Douglas G's Experience
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Experience description:
The entire event began at home.
I was heading out to
band practice on my bike. At the last second, on an impulse I stuffed my bulky
fleecy jacket into my backpack with my flute and music. I had the thought that I
might get cold on the ride back.
I didn't take my usual
direct route. I took a detour that added about another 15-20 minutes onto the
journey.
I came to an
intersection on a busy main street and stopped at the traffic light. While I
waited for the light to change, I tightened up the straps on both the backpack
and my helmet. I took the iPod off.
The light changed, but
I didn't go. I waited for the traffic to pass me, then proceeded. I saw a parked
vehicle about 250m ahead. As I got closer I saw it was a dark blue Ford
Explorer, almost identical to one my friend once had. Just as I came alongside
the vehicle, when I was in the exact right position, the driver's door opened. I
had no time to react. I struck the door head-on. There was the noise of the
crash, a blinding white light and I was thrown from the bike into the middle of
the street.
On the way through the
air, a moment froze in time. Out of my left eye I could see the street, the
buildings, the world, but out of my right eye all I saw was black. It was like a
split-screen view. Then I was taken on a split second tour of the Universe. I
saw everything from beginning to end, but knew I would forget it all if I came
back. Then I was in the Void, and I thought, "This is the Void. I'm not supposed
to be here. I'm a Christian, not a Buddhist. Where's the tunnel and light I saw
the last time years ago? Where's God? This isn't right. I'm disappointed."� The
Void stretched on for eternity.
I hit the pavement and
the blackness of the void changed to the blackness of simply having my eyes
closed. I noticed the difference. I had a vision that I was about to be struck
and killed by a particular car. I didn't want to open my eyes and see, but I
wasn't really afraid. I didn't want to die, but felt I was ready to go if
necessary. I thought I had two seconds left to live, and I wondered what I was
going to do with all that time. Two seconds seemed like forever. I opened my
eyes and the particular car I saw in the vision was indeed there, but it had
stopped safely about 20m up the street.
I saw I was safe and
alive. Some pain began to set in, but I knew I wasn't seriously injured. Since I
was relatively safe and not about to be killed, I decided to lie in the street
for a few seconds, just because I could. The whole world could wait. I saw my
bike lying on it's side, and I focused on my water bottle lying in the gutter.
The scene was very vivid. For some reason the water bottle fascinated me.
Then the man and a
younger woman from the parked vehicle tried to approach me, but I waved them
off. I didn't want anyone to touch me. I said to the man, "I'm ok. I'm not angry
at you."
A young woman came out
of the vet clinic that was there, and she, I, the man and the young woman with
him came into the clinic. I sat until I felt ready to go. I knew I was going
into shock, but just wanted to be left alone and go on my way. It bothered me
that the people were making a fuss over me.
When I went to leave,
the man and the woman came out with me and got into a green Dodge van. There was
no blue Ford Explorer.
I went to band, but
left early as I was still drifting in and out of shock.
On the way home, I rode
along a quiet bike path through a wooded area in a park. Daylight was fading.
I came around a corner
and there was a deer in the middle of the path. It didn't bolt or startle, it
just stood there looking at me. I saw God in it's eyes, and I think it saw God
in mine. After a minute, we both went on our ways.
The accident was no
accident. The man in the vehicle had plenty of time to open the door, he just
did it when I was in the perfect position. The jacket I had impulsively stuffed
into my pack saved me from serious injury because I landed on it. The detour I
had taken ensured I was at the right place at the right time. I had tightened up
all the straps and let the traffic go by.
It was a carefully
planned, staged event.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes It was unique to me, based on feelings and emotions. It is difficult to
communicate it because no one else would understand.
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
Throughout.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
Throughout.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes When I 'came back', for a while everything was more vivid, with more
depth and solidity.
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
No
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
This is the most surprising aspect. There were almost no emotions
involved. It was almost all logical and matter of fact. I wasn't afraid to die,
or relieved when I lived. Afterwards I wanted to cry, but not because I was sad
or upset.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes At the moment of impact there was a blinding white light.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Uncertain I believe God took me on a tour of the Universe. Everything
imaginable was communicated to me.
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Uncertain I was shown everything. Since the event, many things have
happened that I remember being shown.
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes I definitely went into the Void. Absolutely positive about that.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes Time definitely slowed down.
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes I was shown everything from beginning to end, but knew I would forget
when/if I came back. One thing I saw was eternity. There is lots of time for
everything. There is no rush or panic to do anything. Two seconds is a lifetime.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
Yes I was shown everything by God. It has to be accurate.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes The gift of time, of seeing time how God sees it.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Yes, but not all of it and only with one person. She didn't understand
what had happened, only that I had changed a bit.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes I had a previous experience about 15 years ago that was quite different.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real It had to be real. Through the lens of my
faith, there is no question that I was set-up for it, that it was meant to
happen, and that well, I'm not sure if I understand the question. It was real,
period.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The
most meaningful part was that two seconds is an eternity.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real Same answer as above.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
I
thought I was patient before! As I said to the man, "I'm ok. I'm not angry." I
seem to have a better appreciation of other people's positions and feelings.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes Yes, in meditation I reach the Void quicker and easier.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Just
that I saw it not as an epiphany, it was more of a coming together of many
lessons. Many pieces of the puzzle fell into place and everything I believe in
was confirmed. It was also, from a certain point of view, hysterically funny.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
not really.