Gary M's Experience
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Experience description:
Well where
to begin...I guess a little background info might be in order. At the age of 7,8
and 9 I worked underground in a bootleg coal mine...(a very scary place for such
a young man) I left home at the age of 12...more or less...On the street selling
my body...robbing...stealing. lying and cheating...Learning to hate and hurt
others. Using alcohol and drugs, One might say I spent my life trying to make
the world as afraid of me as I was of it. In the end...all I wanted to do was to
hurt people as much as I believed they'd hurt me. All that was left was
violence. Nothing else...and by this time I had given up giving up quitting
Alcohol. Anyway
one the night of my out of body experience I had just gotten to the bar. I
picked a stand up table in the corner of the room. where it was dark and
isolated hadn't had a drink that day but was looking forward to the ones that I
knew where just a few seconds away. only problem. had to watch my money. nothing
worse that running out of cash and still wanting more booze. Anyway I ordered my
drinks...and there they were...sitting on the table in front of me...full and I
took a look at the bar before picking up that first glass...and suddenly
realized that the bar was so far away that I would be sitting here without a
drink for a few minutes after finishing these. and felt quite upset about
that...
The next thing I know...I am suspended above the ceiling...about 30 feet at
least it seemed so) above the floor of the bar, and my attention is fixed on the
other end of the rectangular room...All I can see is the color...the smiles. the
gayety.....people talking and enjoying each others company...all dressed so
colorfully.....Really enjoying themselves in the light. Well now I begin the pan
the room and slowly am focused on the dark part...I can see a couple. almost in
the shadows, sitting at one table...a person in darkness sitting alone...and a
few others similarly scattered throughout my part of the room. All of a sudden I
am drawn to where I am...an it is like an eddy. swirling down and down darker
and darker...beyond black. the blackest of black places. Then I'm back in my
body. It wasn't scary...never gave it a second thought. the experience was as
natural as breathing in and out.
Than for some reason. I
turned and left the room...never wanting another drink...never wanting to hit
another human person. This
explanation will never really do the experience justice...nor the ones that
happened since. but I have never heard of a person having an out of body
experience standing up wide awake. Guess it happens though....anyway. have have
not wanted to raise my hand in anger or desired a drink since
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
difficult to express. that's a hard question to answer as I am still processing
it and others since
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
alert
awake. nothing abnormal or out of the norm
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
no, not really
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No I
was a black eddy a deep void deeper and darker
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
nothing. not
fear. not joy ...nothing. it just WAS
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
not that I
recall
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
Yes yes. the
room was exact...as when I walked in and when I left
Did
you see a light?
one half
of the room was bathed in light...one half wasn't
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes yes.
there were lots of other people there. but they weren't aware of me
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
No all was
silent....just color and light...and darkness of coarse
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No no. not
at the time...but as I reflect upon it. yes
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
No
Did you have
any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you
did not have prior to the experience?
Yes many things have happened...many things shown...far to many (and to me
personally, to monumental to say this way) to list. lets just say the domino's
continue to fall
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
yes. but not to my knowledge...even though the desire to drink and hit people
was removed. it took me a few years to become aware of it...and I am still
learning or unlearning from that experience
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
absolutely
it's been powerful ..gentle and gradual
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes I honor
me. I know that I can only love through faith and that people are my spiritual
exercises.. I could go into much more detail. but I think you get the idea
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes hard to
say. most ..no I'd say all. disbelieve
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
a desire to
stand up for me. not to be pushed out any longer. an inner awareness that I had
a right to be here and the power to exercise that right
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
no worst or
best. although when I think about the black eddy void that was me. I now find it
disturbing .....somewhat. not in an overpowering way at all just mildly
disturbing
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
far ,far
too much that I can add...just wondering if you can tell me if you've encounter
people who've had out of body experiences standing up wide awake
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes
no substance has ever produced any of my experiences.. but yes I have had other
experiences.. they come from the same place. and have the same energy...but they
of coarse are about different obstacles that I've had in my life
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes I have
left a lot out. but let me close with this. since I have become aware of this I
have felt that I (we) are being prepared for something...and until then all I
can do is watch the dominos fall