Experience description:

Sunday, Oct. 1 around 03:41 am.

My NDE is unusual because it applies to my previous life.

I was born in Germany in 1973. I always had certain memories about certain otherworldly experiences. They had been there since the beginning of my existence, but the older I got the more attention I paid them.

This year I will be 50 and I want to share my memories about the passing from my previous life. I was always interested in NDE but it was only with the purchase of the book of Eben Alexander that I engaged intensively with the subject.

I always had a knowledge about what happened after my death of my last life. The origin was that in the afterlife I had been expressing the wish not to forget this knowledge und my wish had been fulfilled.

I now want to share the thoughts resp. the memories that I have.

It started with my birth.

An angel told me that I would have a good life. This memory showed up very often when I was young.

Memories of the afterlife are as follows:

I'm looking down from the ceiling of a room and see some people standing in front of a bed. There are about five people around the bed. Probably I'm the deceased in the bed. I have no idea what kind of episode we have. The next memory is that I'm flying through a tunnel, it is golden and I try to look at my body but have to realize that I don't have any. At the end of the tunnel I see a kind of room with a strong white light which is attracting me. I'm going or flying into the light and the thought I have in the light is that I never want to leave from here. As I have been reading from other NDEs I must say that the best description of this is pervasive love. A good description would be an orgasm not sexually aroused as during sex but a good description - as with the word love you can't visualize that much-, only much more intense and instead of mundane sexuality there is the unbelievable feeling of pervasive Love.

The next memory is that I was talking to my spirit guide. It seems that I had a life review that I can't remember anymore. But I have the memory how I planned my actual life. I could decide what gender I wanted, I still remember thinking it over and I decided to become a man. Becoming a woman was tempting but I decided that I could leave that for my next life.

I also could choose the appropriate spouse, I remember that I chose a soul with whom I had already been spending other lives but more as family member. I absolutely wanted this soul as my partner. I was told by my spirit guide that he first had to ask this soul if it accepted. That took some time, I have no idea how long but the approval was given. I was told that this soul would be older than I and that in this constellation I wouldn't have any friends. I didn't care, I was quite happy that this worked out for my life plan.

The next memory was that my spirit guide showed me several things in the afterlife. There have been souls chastising themselves under a weak light. I asked the spirit guide why those souls were flogging themselves and he told me that those souls needed to forgive themselves about their past life.

The next memory was that I wanted to explore other planets, seemingly I was already at that time interested in alien life. However I only can remember how the journey started. It was like in the movie 'Contact' when Jody shot through space... end of this memory.

The next memory was when I was talking to God. That must have been quite near the end before I had to start my present life. I was talking to God. I can remember that God had a fantastic humor. I can remember that I was not very excited when he told me that I had to come to earth. He said that it was important because there is a plan...for me it was very clear to do this ( unfortunately I don't remember the plan anymore).

I still do remember that before my birth I was in a kind of phase when I contemplated the universe, similar to what Eben Alexander described very well in his book. I looked at the beauty of the planets and the colors and prepared for my new life...

In the end... why can I remember all this?

I remember to doing happily certain things (what things I don't know anymore) and one thought towards the universe (or God?) was: I don't want to forget all this!!!

And it seems that I was granted this wish.

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So., 1. Okt. Um 03:41
Meine NTE ist ungewöhnlich, denn sie bezieht sich auf mein letztes Leben.
Ich wurde 1973 in Deutschland geboren. Ich hatte schon immer Erinnerungen an gewisse Jenseitigen Erlebnisse. Sie waren seit beginn meiner Existenz da, aber je älter ich wurde, desto mehr Beachtung schenkte ich ihnen.
Ich werde dieses Jahr 50 Jahre alt und möchte meine Erinnerungen an den Tod meines vorherigen Lebens teilen. Ich habe mich immer für NTE interessiert, aber erst mit dem kauf vor etwa vier Jahren des Buches von Eben Alexander habe ich mich mit dem Thema intensiv beschäftigt.
Ich hatte schon immer ein Wissen was nach meinem Tod im letzten Leben passiert ist, der Ursprung war, ich hatte im Jenseits den Wunsch geäußert dies nicht zu vergessen, und der Wunsch wurde erfüllt.
Die Gedanken, bzw. Die Erinnerungen wie ich sie habe möchte ich jetzt teilen.
Es fing mit meiner Geburt an, ein Engel teilte mir mit das ich ein schönes Leben führen würde. Diese Erinnerung tauchte in jüngeren Jahren sehr oft auf.
Die Erinnerungen an das Jenseits waren wie folgt:
Ich sehe von der Decke eines Zimmers herunter und sehe einige Leute vor einem Bett stehen. Es sind etwa fünf Personen die um ein Bett herum stehen, ich bin wohl der verstorbene in dem Bett. Ich habe keine Ahnung welche Episode wir gerade haben. Die nächste Erinnerung ist das ich durch einen Tunnel fliege, erst ist golden und ich versuche meinen Körper zu betrachten, stelle aber fest das ich keinen habe. Am Ende des Tunnels sehe ich eine Art Raum oder Zimmer mit starken weißen Licht das mich anzieht. Ich gehe oder fliege in das Licht und der Gedanke in dem Licht ist, dass ich hier nie wieder weg möchte. Wie ich aus anderen NTE gelesen habe ist die beste Beschreibung durchdringende Liebe. Eine gute Beschreibung, weil man mit Liebe sich nicht so viel vorstellen kann ist ein Orgasmus, nicht geil wie beim sex aber eine gute Beschreibung, nur intensiver und statt irdischer Sexualität unglaubliches Gefühl von durchdringender Liebe.
Die nächst Erinnerung ist das ich mich mit meinem Geistführer unterhielt. Ich hatte wohl einen Lebensrückblich, an den ich mich nicht mehr erinnern kann. Ich habe aber die Erinnerung wie ich mein jetziges Leben geplant habe. Ich konnte mich entscheiden welches Geschlecht ich nehmen wollte, ich kann mich noch daran erinnern wie ich überlegte, und mich entschied ein Mann zu werden, ein Frau zu sein hätte mich sehr gereizt, aber ich entschied mich dazu dass ich dies ja auch in meinem nächsten Leben sein könnte.
Ich konnte mir auch die passende Lebensgefährtin aussuchen, ich erinnerte mich darin dass ich ein Seele ausgesucht habe mit der ich schon andere Leben verbracht habe, aber eher im Familienbund, ich wollte die Seele unbedingt als meine Partnerin haben. Mir wurde von meinem Geistführer gesagt dass er bei dieser Seele erst nachfragen müssen ob sie dem zustimmt. Es hat etwas gedauert, keine Ahnung wie lange, aber es kam die Zustimmung der Seele. Mir wurde gesagt das diese Seele auch älter als ich sein werde und das ich in dieser Konstellation keine Freunde haben werde. Es war mir egal, ich war sehr glücklich das dies für meine Lebensplanung geklappt hatte,
Die nächste Erinnerung war dass mein Geistführer mir einige Sachen im Jenseits zeigte. Es waren Seelen die sich unter schwachen Licht selbst kasteiten. Ich fragte den Geistführer warum diese Seelen sich selbst geißelten und er sagte mir das diese Seelen sich für ihr vergangenes Leben verzeihen müssen.
Die nächste Erinnerung war das ich andere Planeten erkunden wollte, anscheinend haben mich schon damals Außerirdisches Leben interessiert. Allerdings kann ich mich nur noch daran erinnern wie die Reise losging. Es war wie in dem Film Contact, als Jodie durch das Al rast…ende dieser Erinnerung.
Die nächste Erinnerung war als ich mit Gott sprach. Das war dann wohl ziemlich am Ende bevor ich mein jetziges Leben antreten musste.
Ich sprach mit Gott. Ich kann mich noch erinnern das Gott einen tollen Humor hat. Ich kann mich noch erinnern als ich wenig begeistert war als er zu mir sagte das ich auf die Erde muss. Er sagte dass es wichtig sei, weil es einen Plan gibt….für mich war es ganz klar dies auch zu tun (an den Plan kann ich mich leider nicht erinnern).
Ich erinnere mich noch das ich vor meiner Geburt in so einer Art fase war, als ich das Universum betrachtete, wie es Eben Alexander in seinem Buch sehr gut beschrieben hat. Ich betrachtete die Schönheit der Planeten und Farben und bereitete mich auf mein Leben vor….
Zu guter Letzt….warum kann ich mich an dies alles erinnern?
Ich erinnere mich daran im Jenseits vergnügt meine Dinge zu tun (welche dinge das waren weiß ich nicht mehr) und ein Gedanke an das Universum(oder Gott?) war, ich will das alles hier nicht vergessen!!!
Und so wie es aussieht, ist mir dieser Wunsch gewährt worden.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain   Memory about afterlife before my present life

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Uncertain      Different, more real as usual.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      I In the afterlife.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal    Hard to describe

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.    Difficult

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.    No idea

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Uncertain    Cant' say

What emotions did you feel during the experience?    Unbelievable joy and love   

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Yes    A tunnel, myself without a body, hard to describe

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes    A light at the end of the tunnel. I felt attracted to the light, when entering the light there was the feeling 'I don't want to ever leave the light'.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
A guide, responsible for the purpose of life and more...

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Uncertain   I I was talking to God...fantastic humor and he sent me back to earth, it seems that there is a plan?? At the time it was self evident for me to go.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Uncertain    I don't remember.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No   

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Can't be described, a joyful life in light and gratitude

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
I can't remember

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No


Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No


Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No


Did scenes from the future come to you?  No  


During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes    There is a plan, what this means that I don't know, no question to agree...

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes    He exists, I was talking and laughing with him.... crazy but that's it.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Uncertain    There is a plan, it's appearance I don't know?

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Uncertain    The plan?

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Uncertain    The plan?

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Uncertain    The plan?

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Uncertain    The plan? Love is for sure very important...

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No   

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No   

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience    To live life correctly, unfortunately I don't know more

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th   very accurate

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I During the course of my life my experience has stabilized. I always had those memories about the afterlife, the more significance I gave those memories the more I remembered what has been. I know that there is life after terrestrial death, unfortunately all the rest remains hidden.

My experience directly resulted in:   Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Uncertain   I try to be better than I am.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No   

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?      I try to be better than I am... I want to live my life as I want, but I also don't want to hurt anybody resp. it is important to do the right thing. Conscience is showing the way.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  I I'm struggling to do the right thing, yet I'm sure that I could give more.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Uncertain    Memory, with age ever more.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real    Memory was real.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   It's simply there

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?    Because it's there   Yes

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   No church or religion, only the right action counts!

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes    The inner voice counts, everybody knows what's right and wrong, you have to listen to the voice.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?    Karma exists, I think....

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   I I think that it was accurate.

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?   To spread the truth, but it will be difficult.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?               Questions are very elaborate.