Doug H's Experience
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Experience description:
Briefly; My son had
fallen ill with a form of leukemia due to anti-rejection drugs he had taken
over 8 yrs after a heart transplant when he was 6yrs of age. He had
experienced excellent health for 8 yrs post transplant until problems with his
immune system due to the immunosuppressants he had been taking. He had
been in and out of intensive care a number of time during his last 5 weeks
alive, however he simply succumbed to the leukaemia type disease and treatment
which unfortunately did not help him. The night
before he passed, I had walked back into his room in the intensive care unit
where his aunty was sitting with him. I believe at this point my son was aware
of who was present but appeared almost comatose due to his illness and drug
induced relaxed state as he had been intubated. As I sat
by my son bed on the right side of him, I had a sudden feeling of being agitated
and for some reason wanted to be suddenly alone with him. This was unusual for
me as there are always people in an intensive care ward. I didn't want to
tell my son's aunty to leave but, strangely enough she all of a sudden said she
was going outside so I could be alone with my son. This was unusual because my
wife and I were there most of the time, every day and we welcomed family close
visitors. Once my
son�s aunty has left the room, I was sitting quietly holding his right hand and
felt the need to close my eyes which I did. I felt very calm and began to
move very fast through space, similar to a tunnel effect, where there was a
brilliant white crystal clear light. I didn't seem to be going anywhere other
then forward through this space at a very fast speed. I felt I was in control
and could get off anytime. I don't know exactly how long it lasted but I would
say about 30 seconds to almost a minute. I didn't
feel shocked, surprised at all just very quickly accepted it was a sign from my
son that he was going to be OK when he passed. When I opened my eyes it
stopped and I very vividly remember still being very calm from the experience
and simply said quietly out loud, "thanks for that XXX", saying my son's name.
I told me wife and a few close friends about the episode but generally I don't
talk about it. My son died at 8.15am the following morning, he was 15 yrs old. Now, all I
can say is that I know what I experienced and I would be interested in hearing
if any others who have had a similar experience when they themselves have not
been the one ill or injured. Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
Yes Only
for my son.
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Fully
alert, not too tired, not too emotional, just normal given the gravity of the
circumstance.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
Somewhat
surreal.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Calm, in
control, happy for the sign from my son.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
No sound what
so ever.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
No
response Only the sense of the bright light, not aware of any other senses
through experience.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Interesting question, I may have.
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes there
is obviously something greater then just ourselves going on!
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
Only
positively.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
What emotions
did you experience following your experience?
Satisfaction.
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
It was all
good.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Lots,
but not at this stage.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
None