our country do
their headgears, with something resembling the horns. Only the "horns" of the
headgears of the women in this dream were much shorter then that of ovaherero
women. I must add that at this time in 1998 I have never seen Ovaherero women
before in my life despite the fact that we live in the same country. This is
due to the fact at that time I was never travelled far from the nearest town
which is close to our village. And the most ovaherero people are in the urban
areas, and the ones who are still in villages these villages are very far from
where I came from. I only came to meet the ovaherero women and discover their
unique traditional outfits when I travelled to Windhoek, the capital city of our
country in 1999, a year latter after this nightmare. As I stand in front of these
women who are seated in front of me and whom I just perceived they are there to
meet me so that I can go with them somewhere which I did not know exactly where,
I was able to notice live medium size millipedes sticking out from underneath
the dresses of these women. At the same time I was also able to notice the same
size live millipedes sticking out from the headgears of these women at the spot
were the headgear resembles horns, and they were really giving a resemblance of
little horns. The atmosphere amongst these women was similar to the people who
are in mourning.
As I am just standing
there waiting for my fate when the men I was running away from in the air catch
up with me and just looking on these women in front of me, all of the sudden I
saw my aunt emerging from my right hand side and walking between me and the group
of seated women. She was holding an iron stick resembling a hockey stick. As she
was walking between me and the group of these women she was asking the question
in a state of somebody who wants to fight. She said: What is it? What is it? She
was addressing the people who were chasing me in the air because they are still
coming after me at this point although they were still a few meters away.
When my aunt emerged
from my right, at the same time I saw my mother standing on my left hand. Both
my mom and aunt did not say anything to me, but I was relieved because I
perceived both my mom and aunt are there to defend me.
Immediately when the
men who were chasing me saw that I have a defender, my aunt, they turned back
toward the north (remember they were behind me and I was facing south). All of
the sudden the group of the women all also joined the men and left me alone. I
was also able to notice the disappointment on the faces of these women when they
realized they will have to leave without me because I know have a defender. Then
end of this nightmare.
Now I am going to give
account of the most pleasant dream I ever had. As I said before, I know these
two dreams follows one another, but I don't know what
kind of period
separated them. I do not know if I had them in the same night or in separate
two nights. And if it was in the same night I do not know if I awake in between
them either. All I know I had this two dreams following one another, first the
most terrifying one, then followed by the most pleasant "dream" ever.
This dream start off
with me looking after cattle (I am a village girl who used to look after animals,
this alone was not strange to me) with two other people. These two people were
an elderly man and a young boy who appears to be under ten. We were seated
under a shade of a tree forming a triangle. My back was against the west, the
elderly man was seated on my left, with his back against the east, while the
young boy was on my right also with his back against east. It means between the
three of us we were forming a triangle.
The cattle which we
were looking after were behind me, meaning our western side, and they were also
heading to west.
This elderly man and
the boy did not have natural bodies, but their bodies were like the images of a
projection.
As I was with this two
people I was completely at total peace and I can compare the feeling when one is
around you own family, although at this point their exact identity was not known
to me. I was also conversing with them freely, especially the elderly man,
although we did not speaking with outspoken words. It was more kind of reading
each other minds.
At one point the
elderly man send me to go and turn the heads of the cattle towards us, which
means to turns the heads of cattle to the east. I went with a heart with a full
of joy, but all of the sudden above my head appeared a string-like purple silk
cloth hanging from above. It turns out that I will not walk by myself to turn
the heads of cattle, but instead this cloth is the one would take me. I hold
myself to this cloth with my hands and it started to move me to go and turn the
heads of cattle as the elderly man instructed me to do. Immediately when I hung
onto this cloth it started to move as if there is some kind of a machine
controlling it. I was able to look above me and I was able to see how this cloth
was hanging from the clouds, but this clouds were very close to me just like the
ceilings of the house.
As I hung on this cloth
it was the most amazing feeling I ever had when the cloth was taking me to turn
the heads of cattle because I did not feel any weight of my own body as it
should be if one is hanging from something normally. As I turn the heads of the
cattle I perceived that these were our own cattle (me and the elderly man and the
boy). I was able to see that these cattle are into two categories and are equal
in number in both categories although I did not count them. The first category
was the half which is leading the other. This category looks healthy with good
shiny fur, but they are not extremely fat, it is just cattle with healthy shiny
skins. The other group which was following and behind the first category was
looking ill. Their skins are very dull and their fur in "chaos".
When the cloth I was
hanging on took me to turn the heads of these cattle it moved from the southern
side of the cattle, turn their heads to the east away from the west were they
were facing and bring me back to the tree where we were seated with the man and
the boy coming from the northern side. In the process I made a full 180 degrees
from the tree and back to the same tree.
But when I came to the
spot where there was a tree where I was seated before with the man and a boy,
the tree is no longer there and the man and the boy are also not there anymore.
It appears as if the tree had turned into the well where people normally draw
water from in the villages, and the man and the boy are now seated at the bottom
of this well and I must join them there.
The same cloth I had
been hanging on started to lower me down the well in the same manner as it had
taken me to turn the heads of cattle. It was if there was some kind of a machine
above the clouds which known exactly what to do at what time.
As the cloth was
lowering me down the well and while halfway from the opening of the well to the
bottom, I became aware as to what was the identity of this man and the boy. I
notice how the boy has changed into the normal form of body, not like a
projection image anymore like how it was when we were in a tree. However, the
body of the elderly man still stayed in that form of a projection image, but I
was also able to know his identity.
I recognized the boy as
the boy who had passed away in the 1980 from our village. This boy passed away
in a car accident and he was a son of a pastor. When this boy was alive I had no
any kind of association with him because he was much younger than me at the time
of his dearth, and there is no way I could have associated with him, being the
son of the pastor and me being from the nobody's family, but here he was in my
dreams many years later after his dearth. When he died he was of the same age
as he was in this dream, the age of not more than 10years. The body of the
elderly man who was still in the form of a projection image but this time his
identity was known to me as being God.
When I recognized the
boy I started to welcome him by calling out his name like how we normally do in
our culture when one meets with a loved one whom you have not seen in a long
time. The name of the boy was Shipandeni and I started to mention his name in my
welcoming fit. However, although Shipandeni showed signs that he also
recognized me and happy to see me, he did not respond to me as it should be. He
just kept looking at me with approval in his eyes but he did not say any word
back to me.
When I finally arrived
at the bottom of the well, I found God and the boy Shipandeni seated in exactly
the same positions they were seated in when we were in a tree. When I arrived I
also set in the exact same position as I was seated when were in the tree and we
formed a triangle exactly the same as before when we were in the tree.
I learned that the
bottom of the well was not covered by water as it should be and we were seated
on the dry ground. However, there was a little amount of water on a small spot
on the right hand of God, and on my left hand side, a little bit on the sides
but still very close to where we were seated.
When I set in my
position, God spoke to me (kind of mind reading and talking) showing me a certain
place on east side of our position. He said to me: "We were supposed to go to
that place, but now I will just give you this living water and we will go
back (referring on top of the ground where we were before coming to the bottom of
the well).
When I raised my eyes
to see the place God was showing (I did not quite see a hand of God raised to
show some place, but I knew exactly where he meant when God said "we were
supposed to go to that place" and I raised my eyes to see the place where we
were supposed to go.
The scenery I saw very
beautiful and it was if we were on a top of the hill, looking over a valley.
After the valley was a forest and in the middle of this forest there is this
specific spot which is very green and I knew that this specific extra-ordinary
green spot is the place God was referring to when he said that we were supposed to
go there. Although we were at the bottom of the well, from the western side of
the well it is a wall of the well as it should be, but on eastern side of the
well it was if the well has been cut open in half so that one can have a
complete view of everything on the eastern side of the well.
The trees in this
extra-ordinary green spot in the middle of this forest were appearing to be in
perfect rows, like it is some kind of a garden. The trees appears to be shrubs
but I knew this was due to the distance between the well and forest, there was
even a valley in between the well and the forest. But it was such a very
beautiful scenery to look at.
When God said "I will
just give you living water", he scooped water from the small spot of water which
was next to him with a calabash which is usually used to drink water with in our
culture. I do not know where the calabash came from, but in this dream God gave
me water in the calabash and I drank this water.
The taste of these
water was sweetish but not too much sweet. It was just sweet enough to quench
someone's thirst in a very good way. After I finish drinking this living water I
saw myself going up out of the well by the wall on the eastern. This time
however I did not have the silk string like cloth any more, and I am not sure
exactly what mode was used to bring me back at the opening of the well from its
bottom.
I must add that at the
time of this "dream" I was not familiar with the term "living water" which is
found in the bible.
End of this most
beautiful dream I ever had. This became the last of this kind of dreams until
2007 when other supernatural incidents happened. After this dream I also got
better, and when I got released from the hospital the next time around, I never
go back to the hospital again as it was happening before. I got completely well
as far as the illness of 1998 is concerned.
Later on when I got
discharged from the hospital I used to make my living water because I used to
miss it too much. I used to take a small amount of a sprite cool drink, then
add a lot of water until all the traces of gas is out, it used to taste exactly
how it tasted in the dream. I also made sure that when I made my water of life,
I would drink it from the calabash, just like in the dream. Otherwise it will
not taste perfect for me.
At the time of your
experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
Yes I had been in and out of hospital for the last half of the 1998. The
routine was that I would be discharged from the hospital to go home, only to
return after a day or two and stay another month or two in hospital. At first
it was frustrating because the doctors kept telling me they can not tell what
illness I was suffering, finally I was diagnosed with the TB of the blood. The
following year in 1999 I was diagnosed with end-stage renal failure.
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?....Yes....The
words in my vocabulary are very inadequate to express the feelings of these
dreams, whether the pleasant feelings or feelings of terror.
At what time during
the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and
alertness?....More
consciousness and alertness than normal Since I had been calling my
experiences "dreams", thought both of the dreams I shared I had perceived to be
sleeping, but had I really been asleep?....The images of these dreams are super
vivid, that is why I can remember every detail of each dream after so many
years. I am sure after these dreams I continued to dream just like any other
person but I can not even recall some of the dreams that I just had about three
years ago with specific detail like how I was able to account the dreams of
1998.
Please compare your
vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately
prior to the time of the experience.
Everything in my
dreams is specific with details. I took notice of things I would not bother to
think about normally if I happen to encounter a similar setup in the natural
world.
Please compare your
hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately
prior to the time of the experience.
In the most
beautiful dream I was able to read the mind of those I was with in the dream, God
to be specific.
Did you see or hear
any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness /
awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
Yes During the
nightmares I could experience something like of having two separate minds. I
could see what was going on or see someone who just walked in the room. I would
trying or attempting to tell this person to wake me up or trying to wake myself
up as there are times I was well aware that I am asleep dreaming during these
nightmares.
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?....With
nightmares, extreme terror. With that one pleasant dream, it was a such joy. It
was if I never experience pain ever in my life, be emotional or physical.
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?....No....
Did you see an
unearthly light?....No....
Did you seem to
encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?....I
encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I encountered a
beings with body forms of projections images. One being later was transformed
into the normal body, but the other being stayed in the form of a projection
image thought the dream. This is the being I was able to recognize latter in
the dream as God.
Did you encounter or
become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?....Yes
The boy I mentioned in my most beautiful dream has died many years earlier. I was
not related to this boy at all, neither he was an acquaintance of mine
whatsoever. Yes during my encounter with this boy it was if just someone I had
not seen in a long time, but I did not remembered that this boy was dead at all.
Did you become aware
of past events in your life during your experience?....No....
Did you seem to enter
some other, unearthly world?....Some
unfamiliar and strange place....The
time I was at the bottom of the well with God and the boy, but when I raised my
eyes to the eastern side of the well it was an open scenery whereby I can see
the valley and the forest behind the valley with a kind of the garden in the
middle of this forest.
Did time seem to speed
up or slow down?....No....
Did you suddenly seem
to understand everything?....No....
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?....Uncertain....I
am not sure if the wall of the well counts as the boundary.
Did you come to a
border or point of no return?....I
came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against
my will....
Did scenes from the
future come to you?....No....
Did you have a sense
of knowing special knowledge or purpose?....Yes....I
was able to know which spot God was referring to when he said to me: " we were
supposed to go that place".
Discuss any changes
that might have occurred in your life after your experience:....Moderate
changes in my life....I developed a thirst for the things of God.....
Did you have any
changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result
of the experience?
Yes I became aware
of the need for every human being to live a holy life here on earth.
Do you have any
psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did
not have before the experience?....Uncertain
There are people who believe I am gifted in the prophetic ministry, personally I
am still looking for confirmation of that fact.
Have you ever shared
this experience with others?
Yes I shared
immediately with my mom after my discharge from hospital 1998 and everything
seemed to be out of my memory until it all came flashing back in 2007 and I was
able to share with a group of people who were members of a prayer group which I
joined in 2007 as well, 8 years later. The reaction of my mother was natural,
she could not understand much of my dreams either. but when I shared these
dreams with the prayer group they were convinced these dreams were specifically
meant for them. they were inspired.
Did you have any
knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?....No
What did you believe
about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:....Experience
was definitely real It is difficult for me because immediately I termed these
dreams "dreams in the category of their own. I was definitely certain these
dreams took place.
What do you believe
about the reality of your experience at the current time:....Experience
was definitely real....At the time I did not know any other person who had a
story like mine. Only recently when I started to read about the near dearth
experiences I came across about similar incidents happening to other people as
well. Since for the past many years I had no idea others are having similar
experiences and to know that I am not the only one who goes went through
something like this makes it real.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes....I
look at people of who they are, from within. The outward appearances of people
does not affect me. I am always trying to locate the real person, his/her
character.
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes
Up
this point I was put off from the religious practices and I was comfortable with
that state. However after my experience I developed a hunger for the things of
God. I tried or pretended to suppress it at some points, but deep down I always
knew I want something more our of this life, and that was God. I missed God in
my life.
At any time in your
life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?....Yes
The supernatural experiences I came to experience in the year 2007 came very
close to what these dreams stood for. It is not a wonder that the experience of
2007 helped to bring back the memories of 1998 vividly.
Did the questions
asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe
your experience?
Yes Every area is
adequately covered.
Are there one or
several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant
to you? Yes,
when God gave me to drink the living water in the dream I have come to learn
that the living water speaks of the Holy Spirit. I found a lot of significant
that I had been given living water by God.