DeAnna
P's Experience
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Experience description:
I had a dream where I was waking with this man with a beard in this kind of like
garden. The man had the short kind of beard, very close to the face and his hair
and beard were both very white. I knew this man in my dream as a sort of
"advisor" or teacher. He was wearing the Roman style dress...like tog, but he
was also wearing a kind of cloak.....again, very Roman. The garden had these
"gazebo" kind of buildings...like for shade? They were white and had Doric (?)
columns......like found in the Roman or more likely Greek styled architecture (I
spell horribly) There were pools...deep blue...and the sky was blue...very
blue...all of the colors were VERY vivid...I was walking beside this man I do
not know in "real" life, but obviously knew here. I too was dressed like he and
I was very comfortable speaking with him. I no longer remember exactly what we
were talking about, but the "gist" of our "meeting" was my inability to deal
with anger. The
significance of this dream is that I have always suffered poor "anger
management". getting into fights as a child, being a "wild" teenager by being
extremely stubborn and, well..angry. I still suffer problem with dealing with
anger, though several "lessons" have been "thrown my way" that have allowed me
to "mellow" a little. Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience: No Was the
experience difficult to express in words?
Uncertain
What was it about the
experience that makes it hard to communicate?
the experience happened a LONG time ago, so the detail is hazy... At the
time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Uncertain Describe:
I was severely abused as a child and was living with a druen step-father and a
manic depressive mother...whew...kinda close to life-threatening.... What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I believe I was lucid dreaming...so...as alert as one cn be in that kind of
dream Was the
experience dream like in any way?
yes..it WAS a dream...but I didn't feel like it as like any dream I would
normally have Did you
experience a separation of consciousness from your body?
No What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
at first, frustration...lie I was trying to convince the man o something I knew
in my heart to not be true....then LOTS of anger....LOTS of rage...then I was
embarrassed, but understood this was my "lesson" to learn. Did you
hear any unusual sounds or noises?
no...though the "devils'" laughter seemed coming from within myself....(more
than external. coming from the devils) Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Uncertain
Describe:
Cannot recall how I got to the "garden" ..I left in a swirling, tunnel-like
whirlpool Did
you see a light? No Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes
Describe:
I was walking with a man of medium build and height who had a short, white beard
and was wearing a light colored toga with a darker colored "cloak" in the manner
of Roman or Greek fashion during the height of those empires. I knew him in this
dream but NOT in "real life". I cannot remember all that was said, just the
feeling that I was being tested and failed though it was understood that was
what as going to happen all along...and the being was gentle and understanding
of my "fault" Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Uncertain
Describe:
only special knowing that I would forever (at least in THIS life) be plagued by
problems with controlling my temper and anger Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No Did
you become aware of future events?
Uncertain
Describe:
only that I would not easily overcome my anger problem Were
you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?
Uncertain
Describe:
After I attacked the "devils", I was sucked back to being awake through a
whirlpool that developed in one of the pools Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
No Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No Has
the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices
etc.? Career choices?
Once in a while, I will actually attempt to look into an anger management
class...and whether it be age or awareness....I will actually now apologize to
people I blow up at and admit a problem with anger management (the first step,
so they say) Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
Describe:
I have only old a few people......but only in the context that it was a very
vivid dream What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
anger (at myself for failing...) Is there
anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Only that I am beginning to believe that we all have some kind of lesson to
learn here in this life. I am not too sure of "god" or even that I continue to
exist after this life......but I know that ALL of us have some kind of gift that
we can share and ALL of us have some kind of crutch to throw away. The trick is
to first recognize this fact, admit it, try to overcome it and perhaps teach
another to overcome a similar obstacle.....but then again, I could be wrong
about the whole thing.....that's the beauty of life....we won't know the "truth"
of it until the very end....I hope I DO see the light! Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No Following
the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
I felt as if this man had been trying to give me a test, that I had apparently
"failed". I was trying to beg...to make excuses, to ask for another chance. Then
the "scene" changed and I was being attacked by these devils...the looked just
like cherubs...fat baby faces...but they were red and they were laughing at
me...taunting me with these pitch forks (yes....pitchforks.....) I began to get
angry....physically getting red in the face and I started to beat these "devils"
in anger...I was beating them into pulps and they were laughing at me. I failed
the test again, knowing in my heart I had a LONG way to go to overcome this
anger. I heard the man's voice say something to m in a soothing voice...and I
got sucked into this whirlpool that had formed in one of the pools. The man's
face was sad, but understanding. Then I woke up.