Hallie L Experience
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Experience description:
I did
not regularly meditate. On this occasion, I was feeling stressed and
grieved that my marriage had ended. I decided it might be a good idea to do so
to help me feel calm enough to fall asleep. I remember that it was a little
after 12am (midnight) when I went to bed. I lay there doing deep breathing and
bringing my attention to 2 single words that I repeated in my mind slowly and
deliberately. The 2 words being PEACE and
LOVE. I concentrated fully on the meaning
of each word with each slow repetition, eventually imagining and considering the
meaning as if it were embodied or experienced as a felt emotion.
Before
long, I perceived the room around me from an angle above my bed - ceiling
height, gradually seeing the view of my rooftop. Then I was viewing my
property from above far enough to see the suburb and further still the city
lights from an aerial perspective. I noticed I was in orbit and feeling
totally enthralled and curious by what I was witnessing.
Viewing the earth illuminated by the sun's reflection, just astonishing,
its a joyous experience remembering this as I write now after some 29 years
later. It was absolutely peaceful, felt
connected to all and everything.....I felt completely safe, awed and humbled by
what I was witnessing. Until I looked
down at myself and not seeing 'me' (my body/self) I experienced a slight panic,
then felt myself back in bed falling with a rocking thud.
I sat up in bed immediately feeling alert and elated with joy (but
startled by what I had just experienced).
I checked the clock and it was well after 3am by then, although it felt that
only minutes had passed since going to bed.
I immediately got up because I felt intense electricity in my hands, arms
and throughout my body. The uneasiness I
was feeling before going to bed was replaced by what I can only describe as
enormous, confidence, and sense of courage and peace.
The only thing I could do to dissipate the electricity felt in my body
was vigorous callisthenic exercises (to the music of MTV at the time).
To this day the memory remains as vivid as any conscious life experience
(perhaps more vivid). And to date I have not been able to repeat this experience
again.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes The serenity, depth of love and awe
experienced. The after effects can only
be described as transformational, enough so that I no longer experience feeling
unsafe when being on my own (since).
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I felt completely conscious and aware of
more..
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
Yes I had no form at all, just
conscious awareness.
What emotions did you feel during
the experience?
love,
connection to everything, calm, serenity, belonging.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
noises?
Not that I
would call a noise, but probably best described as a diffuse hum, but mostly
silence, and stillness.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
Yes
the illuminated planet earth, reflecting
over our oceans....with a bluish hue / line around the sphere that is our globe.
Did you meet or see any other
beings?
No
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes
sharper senses; especially visually and
kinesthetically
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Yes complete altered perception of
time. Over 3 hours felt like minutes.
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
a heightened sense that I was completely
safe and connected to all in the universe
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Uncertain Not sure the question makes sense
in light of my experience, but the only boundary was when I became aware that I
could not see myself/my body, and the next thing I felt like I fell with a thud
in my body, which was itself constricting/limiting.
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes That I was safe, whole, nothing to
fear in life.
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes Greater confidence, less
self-conscious. A sense that there is
more to just our physical form/life.
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
I have become more trusting of my
intuitions, more respectful of anyone else, no matter who they are what they
look like, where they come from. In terms of relationships, less likely to judge
or criticize.
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
No Response
Have you shared this experience
with others?
Yes They listened, but no idea if they
were influenced or not.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
After the
initial surprise, and startle of the falling sensation into my body, I
experienced feelings of joy, confidence, elation.
What was the best and worst part of
your experience?
the best -
seeing the earth from space and the elation afterwards.
The worst, the tingling electricity / vibration throughout my body, that
felt like I could not contain in the body and needed to 'use up' to shake
off....but even then I would not describe this as a 'worst feeling' but rather
it was evidence to me that this was no ordinary experience.
Is there anything else you would
like to add concerning the experience?
I have so
longed to re-experience this state again, but have not been successful in
repeating - so far....
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
No
Please offer any suggestions you
may have to improve this questionnaire.
Good question!
Words simply limit the full expression of this experience...all I can say is
that it was completely sensory and heightened in consciousness