Gary M's Experience
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Experience description:

Well where to begin...I guess a little background info might be in order. At the age of 7,8 and 9 I worked underground in a bootleg coal mine...(a very scary place for such a young man) I left home at the age of 12...more or less...On the street selling my body...robbing...stealing. lying and cheating...Learning to hate and hurt others. Using alcohol and drugs, One might say I spent my life trying to make the world as afraid of me as I was of it. In the end...all I wanted to do was to hurt people as much as I believed they'd hurt me. All that was left was violence. Nothing else...and by this time I had given up giving up quitting Alcohol.

   Anyway one the night of my out of body experience I had just gotten to the bar. I picked a stand up table in the corner of the room. where it was dark and isolated hadn't had a drink that day but was looking forward to the ones that I knew where just a few seconds away. only problem. had to watch my money. nothing worse that running out of cash and still wanting more booze. Anyway I ordered my drinks...and there they were...sitting on the table in front of me...full and I took a look at the bar before picking up that first glass...and suddenly realized that the bar was so far away that I would be sitting here without a drink for a few minutes after finishing these. and felt quite upset about that...

The next thing I know...I am suspended above the ceiling...about 30 feet at least it seemed so) above the floor of the bar, and my attention is fixed on the other end of the rectangular room...All I can see is the color...the smiles. the gayety.....people talking and enjoying each others company...all dressed so colorfully.....Really enjoying themselves in the light. Well now I begin the pan the room and slowly am focused on the dark part...I can see a couple. almost in the shadows, sitting at one table...a person in darkness sitting alone...and a few others similarly scattered throughout my part of the room. All of a sudden I am drawn to where I am...an it is like an eddy. swirling down and down darker and darker...beyond black. the blackest of black places. Then I'm back in my body. It wasn't scary...never gave it a second thought. the experience was as natural as breathing in and out. Than for some reason. I turned and left the room...never wanting another drink...never wanting to hit another human person.

  This explanation will never really do the experience justice...nor the ones that happened since. but I have  never heard of a person having an out of body experience standing up wide awake. Guess it happens though....anyway. have have not wanted to raise my hand in anger or desired a drink since

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No     


Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No      difficult to express. that's a hard question to answer as I am still processing it and others since

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?            alert awake. nothing abnormal or out of the norm

           
Was the experience dream like in any way?  no, not really

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No          I was a black eddy a deep void deeper and darker

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          nothing. not fear. not joy ...nothing. it just WAS

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?          not that I recall

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?        Yes    yes. the room was exact...as when I walked in and when I left

Did you see a light?          one half of the room was bathed in light...one half wasn't

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    yes. there were lots of other people there. but they weren't aware of me

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?     No      all was silent....just color and light...and darkness of coarse

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No      no. not at the time...but as I reflect upon it. yes

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No     

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      No     

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          No      Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?            Yes    many things have happened...many things shown...far to many (and to me personally, to monumental to say this way) to list. lets just say the domino's continue to fall

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?          Yes    yes. but not to my knowledge...even though the desire to drink and hit people was removed. it took me a few years to become aware of it...and I am still learning or unlearning from that experience

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       absolutely  it's been powerful ..gentle and gradual

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Yes    I honor me. I know that I can only love through faith and that people are my spiritual exercises.. I could go into much more detail. but I think you get the idea

Have you shared this experience with others?        Yes    hard to say. most ..no I'd say all. disbelieve

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  a desire to stand up for me. not to be pushed out any longer. an inner awareness that I had a right to be here and the power to exercise that right

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    no worst or best. although when I think about the black eddy void that was me. I now find it disturbing .....somewhat. not in an overpowering way at all just mildly disturbing

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?       far ,far too much that I can add...just wondering if you can tell me if you've encounter people who've had out of body experiences standing up wide awake

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?          Yes    no substance has ever produced any of my experiences.. but yes I have had other experiences.. they come from the same place. and have the same energy...but they of coarse are about different obstacles that I've had in my life

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes    I have left a lot out. but let me close with this. since I have become aware of this I have felt that I (we) are being prepared for something...and until then all I can do is watch the dominos fall