Experience description:

I must say that I have thought about it enough to publish what I am going to relate, either out of shame and stigmatization due to the environment or circumstances which caused the experience to occur, or because of the fear of being singled out. First I must tell everything to put it in context for the people who will be reading my experience.

All my life I suffered from depression. I tried to commit suicide when I was 14 years old. Throughout my life, I suffered psychological abuse from my older sister, and although I do not judge her or hold a grudge against her, I must say that this situation affected me in a significant negative way. My sister always used words to attack me, every time she could, she would tell me I was a useless, worthless, a kept girl, that I would be useless in life. This happened repeatedly from the age of 11 to about the age of 18.  

In addition to this, during my childhood I suffered sexual abuse, which although it did not reach penetration by the perpetrators, included touching and use of fingers by my uncle, an acquaintance of my mother and a stranger in a bus.

I grew up in a nun's boarding school from the age of 7 to 11, and although raised in a Catholic way I was never a practitioner, I became very estranged from God due to an event that happened with a priest, I even came to believe that I was an atheist. From the age of 11 to 18, I had to work cleaning different houses of rich people, enduring humiliation, mistreatment and contempt, all this in exchange for food and to be allowed to study.

For these reasons my self-esteem was abysmal. All my life I felt like I didn't fit in, that nothing made sense, that I was disgusting. Always with recurring thoughts of wanting to leave this world, of wanting to commit suicide.

Life changed me when I was 19, I had studied. I managed to get a stable job in a multinational company, sometimes I traveled, bought what I wanted, had a partner. But all this did not fulfill me at all. On the contrary, upon reaching 30 years of age, my depression intensified, I thought even more about death and the various ways of leaving this earthly world.  

Every day I asked God to fill me, to make me know Him, to make me get closer to Him, so as to change these thoughts that flooded me with sadness, desolation, loneliness, bitterness. The crying was really heartbreaking when I had these episodes, it made me totally sick, I even vomited from crying so much. I would lock myself in my room wanting to be completely alone, isolated, so that no one would speak to me. And praying not to try to kill myself again or praying that some terminal illness would simply extract me out of this world.

One time I went to visit a close friend who, seeing me in such depression and pain, served me a cannabis tea that, according to her, would help me relax. I must say that I had only once had marijuana tea at the age of 16 and that I did not have the reaction that happened to me next, while I was with my friend. I was never a fan of drugs, I never tried any other substance, I was one of the people who always demonized those who used them. I called them drug addicts and looked at them with a certain recrimination. But this time I needed something to make me feel a little bit calm and I agreed to have the tea she had made for me.

What I felt next were the same characteristics as those described within a near death experience. What some of these people observe or live through was similar to what I perceived within my experience, and that is why I decided to share what happened to me. Although I am still ashamed to be judged.

I believe I had a circumstantial NDE.

I drank the tea and immediately began to experience euphoria, laughter, joy. Fifteen minutes passed, and this euphoria began to morph into a pain in my chest, I felt that my breathing became heavy and that I was short of air, my mind warned me that I was forgetting to breathe. My friend became very scared when I described what I was feeling, however she remained calm. She took me for a walk around the neighborhood so that I could breathe fresh air and as we walked she was showing me how to breathe, repeating to me: inhale and exhale. I don't know how far we walked. I indicated that I felt that I was going to pass out, I could no longer stand, we entered her house, I layed down on a bed and closed my eyes, while my friend continued to show me how to do the breathing exercises. I told my friend: I feel like I'm going to die, I don't know how to keep breathing, I am forgetting it. My friend continued with a guided conversation giving directions and calming me down. At one point I said: “God help me !”, and my friend told me to focus on that thought, to focus on God. An immense love, a fullness, a completeness, a harmony, a feeling that everything was fine emitted from this light, I felt that I was in the arms of love itself and that nothing bad would happen to me, over there everything was warm, safe, calm , beautiful. I saw myself as a form of light, I was some kind of silhouette and made up of the same light from the space in which I was in.  

I looked around me with eyes that I will call mental eyes, because there, the senses are not made up of organs. I could see how a silhouette made of the same light from the space I was in, and from the same light that I was made of, was highlighted, in my opinion that silhouette was much taller than me. It was right in front of me. I knew that he was a being superior to me, I don't know whether to say now that he was God, Jesus, what I do know was that he came from the very Source of love. I knew it and got down on my knees. But it was not like when one kneels in church, which one does in a mechanical way. I really felt so much love, so much compassion, so much kindness on HIS part that I even felt that kneeling did not show enough respect and love that He deserved. I was so shocked by the quantity of love that I was feeling, they were such pleasant emotions, and full of an out-of-this-world feeling, it was like feeling that everything was perfect, that everything fit, that everything made sense, that I was totally protected and loved.

When I knelt in that place of light, I began to cry, the tears were pouring down on me even with my eyes closed. I said: sorry, and I kept repeating it and repeating it: sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry. Although I did not have a physical body, I felt that he was watching me, with love, compassion and tenderness. All this he transmitted to me. He asked me: why should I forgive you? And I responded with tears and a great feeling of sadness, pain and shame: For having tried to take my life when I was 14 years old! When I told him this, He made me feel that life was a great gift, and that it was the equivalent of a father doing everything to give his son a gift, with which the father would believe that his son would be amazed and would have to enjoy it immensely, but that the son simply rejected the gift with contempt and indifference. And even though I didn't regularly think about that suicide attempt that I had made so many years ago, I felt ashamed, ashamed, that I had tried to take my life.  

I felt that the situation was happening simultaneously. That is to say, I listened to my friend as she carried on the conversation and at the same time felt how the situation was happening in the place made of LIGHT.

I was shown various images at the same time of the past, the present and the future. Which unfortunately I do not remember. I was shown that I had to lose my partner at that time and this caused me great pain, because I felt that I was not able to live without that person. I told the BEING of LIGHT that I was afraid of living and that I felt very lonely, I was shown that I was never alone and that I will never be, and I immediately remembered the following parable, which goes like this:

“One night I dreamed that I was walking on the beach with God. During the walk, many scenes from my life were being projected on the screen that was the sky,

“With each passing scene I noticed that some footprints had formed in the sand : some were mine and the others were God's.  

“Sometimes two pairs of footprints appeared and sometimes only one pair. This worried me a lot because I noticed that, during the scenes that reflected the saddest stages of my life, when I felt sorry, anguished and defeated, there was only one set of footprints in the sand. So, I said to God:

“Lord, You promised me that if I followed You, you would always walk by my side. However, I have noticed that in the most difficult moments of my life, there was only one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, did you not walk by my side?

“Then He answered me:

“Dear child. I love you infinitely and I would never abandon you in difficult moments. When you saw only a couple of footsteps in the sand, it's because I was carrying you in my arms… ”

I told the BEING of LIGHT that no, I didn't see meaning in life and I wanted to know my purpose. I asked him what the purpose of everything was. The BEING of LIGHT answered me that everything would make sense later and that I would discover my purpose and my mission along the way. That He had always accompanied me and that He always would. 

At that point I felt like I was coming back to reality. I was no longer in that place of LIGHT. I told my friend: “I have spoken with God.” Obviously, I think she didn't believe me and she blamed it on the tea. I still wasn't feeling well. I stayed in bed, where everything was spinning, I was dizzy. But I could already breathe without prompts. Afterwards, I slept.

These feelings and sensations that I felt there were never forgotten. I clearly remember the love that was revealed to me. I go back and live it in my mind. After this event, I must say that I recovered from my depression, the thoughts and feelings of suicide disappeared. Right now, I study Christian metaphysics and I read a lot about God, I am open to reading Buddhist, Jewish, Hindu writings. I read a lot about the spiritual domain and various topics of the soul.

When I go through difficult times in my life, I simply remember the love that I felt there. I close my eyes and I remember, and I immerse myself in that LIGHT and that love. And I feel that nothing is so difficult because that love sustains me. I firmly believe that everything created comes from the SOURCE that is God Himself, and that this SOURCE is made of the purest and truest love.

It should be noted that I no longer demonize the use of natural psychoactive substances that contain dimethyltryptamine (DMT) in the treatment of depression, if it is for therapeutic use and supervised by a specialist. I believe that the tea I ingested activated my pineal gland and the so-called “molecule of God” enabled me to cure myself of depression.

Please don't let my story lead anyone to ingest anything. Investigate first.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain. It is uncertain to feel that my life was threatened, because I felt that my life was compromised, since I felt that I could not breathe, but I did not lose consciousness, nor did I die.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes. There were sensations that are not easy to explain using words. Like the transmission of thoughts and ideas telepathically. The feelings of love I felt, the place of LIGHT, the synchronicity that gave the feeling that everything was happening at the same time.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was conscious and alert at all times. I did NOT lose consciousness at any time.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?  More consciousness and alertness than normal. I felt like I was totally alert. Concentrating on my lungs, on being able to breathe. Alert as to what was happening outside with my friend, and what was happening in the place made of LIGHT.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   The vision was global. I felt that I could observe without eyes, with "mental" eyes. There were no senses there, but everything felt as if there were senses.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During the experience, it was as if you could simultaneously listen to several scenes at the same time. I was listening to what was happening in the Place of LIGHT and what was happening in reality.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Uncertain. The earthly event was happening at the same time as the spiritual event. In other words, I was aware of the two events at the same time.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   The emotions within the LIGHT were of love, compassion, wholeness, completeness, light, welcome, goodness, joy, absence of emotional pain.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes. The LIGHT seemed to be a kind of SOURCE that gave the feeling of welcoming and at the same time of infinity, that place was made of LIGHT and love. I was made of LIGHT and the BEING was made of LIGHT.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. The being was made of love and LIGHT, its voice was identifiable, but telepathically. Soft and at the same time authoritative.
 
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Uncertain. At first I thought it was Jesus, although it is uncertain, because I also thought it was God. Or it could be that I was inside God talking to Jesus, I'm not sure.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Yes. I was shown events from my past, my present and my future at the same time, but I don't remember them.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. The place was away from this dimension on another non-tangible plane.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual. Time there was slow but at the same time fast.
 
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe. I felt that everything made sense, that everything fit together perfectly, that I was at home, that I was made of the same substance of love.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  Scenes from my personal future. I saw scenes from my future, but I don’t remember them.  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes. There is a Source to which we belong and where we come from. This SOURCE is made of LIGHT and love. We have no corporeal form, we are just a kind of conscious substance.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes. God exists and is only love, forgiveness, kindness. God is what everything is made of. We are the ones who mostly judge ourselves individually. 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   The SOURCE (God) is connected with everything and we are made of what the SOURCE (God) is made of, that is, of LIGHT and love.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes. The purpose of coming is to represent on earth the love we are made of on a spiritual level, and I do not know the reason why we forget it. The spirit of humans is made of LIGHT and love similar to that of which God is made of. That is why it says in the Bible that we are his children.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes. It was revealed to me that we are never alone, God is always with us. That we return to Him. To the LIGHT we always return, there we live again in eternal peace, lasting happiness and attainable contentment.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes. Love is everything, and everything is made of LOVE.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Yes. We must believe that we are always accompanied, that we are never alone. Living with the feeling that there is a love that is not known here on earth; not even when we love someone is it comparable to this kind of love.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Uncertain. I was told that I would find out that purpose along the way.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I was raised Catholic. But I declared myself an atheist from age 10 to 28 or so. I started a search but not religious, rather spiritual. I did not understand when in the spiritual books they described God as love and Light. I did not understand when they said in church that God is love. Only when I lived through the experience could I understand many things.
 
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. This memory is vivid. And whenever I remember it, I relive it and I feel it.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: After the experience, my gifts of dreams, my intuition and my “sixth sense” were strengthened. Before, I used to have dreams, but I didn't pay much attention to them, now I interpret them, even predicting the death of people close to me. When I slept, my unfoldments were strengthened, I stopped suffering from sleep paralysis during which I was attacked by entities that I call “The dark ones.” I dream of events that later occur. I have had dreams where I have been shown that the suffering that you as a human being causes in others, whether in words, gestures, or omission, you will pay for it by feeling the pain of others as your own. I have been shown in dreams that hell is the existence of your consciousness in complete darkness, there you only exist and must remember how much damage you did, torturing yourself in how you could do things when you were on earth, living your life over and over again in memories and suffering for not having enjoyed material existence. That is hell.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes. I am now a very spiritual person, not specifically religious. I think damage boomerangs.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?  I made a suicide attempt at 14 but at that time I did not go through nor feel anything. I also did not lose consciousness during that episode.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   No 

Did you have any knowledge of near-death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real. The experience was real and changed the way I looked at reality. I no longer suffer from depression.   

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real. It was real and I stick to it to continue my earthly existence.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?  I pray more often, not in churches but anywhere. Even on the bus. I constantly give thanks for what I have. I am much more grateful. No

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?  When I feel down, I try to recall this experience to gain strength and that way I feel much more relieved.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   Yes

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Everything was and is real. Experiment with DMT for curing depression.

DESCRIPCIÓN DE LA EXPERIENCIA: 

Debo de decir que lo he pensado bastante para realizar la publicación de lo que voy a relatar, ya sea por vergüenza y la estigmatización por el medio o circunstancias por las cuales sucedió la experiencia,  o por  el temor a ser señalada. Primero debo de contar todo para poner en contexto a las personas que estarán leyendo mi experiencia.

Toda mi vida sufrí de depresión. Tuve un intento de suicidio a los 14 años. Durante mi vida sufrí maltrato psicológico por parte de mi hermana mayor, y aunque no la juzgo ni le tengo rencor, debo de decir que  tal situación me marcó de manera significativa en forma negativa. Mi hermana siempre usó las palabras para atacarme, cada vez que podía me decía inútil, inservible, mantenida, que no serviría para nada en la vida.  Esto sucedió repetitivamente desde los 11 años hasta más o menos los 18 años.

Además de esto, durante mi infancia  sufrí abuso sexual, que si bien no llegó a la penetración por parte de los perpetradores, tales sucesos sí sucedieron con tocamientos y uso de los dedos por parte de mi  tío, un conocido de mi madre y  un desconocido en un bus.   

Crecí en un internado de monjas desde los 7 años hasta los 11 años, y aunque criada de forma católica nunca fui practicante, me alejé mucho de Dios por un suceso que sucedió con un sacerdote, incluso llegué a creer que era atea. De los 11  años hasta los 18 años tuve que trabajar haciendo el aseo en diferentes casas de gente rica, aguantando humillaciones, mal tratos y desprecios, todo esto  a cambio de comida y que me dejaran estudiar.

Por tales motivos mi autoestima estaba por los suelos. Toda mi vida sentí que no encajaba, que nada tenía sentido, que yo era un asco. Siempre con reiterados pensamientos de querer dejar este mundo, de querer suicidarme.

La vida a los 19 años me cambió, había estudiado. Logré conseguir un empleo estable en una multinacional, a veces  viajaba, compraba lo que me apetecía, tenía pareja. Pero todo esto no lograba llenarme en lo absoluto. Al contrario, llegando a mis 30 años se intensificó mi depresión, pensaba aún más en la muerte y las variadas formas de dejar este mundo terrenal.

Todos los días le pedía a Dios que me llenara, que me hiciera conocerlo, que algo me hiciera acercarme a Él, para cambiar estos pensamientos que me inundaban en tristeza, desolación, soledad, amargura. El llanto era realmente desgarrador cuando tenía estos episodios, me descomponía totalmente, vomitaba incluso de tanto llorar. Me encerraba en mi habitación queriendo estar completamente sola, aislada, que nadie me hablara. Y orando para no intentar matarme de nuevo u orando  para que alguna enfermedad terminal simplemente me arrancara de este mundo.

Cierta vez fuí a visitar a una amiga cercana que viéndome en tanta depresión, y dolor  me sirvió un té de cannabis que, según ella, me ayudaría a relajarme. Debo de decir, que sólo una vez había tomado té de marihuana a los 16 años y que no sentí lo que a continuación, estando con mi amiga me sucedió. Nunca fui partidaria de las drogas, nunca probé ninguna otra sustancia, era de las personas que siempre satanizaba a los que las  usaban. Los tachaba de drogadictos y los observaba con cierta recriminación. Pero esta vez necesitaba algo que me hiciera sentir medianamente tranquila y  acepté tomarme el té que me había preparado.

Lo que sentí a continuación fueron las mismas características que  se describen dentro de una experiencia cerca de la muerte. La similitud de lo que algunas de estas personas observan o viven  es igual a lo que yo percibí  con mi experiencia, y por eso decidí compartir lo que me sucedió. Aún con vergüenza a ser juzgada.

Considero que tuve una ECM circunstancial.

Me tomé el té e inmediatamente empecé a experimentar euforia, risas, alegría. Pasaron 15 minutos, y ésta euforia se  empezó a  convertir en un dolor en el pecho, sentía que mi respiración se tornaba pesada y que me faltaba el aire, mi mente me advertía que se me estaba olvidando respirar. Mi amiga se empezó a asustar muchísimo cuando le describí lo que sentía, sin embargo conservó la calma. Me sacó a caminar por la zona para que respirara aire puro y mientras caminábamos me iba indicando cómo respirar, me repetía: inhala y exhala. No sé cuánto caminamos. Le indiqué que sentía que iba a desmayarme, ya no podía sostenerme, entramos a su casa, me recostó en una cama y cerré los ojos, mientras mi amiga seguía indicándome cómo hacer los ejercicios de respiración. Le dije a mi amiga: siento que voy a morirme no sé cómo seguir respirando, se me está olvidando. Mi amiga seguía con una conversación guiada dando indicaciones y calmándome. En un momento dije: ¡Dios ayúdame!, y mi amiga me indicó que me concentrara en ese pensamiento, que me concentrara en Dios.

Cuando realicé esto, cuando pensé en Dios, inmediatamente me encontré en un lugar rodeado de luz, era como una especie de huevo que me daba la sensación de sentirme acogida pero al mismo tiempo sentir la infinitud. Yo estaba hecha de luz y el lugar era luz, era una luz hermosa, brillante, como si miraras  la luz de la luna llena y a la luz del sol al mismo tiempo. De esta luz se desprendía un inmenso amor, una plenitud, una complitud, una armonía, una sensación de que todo estaba bien, sentía que  estaba en los brazos del mismo amor  y que nada malo me sucedería, allí todo era cálido, seguro, tranquilo, hermoso. Me ví en un cuerpo de luz, yo estaba formada por una especie de silueta y me componía de la misma luz del espacio en el que me encontraba. Observé a mi alrededor con unos ojos que yo llamaré,  ojos mentales, pues allí los sentidos no se componen de órganos. Pude ver como se resaltada una silueta echa de la misma luz del espacio en el que me encontraba y de la misma luz de la que yo estaba hecha, a mi parecer esa silueta era mucho más alta que yo. Estaba justo al frente mío. Supe que era un ser superior a mí, no sé si decir ahora que era Dios, Jesús, lo que sí sé era que venía de la Fuente misma del amor. Yo lo supe y me arrodillé. Pero no era como cuando uno se arrodilla en la iglesia, el cual uno  hace de una manera mecánica. Yo realmente sentí tanto amor, tanta compasión, tanta bondad por parte de Él que sentí incluso que arrodillándome no demostraba el suficiente respeto y el amor que él se merecía. Estaba tan impactada con tanto amor que estaba sintiendo, eran emociones tan placenteras, y llenas de un sentimiento fuera de este mundo, era como sentir que todo estaba perfecto, que todo encajaba, que todo tenía sentido, que estaba totalmente protegida y amada.

Cuando me arrodillé en aquel lugar de luz, empecé a llorar, las lágrimas me caían  a borbotones incluso teniendo los ojos cerrados. Le dije: perdón, y lo repetía y lo seguía repitiendo: perdón, perdón, perdón, perdón.  Aunque no tenía un cuerpo físico, yo sentía que me observaba, con amor, compasión y ternura. Todo esto me lo trasmitía. Me preguntó: ¿por qué debo perdonarte? Y yo le respondí con lágrimas y un gran sentimiento de tristeza, dolor y vergüenza: ¡por haber tratado de quitarme la vida a los 14 años! Cuando le dije esto Él me hizo sentir que la vida era un gran regalo, y que era el equivalente a que un padre hiciera de todo para darle un regalo a su hijo, con el cual el padre creería que su hijo se sentiría maravillado y habría de disfrutarlo enormemente, pero que el hijo simplemente le rechazara el regalo con desprecio e indiferencia. Y aunque no pensaba regularmente en ese intento de suicidio que había tenido hacia tantos años, me sentí avergonzada, apenada, de haber intentado quitarme la vida.

Yo sentía que la situación estaba sucediendo simultáneamente. Es decir, escuchaba a mi amiga  como dirigía la conversación  y al mismo tiempo sentía como sucedía la situación en el lugar hecho de LUZ.

Se me mostró varias imágenes al mismo tiempo del pasado, del presente y del futuro. Que lamentablemente no recuerdo. Se me mostró que tenía que perder a mi pareja de ese entonces y esto me causó un gran dolor, pues sentía que no era capaz de vivir sin esa persona.  Le dije al SER de LUZ que sentía miedo de vivir y que me sentía muy sola, se me mostró que nunca estuve y que nunca estaré sola, y recordé inmediatamente la siguiente parábola, que dice así:

'Una noche soñé que caminaba por la playa con Dios. Durante la caminata, muchas escenas de mi vida se iban proyectando en la pantalla del cielo.

Con cada escena que pasaba notaba que unas huellas de pies se formaban en la arena: unas eran las mías y las otras eran de Dios.

A veces aparecían dos pares de huellas y a veces un solo par. Esto me preocupó mucho porque pude notar que, durante las escenas que reflejaban las etapas más tristes de mi vida, cuando me sentía apenado, angustiado y derrotado, solamente había un par de huellas en la arena. Entonces, le dije a Dios:

'Señor, Tú me prometiste que si te seguía siempre caminarías a mi lado. Sin embargo, he notado que en los momentos más difíciles de mi vida, había sólo un par de huellas en la arena. ¿Por qué, cuándo más te necesité, no caminaste a mi lado?.

Entonces Él me respondió:

'Querido hijo. Yo te amo infinitamente y jamás te abandonaría en los momentos difíciles. Cuando viste en la arena sólo un par de pisadas es porque yo te cargaba en mis brazos…'.

Le dije al SER de LUZ que no yo no le veía sentido a la vida y quería saber mi propósito, le pregunté que cuál era la finalidad de todo. El SER de LUZ me respondió que todo tendría sentido más adelante y que descubriría en el camino de mi propósito y mi misión. Que Él siempre me había acompañado y que siempre lo haría.

En un momento sentí que volvía a la realidad. Ya no estaba en aquel lugar de LUZ. Le dije a mi amiga: he hablado con Dios. Obviamente creo que ella no me creyó y lo adjudicó al té. Todavía no me sentía bien. Seguí en la cama, en donde todo me daba vueltas, estaba mareada. Pero ya podía respirar sin indicaciones. Posterior de dormí.

Estos sentimientos y sensaciones que sentí allí nunca se me olvidaron. Recuerdo claramente el amor que se me fue revelado.  Vuelvo y lo vivo en mi mente. Después de este suceso debo de decir que me recuperé de mi depresión, los pensamientos y sentimientos de suicidios desaparecieron. Actualmente estudio metafísica cristiana y leo mucho acerca de Dios, estoy abierta a  leer escritos budistas, judíos, hindúes. Leo mucho acerca del domino espiritual y variados temas del alma. 

Cuando paso momentos difíciles en mi vida, simplemente recuerdo el amor que viví allí. Cierro los ojos y recuerdo, y me impregno de esa LUZ y de ese amor. Y siento que nada es tan difícil porque ese amor me sostiene. Creo firmemente que todo lo creado viene de la FUENTE que es Dios mismo, y que esta FUENTE está hecho del amor más puro y verdadero. 

Cabe anotar que ya no satanizo el uso de las sustancias psicoactivas naturales que contengan dimetiltriptamina (DMT), en la cura de la depresión, eso sí para uso terapéutico y de forma guiada por algún especialista. Considero que el té que ingerí, hizo que se activara mi glándula pineal y la llamada 'molécula de Dios' posibilitó que me curara de la depresión.

Por favor, que mi relato no lleve a ingerir nada a nadie. Investigue previamente. 

¿En el momento de su experiencia hubo algún evento asociado que amenazara su vida?     Incierto    Es incierto el sentir que estaba en amenaza mi vida, por que sentí que esaba comprometida mi vida, ya que sentía que no podía respirar, pero no perdí la conciencia, ni morí.

¿Fue la experiencia difícil de explicar en palabras?    Sí     Hubo sensaciones que no es fácil de explicarlo con palabras. Como la trasmisión de pensamientos e ideas de forma telepática. Los sentimientos  de amor sentidos, el lugar de LUZ, La sincronicidad  que sentía que todo estaba ocurriendo a la misma vez.

¿En qué momento durante la experiencia tuvo su mayor nivel de estados de consciencia y alerta?    Más Consciente y alerta de lo normal     Todo el tiempo estaba con conciencia y estaba alerta. NO perdí la conciencia en ningún momento.    Sentía que estaba totalmnte alerta. Concentrándome en mis pulmones, en poder respirar. Alerta de lo que estaba sucediendo afuera con mi amiga, y de lo que estaba sucediendo en el lugar hecho de LUZ.

Por favor compare su sentido de la visión durante la experiencia con el sentido de visión cotidiano que tenía inmediatamente antes de la experiencia.    La visión era global. Sentía que podía observar sin ojos,  con los ojos 'mentales'. No habían sentidos allí.Pero todo se sentía como si se tuvieran sentidos.

Por favor compare su sentido de audición durante la experiencia con el sentido de audición cotidiano que tenía inmediatamente antes de la experiencia.    Durante la experiencia es como si pudieras escuchar simultaneamnte varias escenas al mismo tiempo. Escuchaba lo que estaba sucediendo en el Lugar de la LUZ y lo que estaba sucediendo en la realidad.

¿Vio o escuchó algún evento terrenal que estuviera ocurriendo en el mismo momento en que su consciencia / conocimiento estaba separado de su cuerpo físico / terrenal?     Incierto    El evento terrenal estaba sucediendo al mismo tiempo que el evento espiritual. Es decir tenía conciencia de los dos eventos al mismo tiempo.

¿Qué emociones sintió durante la experiencia?    Las emociones dentro de la LUZ fueron de amor, compasión, plenitud, complitud, luz, acogida, bondad, alegría, ausencia de dolor emocional.  

¿Entró o atravesó un túnel?    No     

¿Vio usted una luz sobrenatural?    Sí     La LUZ parecía ser una especie de FUENTE que daba la sensación de acogimiento y al mismo tiempo de infinitud, ese lugar estaba hecho de  LUZ y de amor.Yo estaba hehca de LUZ y el SER estaba hecho de LUZ.

¿Vio usted o se encontró con un ser místico o presencia? ¿O escuchó una voz inidentificable?      Me encontré con un ser definido, o una voz de origen claramente místico o sobrenatural    El ser estaba hecho de amor y LUZ , su voz era identificable pero telepáticamente. Suave y al mismo tiempo con autoridad.

¿Se encontró usted o estaba Consciente de algún ser fallecido (o vivo)?    No     

¿Se hizo usted Consciente de eventos pasados en su vida durante la experiencia?    Sí     Se me mostraron eventos de mi pasado, de mi presente y de mi futuro al mismo tiempo, pero no los recuerdo.

¿Le pareció que ingresó a algún otro mundo sobrenatural?     Un reino claramente místico o sobrenatural    El lugar era fuera de esta dimensión en otro plano no tangible.

¿Pareció que el tiempo se aceleraba o enlentecía?    El tiempo parecía ir más rápido o más lento de lo usual     El tiempo allí era lento pero al mismo tiempo rápido.

¿Pareció que usted repentinamente entendía todo?    Todo sobre el Universo     Sentí que todo tenía sentido, que todo encajaba perfectamente, que estaba en mi hogar, que yo estaba hecha de la misma sustancia de amor.

¿Alcanzó usted una frontera o estructura física limitante?    No     

¿Llegaron a usted escenas del futuro?          Tuve visiones de mi futuro, pero no las recuerdo.

¿Tuvo la sensación de saber algún conocimiento especial o propósito (***sólo de la experiencia)?     Incierto    Se me fue dicho que el propósito lo conocería en el camino.

Por favor, describa cualquier cambio que pudo haber ocurrido en su vida después de su experiencia:   Después de la experiencia, se potencializó mis dones oníricos, mi intuición y mi 'sexto sentido'. Los sueños antes me eran dados, pero no les prestaba mayor atención, ahora los interpreto incluso prediciendo la muerte de personas cercanas.

Se me potencializaron los desdoblamientos al dormir, dejé de sufrir parálisis del sueño en donde era atacada por entes que yo llamo 'Los oscuros'. Sueño con circunstancias que luego ocurren.

He tenido sueños en donde se me ha mostrado que el sufrimiento que tu como ser humano causas en los demás, sea en palabras, gestos, u omisión, lo pagarás sintiendo como propio el dolor ajeno. Se me ha mostrado en sueños que el infierno es la existencia de tu conciencia en la completa oscuridad allí tú solo existes y deberá recordar cuánto daño hiciste, torturándote en cómo pudiste hacer las cosas   cuando estuviste en la tierra, viviendo una y otra vez tu vida en recuerdos y sufriendo por no haber disfrutado la existencia material.  Ese es el infierno.

¿Tuvo usted algún cambio en sus valores y creencias después de su experiencia y que hayan ocurrido como resultado de la experiencia?    Sí     Soy ahora una persona muy espiritual, no específicamente religiosa.  Creo que el daño se devuelve.

¿Tuvo usted algún don físico, fuera de lo ordinario o especial después de su experiencia que no haya tenido antes de la experiencia?    No     

¿Usted a compartido esta experiencia con otros?    No     

¿Tenía usted algún conocimiento de experiencias cercanas a la muerte (ECM) previamente a su experiencia?    No     

¿Qué pensó usted de la realidad de su experiencia poco después (días a semanas) después de que sucedió?    La experiencia fue definitivamente real     La experiencia fue real y me cambió la forma de ver la realidad. Ya no sufro de depresión.

¿Qué piensa actualmente usted de la realidad de su experiencia?    La experiencia fue definitivamente real     Fue real y me apego a eso para seguir mi existencia terrenal.

¿Sus relaciones han cambiado específicamente como resultado de su experiencia?    Sí     Yes

¿Ha cambiado la práctica de sus creencias religiosas/espirituales como resultado de su experiencia?          No         Cuando me siento decaída trato de rememorar esta experiencia para cogr fuerzas y así me sient mucho más aliviada.

¿Las preguntas realizadas y la información provista por usted describen precisa y exhaustivamente su experiencia?          Experiementar con DMT para la curación de la depresión.

¿Hay alguna otra pregunta que podría ayudarle a comunicar su experiencia?    Son más compasiva, más bondadosa, más servicial, más atenta. Ya no juzgo tanto, y trato de perdonar a quienes me hieren teniendo en cuanta que todo tiene un sentido.

¿Hay alguna o varias partes de su experiencia que sean especialmente significativas para usted?    Tuve un intento de suicidio a los 14 años pero en ese entonces no viví ni sentí nada. Tampoco perdí la conciencia en ese episodio.

¿Hay algo más sobre su experiencia que le gustaría agregar?    Yes