I am a little girl (not myself) I am someone else. I am riding down a road on a sort of wagon. It was early 50s I would say. I am wearing a dirty white dress and no shoes. I must have been 7 or 8. I had blonde hair and a fair complexion. We turn right onto a long dirt road. I can see the wooden sign but I cant read it. We turn into my drive way. There is my house sitting on a hill slanted up from the road - a large 2 story white farm house   - i can still smell the fresh paint and feel the grass in between my toes as i run across the large hill in my front yard. We sold produce. I laid the apples in the box on the front yard the i carried a bail of hay to the stand and my brothers and sisters carries one to. There were to many siblings to count.

The colors stand out so much like watching an home video. My parents told me to go to the hay barn and see how much hay was left. I ran in front of my house from left to right. Then across the driveway that ran beside the right side of the house. To a small barn. It had no door and it was dark grey with molded water stains and the smell lingered. I stopped and took a deep breath before i walked in.

I looked around slowly and began to count when I could see a light out of the corner of my eye. It was a beautiful beam of sun light shining down through a pin hole in the roof. I felt the wood planks beneath my feet creak as I looked down the boards gave way and i fell. I could feel the dampness around me and the feel of damp dirt against my skin it was so cold. I stopped. I started digging at the ground around me. I can still feel the cold damp dirt underneath my fingernails and i was crying and praying and digging that somebody would please help me as long as i could see that small beam of light i knew i would be ok. then all of a sudden it was gone and the cold surrounded me and began to suffocate me i banged on the walls and screamed but no one heard me i could feel the damp air filling my lungs and i began to cry and shake me head violently back and forth saying NO NO NO NO NO NO NONONONONONONONONONONo!!!!!

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I was asleep but i knew it wasnt me.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   only that i was sort of sleeping

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            its really hard to explain

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No

Did you see a light?           Uncertain, I saw a light but not like a bright light

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes, only my family (well her family)

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes

My ex-boyfriends grandmother once was driving through mass. when she was a teenager and saw a house just like the one i described. she told her friends to stop. she got out looked at the house and told them she died in the house. She had never been there before in this life. She described the whole lay out of the house and asked the people if they could come in and she was right

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes, Colors were clearer.  Things smelled more distinct the sense of feel rushed through my body

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Yes

no, i don't know i don't want to know - just think that something really bad happened to me (her) next

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes, I have all kinds of experiences that i would rather not discuss

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I don't know what to believe in and i don't hold my faith in anything

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

They were a little scared and a little worried about me

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I woke up violently shaking my head back and forth and screaming no in a cold sweat most times my mother wakes me (well tries to wake me and i just stop) and feel like i cant breath and that the whole world is crashing down on me.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best i think that this person was me in a past life and it is enlightening

worse- i wonder what happened to me

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        if this at all sounds like something that anyone has heard old stories about or they know of an event or place like this that sounds familiar please contact me by email.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes