Frances S's Experience
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Experience description:
I
was very ill I had inflammation around my heart and my muscles were very week,
the doctor thought I had Cocsacki virus (I am not sure of that spelling) I had
been having unusual experiences, I thought I heard people in the house and
someone cooking in the kitchen when no one was there. I was alone in the guest
bedroom because I didn't want to disturb my husband with the restlessness that I
was experiencing, I wasn't sleeping well. I felt myself slipping away when I saw
a black tunnel , I thought I was going to die, when I heard a voice in my head
say "the darkest hour is before the dawn" I knew at that moment I was going to
recover, obviously I didn't die and I started to feel I would get over this dark
time I was going through. It took a long time but I did recover, I had to take
myself out of a negative life style and get away from my husband who was being
very negative with me. I was committed to hospital in a mental ward, I was there
for a month and when I left I got my own apartment found a job and started to
feel good. I realize now how strong I was to do all this by myself. I remembered
what I was told at that dark hour I went through.
Eventually my husband and I reunited and we have been together for 50 years, he
is a changed man, he isn't as abusive and we have toughed it out so far with
love that we have shared together. Sometimes we fall into the ruts of those old
patterns, but not for long because we both realize that the way we were is not
what we are or what we want to be. Love has pulled us through, the realization
that if we love ourselves we can love each other, why would we want to choose to
feel anything bad when we can feel good. Life is a gift, enjoy it, chooses to be
happy.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
Yes
I was very ill and felt I would die
Was
the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes People don't usually believe what I try to explain.
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
When I saw the black tunnel, there was no light in it, just so very black.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More
consciousness and alertness than normal There was a quiet and calmness and
acceptance
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Normal
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that
you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Normal
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that
your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Calmness
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel?
No
Did
you see an unearthly light?
No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an
unidentifiable voice?
I heard a voice I could
not identify
Did
you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who
are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha,
etc.)?
No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
Some unfamiliar
and strange place
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
No
No
sense of time
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything about
myself or others
I have had previous experiences with "knowing" I wrote a book about it " and I
Heard The Sky Sing, a guide to the souls awakening".
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you come to a border or point of no return?
No
Did
scenes from the future come to you?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (�life after death�)?
Yes Because this was an unearthly experience I had the feeling there must be
something other than this experience of life, it was a message given to me by
something that loved me.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
Yes Some presence was giving me comfort
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not)
exist?
Yes I felt that the information given to me was coming from a place of knowing
that wanted to comfort me because I was afraid I was going to die
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?
No
Life wasn't meant to be difficult, I was being helped by something not of this
world
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
Yes Life wasn't meant to be difficult, I was being helped by something not of
this world
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
regarding love?
Yes I felt loved and helped
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information /
awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living
our earthly lives?
Yes I had to learn to love and take care of myself
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?
Yes I have had previous experience of knowing, not believing but knowing, I
have been given a knowledge of awareness that I never had before
What occurred during your experience included:
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at
the time of your experience I really don't know how to answer this, I don't
know if I had beliefs of any kind before this.. Just experiences that led to
feel that there is another reality we just have glimpses of here
How
accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events
that occurred around the time of the experience?
I do
not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of
other life events at time I have quite an incredible memory, I remember being
born, it wasn't a pleasant feeling, I was claustrophobic, I though I was never
going to get out of that darn tunnel I was stuck in.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your
experience:
Because of previous experiences with the knowledge that I had been made aware
of, I feel that all that I went through was meant to be to round out my
experience of all human experiences, to lose ones mental and physical health is
so difficult, now that I have had that experience, I have had the knowledge of
how it feels, it has created a more compassionate understanding for all my
brothers and sisters who are going through this experience, it isn't pleasant.
My experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes I have the knowledge of illness, and the compassion that results, also the
inner strength to endure it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your
experience that you did not have before the experience?
Yes I had those before this experience.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful
or significant to you?
Have
no fear, the darkest hour is before the dawn, the light always follows the
night
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
No one really believes unless they go through something similar themselves,
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to
weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real Something somewhere was trying to reassure me
all would be okay
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real Something or someone was comforting and
reassuring me
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I am
more loving and patient
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result
of your experience?
Yes
I
don't believe in Dogma or man made concepts any more
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the
experience?
No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes I Remember it well
Are
there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your
experience?
It is difficult to communicate something that hasn't been experienced. It's like
reading about Paris or going there, one is the experience the other is just
imagining.