Hannah L's Experience
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Experience description:
in
1990-1992 I was unhappily married to an overbearing man. One night I was lying
in bed asleep. The next thing I knew I felt awake but heard a loud buzz in my
ears, I couldn't move and I had pins and needles in my hands. I felt I was being
dragged from my bed by my left hand, but couldn't see anyone in the room. I was
extremely frightened. I then found myself in front of my wardrobes full length
mirror. I was naked (always sleep in nightwear) and the whites of my eyes were
black. I looked like I had no eyes. The pulling continued and seemed to drag me
up the wall of my bedroom, I remember thinking the word 'no' over and over
again. I had a feeling that I would be pulled out of the house and I was so
scared. I felt whoever was pulling me wasn't 'good'. I awoke with a start back
in bed. I could still feel the pins and needles in my hands and arms. In 1997 I
was in a different relationship but it wasn't going too well. Once night I felt
the pins and needles and heard the buzzing in my ears, then felt my right ankle
being pulled from the bed. I knew what was happening and seemed to shout 'no' at
which point the pulling stopped. In 2002 my
mother suddenly passed away and the buzzing in my ears and hands began on
several occasions but I was able to control it and stop it. The beginnings on
these experiences have happened to me on average about once a year, with the
three mentioned above being the most pertinent. Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience? No Did you
have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes, the feelings I had
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
had been asleep in bed but was
extremely aware that I was awake. The pins and needles and the buzzing in my
ears woke me up.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
no, it was very real and very
frightening. Hence I have learned to control it/stop it from happening.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
My vision/perspective was
different. During my first experience, I was aware my 'body' was still in the
bed but saw my other body in a mirror. My body seemed dense and normal the only
differences being my eyes seemed black and I was naked. I had not got undressed
and when I woke I was still wearing nightwear.
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
fear, surprise.
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
buzzing in my ears, which seemed
to render me incapable of movement.
Did you notice how your 5
senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes, i felt very light
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes, But cannot remember. I felt I
was chosen for something and I was being shown something but felt too scared to
venture further.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
Yes
The night before my mother
passed away I felt a great need to call her, but it was late at night and I
thought it would wait until the next day. The urge was so strong to tell her I
loved her that I began to cry.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
it hasn't
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
they
listened politely and seemed interested, however, to my own ears it sounded
ridiculous and I didn't go on about it.
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
disbelief
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
the worse part
was the fear, but having reflected on the experiences I feel that if it happens
again I will understand and feel more ready to go with the experience instead of
fighting it.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I'm
wondering why it happens to often to me, it isn't something I have striven to do
but recently, especially since my mother passed away I almost feel as though I
could see her again if I have this experience and 'go with it'
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes,
The
questionnaire covered everything apart from number of times it has happened.