Garry B's Experience
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Experience description:
I was
lying on my bed when I was suddenly floating above my body. There were no weird
sensations as I left, however when I was outside my body, I did feel really
alive, free, weightless, worry-less. I floated up out of the house into the sky
and became aware of everything around me. Then suddenly, I could perceive all
time and in particular the whole of my life. I could see clearly that
everything that seemed real and solid was just an illusion of mind. Time and
space did not exist. Out of
interest I wanted to see where and when I was born and so I just thought that
wish and I was immediately transported to our house. It was a beautiful 1953
spring day. I could see the doctor
at the window of our home, looking out the window and at the same time I seemed
to be inside the room. I was lying on the bed beside my mother who was only 29
years old. Dr. H signed
'It's a pet day!' and suddenly I was whooshed back into my body. If I didn't
feel my leaving, I certainly felt the re-entry. The two
things that remain to this day from that experience is (i) the illusory nature
of this world. I felt strangely reassured that this world was definitely not
real - merely a world of shadows. Every experience, however, is real because we
feel it but what causes the experience and what around us looks solid is only a
fiction. For example, buying a lot of real-estate is similar to obtaining large
areas of cyberspace. What we physically possess in this world are
mind-projections; and (ii) the reason we are here is clearly to become aware -
nothing more. I suppose I knew this intellectually but after the OBE I realised
it deep in my inner being. There are
two Buddhist tales which best sum up what this OBE revealed to me: Firstly,
there is a lovely tale of Gautama (the Buddha) after he has reached a state of
enlightenment meeting a man who asks him if he is a god? To which the Buddha
replies 'no'. Then the man enquires if he is a magician. To which the Buddha
also replies 'no'. Finally the man asks: 'Then what are you?' 'I am awake.',
replies the Buddha. The other
Buddhist story which this OBE always brings to mind is the tale of the man in a
moored boat who sees a larger boat approaching on a direct collision course with
his own small boat. He shouts out 'Stop!' - but there is no reply. He screams
'You're going to crash into me!' But there is still no reply. In fits of anger
at the stupidity of this action he works himself up into a dreadful state of
disquiet. The larger boat eventually crashes into his small boat and then he
notices that there is no one at all in the larger boat. Immediately his anger
dissipates because there is no one in the big boat to be angry with. So getting
angry with anything is merely living out the illusion, and to what end? Stepping
out of the illusion in the OBE has taught me to enjoy participating and to keep
a sharper focus on what is real and what is not.
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Much more aware - it felt like
waking up from a sleep.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
definitely not. This life is
dream-like but consciousness outside the body is very real and an enduring
experience.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
joy
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
everything was as clear as a bell
- I was aware of the sound of the breeze in the grass and every individual
birdsong...
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
Yes the house where I was born, my mother, myself as a baby...
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see any other
beings? No
But I was aware that I could have been with anyone if I so chose.. There was no
separation between 'the living' and 'the dead' - there was only being.
Did you experiment while out
of the body or in another, altered state?
Yes as I explained above.
Did you notice how your 5
senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes more alive - more
real
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
Yes as I explained above
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes All knowledge is waiting
outside the limitations placed upon us in this physical world
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware of future
events? Yes but I
forgot them when I returned to this body. I could see everything and I remember
seeing everything and being aware of knowing what would happen but I couldn't
rememeber anything when I returned
Were you involved in or aware
of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes as I explained
above...
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? much more
positive attitude to people, friends. I try to build bridges to those with whom
I have diagreements. Fighting and being upset with people is being the 'owner
of the small boat'. Loving your 'enemies' is not being 'good' - it's seeing
that there are no enemies - all is the illusion created by my own limited vision
and mind.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes more joyful - less worry -
most times no worry at all.
Have you shared this
experience with others?
No
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
joy
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
realization that nothing in this
world is 'real' - was the funniest part. I laughed for days after the OBE.
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions
you may have to improve this questionnaire.
It was a bit long... don't you
think!