Debi's Experience
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Experience description:
At the
time of the experience, I worked afternoons and evenings, sometimes into early
morning hours. It was well after midnight the night when I returned home to my
husband and two children. Our son, Mark (who has recently sent a dream/vision
experience similar to NDE to share with you), was at that time, about 2 years
old and our daughter was still less than 1 year old. When I lay down beside my
husband, I was having some difficulty relaxing to fall asleep...feeling "antsy":
physically tired but mentally active and sleepless. My husband was sleeping
soundly. I don't think I had checked on the children. I knew I couldn't go to
sleep unless I did, so right after I'd gotten into bed, I decided to look in on
them. I got back
up, and went into to their rooms, which were right next to ours, to make sure
they were comfortable and covered with their blankets. It felt as if my steps
were gliding on air. The rooms were dim, but my eyes were adjusted to the dark.
Our windows were always open at night to the fresh ocean breezes and moonlight.
Satisfied, I went back into our bedroom. Getting ready to climb back into bed, I
sat gently down on my side. I looked over at my husband to make sure I'd not
disturbed his sleep, when I saw someone sleeping next to him. I didn't have on
my eye-glasses (I am near-sighted), but I could very clearly see it was a woman,
and immediately recognized her as myself. I was very startled and thought, "Omigosh!
I must have died!" Feeling panicky, I lay down into my body as quickly and hard
as I could and pulled up the covers. After I
lay still for a few minutes, trying to settle myself down, I shut my eyes really
tight, got back up, ran to the doorway to flip on the light switch, turned on
the ceiling lamp, then ran back and jumped into bed, waking my husband. He was
irritated with the ceiling light shining into his eyes, but I refused to turn it
off until I regained my composure. I explained what I had just experienced,
although I believe he thought I was dreaming, and he wasn't too sympathetic
since his sleep had been interrupted.
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
My memory of the experience is
that I was wide-awake, feeling a bit "buzzy" or "antsy" with the nervous energy
that sometimes doesn't settle right away when one returns from a busy time at
work. I felt fully conscious and alert during the whole experience. I had no
memory or feelings of having fallen asleep, being asleep, nor of dreaming.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
That was how it felt -- a
lightness of weight, and gliding, but I didn't look at my appearance or form
apart from my body. I believe I experienced a separation of my consciousness
from my body.
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
Emotions were noticeable during
the time I got up and checked on my children, except the normal motherly concern
for my sleeping children who I'd not seen since earlier that day before work. I
did sense a passing curiosity about the feeling of gliding on air instead of
walking. I felt only fear when I saw my physical body lying on the bed.
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
No.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures? No
No, I saw the interior of my
bedroom and the children's bedrooms, their furniture, my sleeping husband,
children and my own physical body just as they exist in daily/nightly life.
Did you notice how your 5
senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes
There was no differences except
for a weightless, gliding feeling when moving from room-to-room.
Were you involved in or aware
of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
I was frightened and literally
slammed myself: my "conscious self" or "separated self" into my reclining
physical body, unsure if I was dead, alive or if I could even get back in. My
panic and attempt to return to my body was more survival instinct than decided
choice (unlike NDE's).
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? No changes
or after-affects.
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
Yes. My husband seemed to think
I dreamt it all. My mother, siblings have had "paranormal" experiences which we
compare or talk about at times, and found it somewhat interesting, I think. My
children, now adult, and I have talked about it, and they found it interesting.
My son mostly finds it thought-provoking, since we both share like-interests,
and he has recently had a profound NDE-like experience in a dream/vision.
What emotions did you
experience following your experience?
After the fear subsided and I felt
that I understood what had probably just happened (OOBE), I turned off the light
and went to sleep.
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
Best: lightly gliding on air
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
After
the panic subsided, I realized I probably had an out-of-body experience. I'd
attempted, by myself, several times to have one, a few years before, without
success. I tried several times since that time to purposely experience going
out-of-body, again without success.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Yes,
however more question could be "have you or any of your family members had
similar experiences?" or if such experiences are known to be common in the
family. In my case it would be yes, on both counts. My maternal grandmother
(Southern Baptist) had described an NDE during an operation as well as
visitations at time of death from loved ones. My mother had something of an OOBE
experience (feeling of walking on air and hearing a group of unseen men who
talked with lilting, conversational voices pass by) as she walked on a
Cisternian Abby grounds in England, and also had a visitation of an praying
entity on the death of a young nephew in the States, both in the early 1950's --
among many other experiences. My grandmother was a devoted Christian, as is my
mother. When I was a little girl of about 6 years of age living in England,
after arising one morning, I had the sensation of floating down the stairs as I
went down for breakfast. Surprised, I looked down to see where my feet were. I
became startled, and it seemed like I was dropped from mid-air onto the
mid-stair landing, tumbling down the rest of the way to the first floor. I
remember telling my mother I was floating, and she remembers the morning as
well, although she was not in the room until after I fell. I may have been
having a lucid dream, or perhaps was slightly out-of-body. When I was about 19
years old, I had the experience of seeing through my closed eyes and through the
bed-covers on awakening one morning. I could see very clearly and without my
glasses and watched as a guest walked by to use the only bathroom which was
accessed through the bedroom in the small apartment. As mentioned, my son has
had a NDE-like experience. The women in my mother's family, my siblings and my
children have had various unusual or "paranormal" experiences and
synchronicities, as well as deep experiences within the realms of religious
faith. (#23)
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
It may
be that such experiences are common within many families. It would be
interesting to include a question (as mentioned in #29) concerning family
members with stated permissions from those persons other than the author to
quote the experiences if surnames are presented.